Part 12 (1/2)

There were other sounds around him, other movements. He ignored them until Pavek-mortal Pavek, who did not understand-stood before him with a length of cloth torn from the treasures of ancient Yaramuke in one hand and the critic-lizard's honey pot in the other.

Windreaver stirred, casting his shadow between them. ”You waste your time, manikin. The Troll-Scorcher neither feels nor heals.”

Pavek said nothing, and his thoughts were tightly shuttered in his druid-templar way. He poured the honey over Hamanu's wound-an old soldier's remedy, Javed would approve, Telhami, too-then wrapped the cloth around it, hiding it from sight. Hamanu closed his eyes and reveled in a newfound pain.

CHAPTER TEN.

Hamanu banished his companions from the workroom. He'd lived too long outside the bounds of compa.s.sion to be comfortable within its embrace. Not that Windreaver had suddenly mellowed; the shadowy troll departed in a gust of bitter laughter. Hamanu didn't know where his ancient enemy had gone-to Ur Draxa, perhaps, where he should have been all along, spying on Rajaat.

In truth, Hamanu didn't care where Windreaver was. It was Pavek who weighed heavily in his thoughts, and Pavek who ignored his command. The stubborn, insignificant mortal stopped one stride short of the doorway.

”Your hand-” he said, defiance and fear entwined in his voice. Then he held out the honey jar.

”I am the almighty, immortal Lion-King of Urik, or weren't you paying attention?” Hamanu snarled. ”My flesh doesn't heal, but it won't putrefy. I require neither your service nor your concern.”

Pavek stayed where he was, not talking, not thinking-at least not thinking thoughts that could be skimmed from his mind. Twisting human lips into a scowl, Hamanu shaped and s.h.i.+fted his illusionary body. He intended to s.n.a.t.c.h the jar from the templar's hand faster than Pavek's mortal eyes could perceive. But Hamanu had a real injury: his reflexes, both illusory and real, were impaired. His fingers slid past the jar. The improvised bandage snagged the rough-glazed pottery and tugged the raw edges of his wound as well.

The Lion-King flinched, the jar shattered on the floor, and Pavek blinked-simply blinked.

Hamanu cradled his hand-the real hand within the illusion-trying to remember the last time he'd misjudged the balance between reality and his own illusions. Before the templar was born, before his grandparents had been born.

”You cannot take my measure, Pavek. A mortal cannot imagine me or judge me.” There was more edge to his words than he'd intended, but that was just as well, if it would get the templar moving.

Pavek folded his arms across his chest. ”You were mortal when you measured Myron of Yoram and Rajaat. You didn't hesitate to judge them,” he said, omitting the Lion-King's t.i.tles and honors, as if he and Hamanu were equals.

”Go now,” Hamanu commanded.

But he wasn't surprised when the templar disobeyed; he would have been disappointed otherwise. Pavek didn't share Hamanu's hot temper, but the mortal man had a quiet stubbornness that served the same purpose. An ill-omened purpose for any mortal when a champion's mood was more bleak than it had been in an age.

”Go, Pavek, before my patience is exhausted. I do not choose to be lessoned tonight, not by you, Windreaver, or anyone.”

”You didn't finish your tale.”

”Men have died-and died unpleasantly-” The rest of Hamanu's threat went unspoken. He wouldn't kill tonight, and he'd never kill a man who dared to tell him the truth. ”Not tonight, Pavek. Some other time. Go home, Pavek. Eat a late supper with your friends. Sleep well. I'll summon you when I need you.”

A thought formed on the surface of Pavek's mind, so clear and simple that Hamanu questioned every a.s.sumption he'd ever made about the man's innocence or simplicity. Surely my king needs sleep and food, Surely my king needs sleep and food, Pavek thought. Pavek thought. Surely he needs friends about him tonight. Surely he needs friends about him tonight.

I do not sleep, Pavek, Hamanu replied, shoving the words directly into the templar's mind, which was enough, at last, to send him staggering across the threshold. Hamanu replied, shoving the words directly into the templar's mind, which was enough, at last, to send him staggering across the threshold.

”Friends,” the king muttered to himself when he was finally alone. ”A troll who loathes me, justly, and a templar who defies me. Friends. Nonsense. A pox on friends.”

But the thought of friends.h.i.+p was no easier to banish than Pavek had been. No one had known Hamanu longer, or knew him better, than the last troll general. Urik's history was their history, laced with venom and bile, but shared all the same. What was Windreaver, if not a friend, as well as an enemy?

And what was a friend, if not a mortal man who overcame his own-good sense to bandage a dragon's hand?

Hamanu's hand, down to its patterned whorls and calluses, was illusion, but the wound was real-he had the power to pierce his own defenses, even absentmindedly. There had been other wounds over the ages, which he'd hidden within illusion. Tonight, sorcery and illusion had failed, or, more truly, Hamanu himself had failed. The sight of molten metal in his palm had filled him with horror and self-loathing, and given Pavek an opportunity no mortal should have had. had the power to pierce his own defenses, even absentmindedly. There had been other wounds over the ages, which he'd hidden within illusion. Tonight, sorcery and illusion had failed, or, more truly, Hamanu himself had failed. The sight of molten metal in his palm had filled him with horror and self-loathing, and given Pavek an opportunity no mortal should have had.

Ordinary cloth would have burned or rotted when it touched a champion's changeable flesh. There was only one piece of suitably enchanted cloth in the workroom: the celadon gown of Sieiba Sprite-Claw, champion and queen of Yaramuke. She had worn it when she died in the Lion-King's arms, with his obsidian knife piercing her heart.

Had Windreaver guessed Pavek's intentions while Hamanu was preoccupied? Had the troll whispered a suggestion in Pavek's mortal ears- Or, had some instinct guided the templar's search? Some druid druid instinct? Some druid guardian whose presence a champion's magic couldn't detect? instinct? Some druid guardian whose presence a champion's magic couldn't detect?

Hamanu had thought himself clever when he conceived his campaign to win Pavek's support as a means to win the druid guardian's protection for his city. His bandaged hand could be taken as a sign that he was succeeding-but, at what cost?

A wound?

That was nothing. Windreaver spoke the truth: Rajaat's champions didn't heal, but the raw crater would be consumed by Hamanu's inexorable metamorphosis. In the meantime, he'd had a thousand year's practice ignoring worse agony.

A wound, then, was no cost, but what about the nagging emptiness around his slow-beating heart, hinting that he'd lived too long?

He had Urik, and for a thousand years, Urik had been enough. Mortals came and went; Urik endured. The city was immortal; the city had become Hamanu's life. The pa.s.sions of his minions had supplanted any natural yearning for love or friends.h.i.+p. Then he conceived the notion of writing his history, and after that-after ages of attention and nurturing-his precious minions wandered the city like lost children while he confessed his private history on sheets of vellum.

Hamanu berated himself for their neglect and sought his favorites through the netherworld.

Lord Ursos reclined in his scented bath while adolescents satisfied his whims, his needs. Elegant fingers cupped a beardless chin and drew it close.

The Lion-King turned away. Lord Ursos's bents were familiar, stale, and without fascination. The bath faded from his imagination. He looked around the workroom for another stylus.

I don't know how long I remained strung between life and death, locked in a mind-bender's battle with Myron of Yoram. That's what it was, a netherworld war: the Troll-Scorcher's imagery against mine, his years of experience against the purity of my rage, my hatred. I was, if not dead, at least not truly unconscious when the battle ended. Our battle had lasted long enough and was loud enough to disturb the War-Bringer's peace, and that was what truly mattered.

Rajaat burned through the Gray to find me, though I could not appreciate my rescue or his undoubtedly spectacular appearance on the plains. I was aware of nothing except the pain, the darkness, the silence and-very dimly-that my enemy no longer rose to the challenges I continued, in my mad, mindless way, to hurl at him.

Then there was a ray of light in my black abyss, a wedge of sound, a voice I recognized as power incarnate, telling me to desist.

Your pleas are heard, your wishes granted.

Rajaat. No need for him to state his name, then or ever. When the first sorcerer was present in my mind, the world was Rajaat and Rajaat was the world, endless and eternal.

Look for yourself- He gave me a kes'trekel's vision and hearing. Peering down from a soaring height, I saw mekillots pulling a four-wheeled cart along a barrens road. There was a cage on the cart, and Myron of Yoram was in the cage. The Troll-Scorcher had himself been scorched. He lay on his back, a bloated, blackened carca.s.s. His charred skin hung in tattered strips that swayed in rhythm with the creaking cart. A cloud of buzzing insects feasted on his suppurating wounds.

I'd judged Yoram a corpse; I was wrong. With Rajaat's aid, I heard pathetic whimpers in the depths of his flame-ravaged throat. I saw delicate silver chains nearly lost in the rotting folds at his wrists and ankles: links of sorcery potent enough to render a champion helpless.

I was pleased, but not satisfied. It was not enough that the Troll-Scorcher suffered for his betrayal of the human cause. The war against the trolls had to be fought and won- In time, Manu. In due time. Wait. Rest- A soft shadow surrounded me, not the bleak darkness of my recent torment, but oblivion all the same. I wasn't interested in oblivion or resting or waiting. Childish and petulant, I tried to escape the shadow.

My uncanny vision s.h.i.+fted: There was a second cart. Like the first, it ferried a human husk across the barrens. The second body was little more than a black-boned skeleton held together with rags. Its knees were drawn up. Its arms were crossed and fused together. They hid what remained of its face.

Of my face...

The husk was alive; the husk was me.

All the pain I'd felt was nothing compared to my imagination when I saw what had become of Manu, the lithe dancer of Deche. I no longer fought Rajaat's shadow. I surrendered myself to its numbing softness.

Don't despair, Rajaat told me with a grandfather's kindly voice. Rajaat told me with a grandfather's kindly voice. Pain belongs to your past. Soon you will be reborn and you will never know pain or suffering again. Pain belongs to your past. Soon you will be reborn and you will never know pain or suffering again.

From the first, I doubted that promise: a life without pain or suffering wouldn't be a human life. But my living corpse was strong in my mind, so I banished my doubts and drifted until I heard his voice again.

It is time.