Part 19 (1/2)

”t.i.thian,” Sadira sighed. In Tyr, the conversation always came back to t.i.thian.

”t.i.thian wanted it all: Rajaat's spells, the pool, the tower, the Dark Lens. He didn't think about dragons. He thought he wanted to be a sorcerer-king, but what he truly wanted to be was a champion.”

”Would he-” the sorceress succ.u.mbed to her own curiosity. ”Would Rajaat have made t.i.thian into something like you or Borys? The way Rajaat was hunting and killing sorcerer-kings, I wouldn't think he'd ever make another champion.”

The trap was set, the prey was sniffing at the bait, all that remained was a little tug on the trip-cord. ”Rajaat already had his next creation: something better than an immortal champion who'd slip from his control. His minions had already shaped her in his tower-with his permission, of course. They couldn't have worked magic there otherwise. She can't draw on the Dark Lens, can't channel its power to her friends, because it wasn't there when she was made. And, being mortal when she was made, she won't survive long enough to become a dragon. But she'll serve his purposes; she already has-”

Sadira boiled off her stool. The shadow-stuff that cloaked her skin when the b.l.o.o.d.y sun was above the horizon came alive with the sorcery she intended to hurl at him. But Rajaat's last champion-his last true true champion-sprang his trap. Pursing his lips, Hamanu inhaled through his mouth. A thin stream of shadow-stuff whirled from her to him, and, to Sadira's wide-eyed horror, she couldn't stop it. champion-sprang his trap. Pursing his lips, Hamanu inhaled through his mouth. A thin stream of shadow-stuff whirled from her to him, and, to Sadira's wide-eyed horror, she couldn't stop it.

”There are,” Hamanu explained when she was mortally pale and shaken, ”a few things you don't know about yourself.”

He shed what remained of his peddlar's illusion and became his favorite self: the tawny-skinned man with flowing black hair. There was just a hint of sulphur in his eyes. The shadow-stuff he'd stolen flowed in serpentine streams along his limbs.

Sadira tried to cast an ordinary spell the ordinary way Hamanu wagged a finger, and she was cut off from everything except herself. A dragon could quicken spells from the life essence he, or she, h.o.a.rded inside; a mortal sorcerer didn't have the essence to spare. Sadira wrapped her arms beneath her b.r.e.a.s.t.s.

”Why have you come? Why have you come now, today? You could have killed me anytime.”

”Not to kill you, dear lady. I came to talk to you, but you weren't listening and, because of that, no one will ever see a troll-the silver shadow of a troll-again.”

The words of an apology swirled the surface of Sadira's thoughts. She swallowed them without speaking them, which was wise, because the apology wouldn't have been sincere. She didn't care about trolls; she especially didn't care about Hamanu's loss. ”Talk to me,” she said instead, her thoughts a mixture of fear and defiance.

”We'll talk about sorcery. It must be quickened. You know that-” Hamanu stirred Sadira's memories. ”You learned when you were twelve, when Ktandeo of the Veil came to-” he stirred deeper and found the name-”the Mericles estate, t.i.thian's t.i.thian's estate-” estate-”

Hamanu's eyebrow rose. He hadn't suspected an older connection between the sorceress and the usurper, between a slave and her master.

Sadira squirmed on her stool. She froze when he smiled. Her mind conjured images of her fears; the fears women naturally and needlessly had in his presence. Foolish fears: the Lion-King hadn't raped a woman since Borys became the Dragon of Tyr.

”I'm not here for that,” he said wearily. ”From Ktandeo, you learned to steal the life essence from plants for your sorcery. Then you learned that with obsidian between you and your spell, you could steal the essence from any living thing. The Dark Lens is a sort of obsidian, dear lady, a very special sort: it steals from the sun, the source of all life. I don't know where Rajaat found it, but he didn't make it. He used it to make his champions, but mostly he was looking for a way to steal directly from the sun, as you first learned to steal directly from plants.”

”The shadowfolk? Rajaat was looking for a way to steal from the sun when he made Umbra, Khidar, and the other shadow-giants?”

”The War-Bringer had found a way well before that.” Hamanu held out his arm. The shadows had ceased writhing and were spreading a sooty pall across his tawny skin. ”But his way was independent, contrary. He rebelled, refused his destiny. Because of him, all the champions rebelled and sealed Rajaat beneath the Black. For ages Rajaat had explored the sun and light; in the Hollow, he studied dark and shadow. That's when he made the shadowfolk and the shadowfolk made you. But one thing is always true, whatever Rajaat does, his sorcery exacts a price. Each time you resort to the gifts Rajaat's shadowfolk gave you, whether to quicken your spells or save a life, you slip deeper into Rajaat's destiny.”

Sadira rose. She stood in the hot sunlight streaming through the open window. Her thoughts moved far below the surface of her mind. Hamanu left them alone. If the sorceress was cold, the light would warm her. If she thought her shadow-gifts would be restored, she'd be sorely disappointed. They'd be back tomorrow, and not one sunbeam sooner.

”I would know,” she said, too softly for mortal ears to overhear, but loud enough for the Lion-King. ”I would know if I was one of them. them. It can't be true. Hamanu is the liar, the deceiver.” It can't be true. Hamanu is the liar, the deceiver.”

Silently, Hamanu came up behind her and laid his hands gently on her shoulders. She shuddered as thoughts of resistance rose, then fell, in her consciousness.

”Dear lady, I have neither need nor reason to deceive you. The War-Bringer's sorcery lives within you as it lives within me. It makes patterns of light and shadow across our thoughts. We deceive ourselves.” For a fleeting moment, the lava lake was foremost in his thoughts. ”We've deceived each other-”

Sadira cut him short. ”I'm not not like you. I went to the Pristine Tower because the Dragon had to be destroyed and the shadowfolk could give me the power to destroy him.” like you. I went to the Pristine Tower because the Dragon had to be destroyed and the shadowfolk could give me the power to destroy him.”

The lake was gone; the cruel need to make her suffer for Windreaver's loss had returned. ”Rajaat's ”Rajaat's shadowfolk. shadowfolk. Rajaat's Rajaat's shadowfolk helped you because Borys was the key to Rajaat's prison. Once you destroyed Borys, Rajaat was free-” shadowfolk helped you because Borys was the key to Rajaat's prison. Once you destroyed Borys, Rajaat was free-”

”t.i.thian freed Rajaat! t.i.thian had the Dark Lens.”

”t.i.thian was aided by the same shadowfolk who took you to the Crystal Steeple.”

”I fought fought Rajaat. He would have killed me if Rkard hadn't used the sun and the Dark Lens together against him. I cast the spells that put him back beneath the Black. I put his bones and the Dark Lens at the bottom of a lake of molten rock, where no one can retrieve them. How can you Rajaat. He would have killed me if Rkard hadn't used the sun and the Dark Lens together against him. I cast the spells that put him back beneath the Black. I put his bones and the Dark Lens at the bottom of a lake of molten rock, where no one can retrieve them. How can you dare dare say that I'm Rajaat's creation, that I serve him!” say that I'm Rajaat's creation, that I serve him!”

Hamanu amused himself with her hair. Like Manu so many ages ago, Sadira had all the pieces in her hand, but she couldn't see the pattern. Unlike Manu, she had someone older and wiser who would make the pattern for her. And he would show it to her, without mercy.

”Dear lady-what is obsidian?”

”Black gla.s.s. Shards of sharp black gla.s.s mined by slaves slaves in Urik.” in Urik.”

”And before it was black gla.s.s?” Hamanu ignored her predictable provocations.

She didn't know, so he told her- ”Obsidian is lava, dear lady. Molten rock. When lava cools very fast it becomes obsidian. You, dear lady-as you said-put Rajaat's bones and the Dark Lens in a lava lake. Have you felt the Black, dear lady? It's so very cold, and Rajaat, dear lady, is both beneath the Black and at the bottom of a lava lake. Think of the Dark Lens sealed in an obsidian mountain. Think of Rajaat-or t.i.thian, if you'd rather-quickening a spell.”

”No,” Sadira whispered. She would have collapsed if his hands hadn't been there to support her. ”No, my spells bind them.”

”Have you returned to Ur Draxa recently?” Hamanu thrust an image of the fog-bound lake into Sadira's consciousness. ”Your spells weaken each night.” Her pulse slowed until it and the sullen red creva.s.ses of the image throbbed in unison. ”Rajaat is a shadow of what he was, but with the War-Bringer, shadow is essence. t.i.thian serves him as Sacha Arala once served him, so blinded by his own arrogance that he doesn't know he's a fool. A foolish enemy is sometimes the most dangerous enemy of all-”

Without warning, Hamanu sundered Sadira's mind. Rajaat's last champion ransacked every memory she clung to, every wish she'd made since childhood, all in search of their creator's shadow in her thoughts. He was as fast as he was brutal; the a.s.sault was finished before she screamed. Hamanu took her voice away.

Sadira writhed against the hands supporting her shoulders. Hamanu let her go. She reeled and stumbled her way to the window ledge where she crumpled into a small parcel of misery and fear. Her eyes and mouth were open wide. Her fingers fluttered against her voiceless throat.

”I had to know,” he explained. ”I had to know what you're capable of.”

Hamanu already knew what he was capable of-not merely the sundering of a woman's mind, but the planting of a thousand years of memories of Windreaver. Hamanu had seen to it that Windreaver wouldn't be forgotten by the woman whose spell had both freed him and-in the Lion-King's eyes-destroyed him. Whenever Sadira remembered, she'd remember the troll commander. It was rough justice: the Lion-King's sort of justice, and no real justice at all, only guilt and grief.

Sadira's hair fell over her face as she struggled against Hamanu's spell. Locks of red tangled in her fingers. She gasped, a rattling spasm that left her limp against the wall. Still, it had been a sound. The Lion-King's sorcery was fading.

”There's nothing to fear. No need to scream. You are Rajaat's creation, but you don't serve him willingly.”

Sadira swept her hair back from her face. Her eyes were baleful, belying Hamanu's words. ”I would die first,” she whispered. ”I'm not Rajaat's creation. I put his bones and the Dark Lens where I thought they'd be sealed away forever. If you knew otherwise, then you're to blame. I did what I thought was right. If I was wrong...” She shook her head and stared at the floor. ”Kill me and be done with it.”

”I'm not here for that. I have been to the lava lake and now I've come here for your help. In three-”

She laughed, a rasping sound that clearly hurt and left her gagging as she pushed herself to her feet. ”Help? Me help you? You must-”

Sadira winced. Her eyes were drawn to the sooty stain that marked Windreaver's pa.s.sage. She'd encountered a memory that wasn't hers. With a cold sweat blooming on her already pallid face, Sadira once again needed the wall to support her. Hamanu skimmed her thoughts. What he found was Deche, not Windreaver; Dorean as she was after the trolls finished with her.

Hamanu was an expert at the deceptive mind-bending art of suggestion and false memory. He didn't make many mistakes; he removed them if he had. But his memory of Dorean resonated through Sadira's mind faster than he could remove it. The image, fixed and frozen, had become an inextricable part of the half-elf's experience. As a memory, it was no longer false.

”Who was she?”

There'd be no apologies or explanations, no pleas for understanding or compa.s.sion; such notions had no place in Hamanu's life. ”Call her Dorean. She was... would have been my wife.” He wrenched himself away from the memory they shared. It was difficult, but he was the Lion-King. ”And I have been a fool. Rajaat must not escape,” he said as if Dorean weren't still bleeding in his mind. ”Last time we needed a dragon. This time-”

”A dragon? Is that why you're here? You want me to help you replace Borys. You're no different than t.i.thian-”

”I'm very different than t.i.thian or Borys, dear lady. I want to preserve and protect my city and yours. I want-I need-to need-to find a way to keep Rajaat in his prison that doesn't require me-or anyone else-replacing the Dragon of Tyr. I needed to be certain that we agreed-” find a way to keep Rajaat in his prison that doesn't require me-or anyone else-replacing the Dragon of Tyr. I needed to be certain that we agreed-”

”We agree about nothing!” Sadira shouted, then she winced again. Another false memory.

Hamanu didn't skim the image from her mind. Whether she beheld Windreaver or another horror from his own past, he saw that he'd blundered badly when he'd hammered his memories into hers. He shouldn't have done it, and wouldn't have, if he hadn't strangled his rage after she cast her spell. His rage would have killed her, if Windreaver hadn't wished otherwise.

And there wouldn't have been either rage or wish, if he and Windreaver hadn't outlasted their enmity. He'd be in Urik now, conferring with his templars, trying to save his city.