Part 14 (1/2)
”It's late already,” said Kaminski.
”Very late,” I said.
”But you just got here!”
”We could watch TV together,” she said. ”It's almost time for Who Wants to Be a Millionaire. Who Wants to Be a Millionaire.”
”Schmidt is a good moderator,” said Holm.
”I've read somewhere that he's getting married,” she said.
Kaminski leaned over and gave me his hand. I helped him to his feet. I had the impression there was something he still wanted to say; I waited, but nothing came. His hold on my arm was weak, almost imperceptible. In my pocket I could feel the tape recorder, I'd almost forgotten it, still running. I switched it off.
”Are you often in the neighborhood?” asked Holm. ”You must come again. Mustn't they, Little Therese?”
”And I'll introduce you to Lore. And her children. Moritz and Lothar. They live in the next street.”
”That's nice,” said Kaminski.
”What kind of art do you actually do?” asked Holm.
We went out into the hall. Holm opened the front door, I turned around, Therese was following us. ”Safe trip, Miguel!” she said, crossing her arms. ”Safe trip!”
We went out through the front garden. The street was empty, except for a woman loitering around. I noticed that Kaminski's arm was trembling.
”Drive carefully!” said Holm, and shut the door.
Kaminski stood still and lifted the other hand, the one that held the stick, to his face. ”I'm sorry,” I said quietly. I couldn't bring myself to look at him. It had turned cold, I closed my jacket. He was leaning heavily on my arm.
”Manuel!” I said.
He didn't reply. The woman turned around and came toward us. She was wearing a black coat and her hair fluttered in the wind. I was so surprised I let go of Kaminski.
”Why didn't you come in?” asked Kaminski. He didn't seem surprised at all.
”He said you were almost finished. I didn't want to prolong things.” Miriam looked at me. ”And now give me the car keys!”
”Excuse me?”
”I'm taking the car back. I had a long talk on the phone with its owner. I am to tell you that if you make any difficulties, you'll be accused of theft.”
”I didn't steal it!”
”The other car, our car, has been located, meanwhile. In the parking lot of a rest stop, with a very polite note of thanks. Do you want it?”
”No!”
She took her father's arm, I opened the door, she helped him into the backseat. He moaned softly, his lips moved but no sound came out. She slammed the door. Nervously I held out the cigarette pack. There was only one left inside.
”I shall allow myself to present you with the bill for my airplane ticket and the taxi fare to get here. I promise you it will not be cheap.” The wind whipped through her hair, and her fingernails were chewed down to the quick. The threat didn't bother me. I had nothing left, so she could take nothing away from me.
”I haven't done anything wrong.”
”Of course not.” She leaned on the car roof. ”This is an old man who's been made the ward of his daughter, right? No one has ever told him that the love of his youth is still alive. You just wanted to help.”
I lifted my shoulders. In the car, Kaminski's head was rocking backward and forward, and his lips were moving.
”That's how it is.”
”And how do you think I know this address?”
I stared at her, confused.
”I've known it for a long, long time. I visited her already ten years ago. She gave me his letters and I tore them up.”
”You what what?”
”That's what he wanted. We always knew that someone like you would come along.”
I took another step back and felt the garden fence on my back.
”He didn't actually want to see her ever again. But after the operation he became sentimental. He asked all of us, me, Bogovic, Clure, everyone he knows. He doesn't know that many people anymore. We wanted to spare him. You must have said something that made him come back to the idea.”
”What did you want to spare him? Meeting that silly old woman? And that idiot of a man?”
”That idiot of a man is clever. I a.s.sume he tried to save the situation. You don't know how easily Manuel cries, and how much he enjoys it. You don't know how bad it could have become. And this old woman got free of him a long time ago. She had a life in which he was totally insignificant.” She frowned. ”Not many people have achieved that.”
”He's weak and he's ill. He doesn't manipulate anyone anymore.”
”No? When you spoke about a prison, I had to laugh. That's when I knew you were just as much in his hand as the rest of us. Didn't he get you to steal two cars and drive him halfway across Europe?”
I put the cigarette between my lips. ”For the last time, I didn't . . .”
”Did he tell you about the contract?”
”What contract”
As she turned her head, for the first time I suddenly saw her resemblance to her father. ”I think he's called Behring, Hans . . .”
”Bahring?”
She nodded. ”Hans Bahring.”
I grabbed the fence. A metal spike stabbed itself into my hand.
”A series of articles in some magazine. About Richard Rieming, Matisse, and postwar Paris. Memories of Pica.s.so, Cocteau, and Giacometti. Manuel talked to him for hours.”
I threw away the cigarette unlit, and held tight to the fence, tighter, as tightly as I could.
”Which doesn't mean you rummaged through our house in vain.” I let go of the fence, and a thin stream of blood ran over my hand. ”Perhaps we should have told you sooner. But you've still got the rest: his childhood, that long time in the mountains. And all his late work.”