Part 21 (1/2)
”You are angry. I don't blame you, but you have time to talk with me and you shall talk.” She spoke almost fiercely. ”I demand it, sir. If not at the cafe, then here and now. Will you stand aside, please, where the whole town shan't see us; or do you wish me to follow you on? I'm risking already, but I'll risk more.”
I sullenly stepped aside, around the corner of a sheet-iron groggery (plentifully punctured, I noted, with bullet holes) not yet open for business and faced by the blank wall of a warehouse.
”I've been waiting since daylight,” she panted, ”and watching the hotel. I knew you were still there; I found out. I was afraid you wouldn't answer my note, so I slipped around and cut in on you. Where are you going, sir?”
”That, madam, is my private affair,” I replied. ”And all your efforts to influence me in the slightest won't amount to a row of pins. And as I am in a hurry, I again bid you good-morning. I advise you to get back to your husband and your beauty sleep, in order to be fresh for your Big Tent to-night.”
”My husband? You know? Oh, of course you know.” She gazed affrightedly upon me. ”To Montoyo, you say? Him? No, no! I can't! Oh, I can't, I can't.” She wrung her hands, she held me fast. ”And I know where you're going. To that wagon train. Mr. Jenks has engaged you. You will bull-whack to Salt Lake? You? Don't! Please don't. There's no need of it.”
”I am done with Benton, and with Benton's society, madam,” I insisted. ”I have learned my lesson, believe me, and I'm no longer a 'gudgeon.'”
”You never were,” said she. ”Not that. And you don't have to turn bull-whacker or mule-skinner either. It's a hard life; you're not fitted for it--never, never. Leave Benton if you will. I hate it myself. And let us go together.”
”Madam!” I rapped; and drew back, but she clung to me.
”Listen, listen! Don't mistake me again. Last night was enough. I want to go. I must go. We can travel separately, then; I will meet you anywhere--Denver, Omaha, Chicago, New York, anywhere you say--anywhere----”
”Your husband, madam,” I prompted. ”He might have objections to parting with you.”
”Montoyo? That snake--you fear that snake? He is no husband to me. I could kill him--I will do it yet, to be free from him.”
”My good name, then,” I taunted. ”I might fear for my good name more than I'd fear a man.”
”I have a name of my own,” she flashed, ”although you may not know it.”
”I have been made acquainted with it,” I answered roundly.
”No, you haven't. Not the true. You know only another.” Her tone became humbler. ”But I'm not asking you to marry me,” she said. ”I'm not asking you to love me as a paramour, sir. Please understand. Treat me as you will; as a sister, a friend, but anything human. Only let me have your decent regard until I can get 'stablished in new quarters. I can help you,” she pursued eagerly. ”Indeed I can help you if you stay in the West.
Yes, anywhere, for I know life. Oh, I'm so tired of myself; I can't run true, I'm under false colors. You saw how the trainmen curried favor all along the line, how familiar they were, how I submitted--I even dropped that coin a-purpose in the Omaha station, for _you_, just to test you.
Those things are expected of me and I've felt obliged to play my part.
Men look upon me as a tool to their hands, to make them or break them. All they want is my patronage and the secrets of the gaming table. And there is Montoyo--bullying me, cajoling me, watching me. But you were different, after I had met you. I foolishly wished to help you, and last night the play went wrong. Why did I take you to his table? Because I think myself ent.i.tled, sir,” she said on, bridling a little, defiant of my gaze, ”to promote my friends when I have any. I did not mean that you should wager heavily for you. Montoyo is out for large stakes. There is safety in small and I know his system. You remember I warned you? I did warn you. I saw too late. You shall have all your money back again. And Montoyo struck me--_me_, in public! That is the end. Oh, why couldn't I have killed him?
But if you stayed here, so should I. Not with him, though. Never with him.
Maybe I'm talking wildly. You'll say I'm in love with you. Perhaps I am--quien sabe? No matter as to that. I shall be no hanger-on, sir. I only ask a kind of partners.h.i.+p--the encouragement of some decent man near me. I have money; plenty, till we both get a footing. But you wouldn't live on me; no! I don't fancy that of you for a moment. I would be glad merely to tide you over, if you'd let me. And I--I'd be willing to wash floors in a restaurant if I might be free of insult. You, I'm sure, would at least protect me. Wouldn't you? You would, wouldn't you? Say something, sir.”
She paused, out of breath and aquiver. ”Shall we go? Will you help me?”
For an instant her appeal, of swimming blue eyes, upturned face, tensed grasp, breaking voice, swayed me. But what if she were an actress, an adventuress? And then, my parents, my father's name! I had already been cozened once, I had resolved not to be snared again. The spell cleared and I drew exultant breath.
”Impossible, madam,” I uttered. ”This is final. Good-morning.”
She staggered and with magnificent but futile last flourish clapped both hands to her face. Gazing back, as I hastened, I saw her still there, leaning against the sheet-iron of the groggery and ostensibly weeping.
Having shaken her off and resisted contrary temptation I looked not again but paced rapidly for the clean atmosphere of the rough-and-honest bull train. As a companion, better for me Mr. Jenks. When my wrath cooled I felt that I might have acted the cad but I had not acted the simpleton.
The advance of the day's life was stirring all along the road, where under clouds of dust the four and six horse-and-mule wagons hauled water for the town, pack outfits of donkeys and plodding miners wended one way or the other, soldiers trotted in from the military post, and Overlanders slowly toiled for the last supply depot before creaking onward into the desert.
Along the railway grade likewise there was activity, of construction trains laden high with rails, ties, boxes and bales, puffing out, their locomotives belching pitchy black smoke that extended clear to the ridiculous little cabooses; of wagon trains ploughing on, bearing supplies for the grading camps; and a great herd of loose animals, raising a prodigious spume as they were driven at a trot--they also heading westward, ever westward, under escort of a protecting detachment of cavalry, riding two by two, accoutrements flas.h.i.+ng.