Part 27 (1/2)

”Yes, but it throws light upon his character. Would a mere fortune-hunter have done it? No, Mrs. Barnes!--that view of Roger does not really convince you, you do not really believe it.”

She smiled bitterly.

”As it happens, in his letters to me after I left him, he amply confessed it.”

”Because his wish was to make peace, to throw himself at your feet. He accused himself, more than was just. But you do not really think him mercenary and greedy, you _know_ that he was neither! Mrs. Barnes, Roger is ill and lonely.”

”His mode of life accounts for it.”

”You mean that he has begun to drink, has fallen into bad company. That may be true. I cannot deny it. But consider. A man from whom everything is torn at one blow; a man of not very strong character, not accustomed to endure hardness.--Does it never occur to you that you took a frightful responsibility?”

”I protected myself--and my child.”

He breathed deep.

”Or rather--did you murder a life--that G.o.d had given you in trust?”

He paused, and she paused also, as though held by the power of his will.

They were pa.s.sing along the public garden that borders the road; scents of lilac and fresh leaf floated over the damp gra.s.s; the moonlight was growing in strength, and the majesty of the gorge, the roar of the leaping water all seemed to enter into the moral and human scene, to accent and deepen it.

Daphne suddenly clung to a seat beside the path, dropped into it.

”Captain Boyson! I--I cannot bear this any longer.”

”I will not reproach you any more,” he said, quietly. ”I beg your pardon. The past is irrevocable, but the present is here. The man who loved you, the father of your child, is alone, ill, poor, in danger of moral ruin, because of what you have done. I ask you to go to his aid.

But first let me tell you exactly what I have just heard from England.”

He repeated the greater part of French's letter, so far as it concerned Roger.

”He has his mother,” said Daphne, when he paused, speaking with evident physical difficulty.

”Lady Barnes I hear had a paralytic stroke two months ago. She is incapable of giving advice or help.”

”Of course, I am sorry. But Herbert French----”

”No one but a wife could save him--no one!” he repeated with emphasis.

”I am _not_ his wife!” she insisted faintly. ”I released myself by American law. He is nothing to me.” As she spoke she leant back against the seat and closed her eyes. Boyson saw clearly that excitement and anger had struck down her nervous power, that she might faint or go into hysterics. Yet a man of remarkable courtesy and pitifulness towards women was not thereby moved from his purpose. He had his chance; he could not relinquish it. Only there was something now in her att.i.tude which recalled the young Daphne of years ago; which touched his heart.

He sat down beside her.

”Bear with me, Mrs. Barnes, for a few moments, while I put it as it appears to another mind. You became first jealous of Roger, for very small reason, then tired of him. Your marriage no longer satisfied you--you resolved to be quit of it; so you appealed to laws of which, as a nation, we are ashamed, which all that is best among us will, before long, rebel against and change. Our State system permits them--America suffers. In this case--forgive me if I put it once more as it appears to me--they have been used to strike at an Englishman who had absolutely no defence, no redress. And now you are free; he remains bound--so long, at least, as you form no other tie. Again I ask you, have you ever let yourself face what it means to a man of thirty to be cut off from lawful marriage and legitimate children? Mrs. Barnes! you know what a man is, his strength and his weakness. Are you really willing that Roger should sink into degradation in order that you may punish him for some offence to your pride or your feeling? It may be too late! He may, as French fears, have fallen into some fatal entanglement; it may not be possible to restore his health. He may not be able”--he hesitated, then brought the words out firmly--”to forgive you. Or again, French's anxieties about him may be unfounded. But for G.o.d's sake go to him! Once on English ground you are his wife again as though nothing had happened.

For G.o.d's sake put every thing aside but the thought of the vow you once made to him! Go back! I implore you, go back! I promise you that no happiness you have ever felt will be equal to the happiness that step would bring you, if only you are permitted to save him.”

Daphne was by now shaking from head to foot. The force of feeling which impelled him so mastered her that when he gravely took her hand she did not withdraw it. She had a strange sense of having at last discovered the true self of the quiet, efficient, unpretending man she had known for so long and cast so easily aside. There was shock and excitement in it, as there is in all trials of strength between a man and a woman. She tried to hate and despise him, but she could not achieve it. She longed to answer and crush him, but her mind was a blank, her tongue refused its office. Surprise, resentment, wounded feeling made a tumult and darkness through which she could not find her way.

She rose at last painfully from her seat.

”This conversation must end,” she said brokenly. ”Captain Boyson, I appeal to you as a gentleman, let me go on alone.”