Part 31 (1/2)
”You'll admit it's an intrusion?” he said fiercely. ”I don't see what you and I have got to do with each other now.”
Daphne struggled for self-control. After all, she had always managed him in the old days. She would manage him now.
”Roger--I--I didn't come to discuss the past. That's done with. But--I heard things about you--that----”
”You didn't like?” he laughed. ”I'm sorry, but I don't see what you have to do with them.”
Daphne's hand fidgeted with her dress, her eyes still cast down.
”Couldn't we talk without bitterness? Just for ten minutes? It was from Captain Boyson that I heard----”
”Oh, Boyson, was that it? And he got his information from French--poor old Herbert. Well, it's quite true. I'm no longer fit for your--or his--or anybody's society.”
He threw himself into an arm-chair, calmly took a cigarette out of a box that lay near, and lit it. Daphne at last ventured to look at him. The first and dominant impression was of something shrunken and diminished.
His blue flannel suit hung loose on his shoulders and chest, his athlete's limbs. His features had been thinned and graved and scooped by fever and broken nights; all the n.o.ble line and proportion was still there, but for one who had known him of old the effect was no longer beautiful but ghastly. Daphne stared at him in dismay.
He on his side observed his visitor, but with a cooler curiosity. Like French he noticed the signs of change, the dying down of brilliance and of bloom. To go your own way, as Daphne had done, did not seem to conduce to a woman's good looks.
At last he threw in a dry interrogation.
”Well?”
”I came to try and help you,” Daphne broke out, turning her head away, ”to ask Mr. French what I could do. It made me unhappy----”
”Did it?” He laughed again. ”I don't see why. Oh, you needn't trouble yourself. Elsie and Herbert are awfully good to me. They're all I want, or at any rate,” he hesitated a moment, ”they're all I _shall_ want--from now on. Anyway, you know there'd be something grotesque in your trying your hand at reforming me.”
”I didn't mean anything of the kind!” she protested, stung by his tone.
”I--I wanted to suggest something practical--some way by which you might--release yourself from me--and also recover your health.”
”Release myself from you?” he repeated. ”That's easier said than done.
Did you mean to send me to the Colonies--was that your idea?”
His smile was hard to bear. But she went on, choking, yet determined.
”That seems to be the only way--in English law. Why shouldn't you take it? The voyage, the new climate, would probably set you up again. You need only be away a short time.”
He looked at her in silence a moment, fingering his cigarette.
”Thank you,” he said at last, ”thank you. And I suppose you offered us money? You told Herbert you would pay all expenses? Oh, don't be angry!
I didn't mean anything uncivil. But,” he raised himself with energy from his lounging position, ”at the same time, perhaps you ought to know that I would sooner die a thousand times over than take a single silver sixpence that belonged to you!”
Their eyes met, his quite calm, hers sparkling with resentment and pain.
”Of course I can't argue with you if you meet me in that tone,” she said pa.s.sionately. ”But I should have thought----”
”Besides,” he interrupted her, ”you say it is the only way. You are quite mistaken. It is not the only way. As far as freeing me goes, you could divorce me to-morrow--here--if you liked. I have been unfaithful to you. A strange way of putting it--at the present moment--between you and me! But that's how it would appear in the English courts. And as to the 'cruelty'--that wouldn't give _you_ any trouble!”
Daphne had flushed deeply. It was only by a great effort that she maintained her composure. Her eyes avoided him.
”Mrs. Fairmile?” she said in a low voice.