Part 19 (1/2)

”It don't feel like home,” said Hephzibah, and then she suddenly burst into tears.

”Oh, my deary!” she sobbed, ”And you so beautiful, and pale, and proud, and never saying a word, and they are none of them fit to black your boots.”

”Oh, hush, hush, Hephzibah!” I said.

My voice calmed her. She looked round as though afraid that grandmamma would come in and scold her for crying.

”There! I am an old fool!” she whimpered. ”But it is being so happy myself and knowing what real love is that makes me cry.”

This picture of my dear old nurse as the heroine of a real love story was so pathetically comic that a lump, half tears, half laughter, rose in my own throat.

”I _am_ so glad you are happy, Hephzibah,” I said, unsteadily. ”And of course I am happy, too. Come--I will show you the beautiful chain Mr.

Gurrage gave me lately, and a set of new rings, a ruby, a sapphire, a diamond, each stone as big as a peanut.”

Hephzibah had not lived with grandmamma for years without acquiring a certain tact. She spoke no more of things that could emotion us, and soon we parted, smiling grimly at each other.

But the sense of exaltation was gone.

I could fly a little, like a bird round a large aviary. The bars were there beyond.

VII

It was odious weather, the afternoon of the 15th. Our eight guns had arrived in time for tea, some with wives, some without--one with a playful, giddy daughter. Men predominated.

There were some two or three decent people from the county round. The remainder, commercial connections, friends of the past.

One terrible woman, with parted, plastered hair and an aggressive voice and rustling silks, dominated the conversation. She is the wife of the brother of the late Mr. Gurrage's partner who ”died youngish.”

This couple come apparently every year to the best partridge drive.

”Dodd” is their name.

Mrs. Dodd was extremely ill at ease among the other ladies, but was determined to let them know that she considered herself their superior in every way.

At the moment when she was recounting, in a strident voice, the shortcomings of one of her local neighbors, the butler announced:

”Sir Antony Thornhirst.”

Our ninth gun had arrived.

”So good of you to ask me,” he said, as he shook hands, and his voice sounded like smooth velvet after the others. And for a minute there was a singing in my ears.

”Jolly glad to see you,” Augustus bl.u.s.tered. ”What beastly weather!

You motored over, I suppose?”

Sir Antony sat down by me.

I remembered the ways he would be accustomed to and did not introduce him to any one.