Part 27 (1/2)
”I know you mean well, and I am--oh, yes, I _am_ obliged to you. Any girl ought to be obliged to a man who offers her the best he has; but I could never under any circ.u.mstances marry you. Now, you know.”
”You will rue it, and I do not think you mean it,” he said. His face turned red, then purple, he turned on his heel, and allowed me to walk back to the house alone.
My head was swimming. My eyes were full of smarting tears which I dared not shed. I entered the drawing-room where Mrs. Fanning was waiting for me.
”Ah! here you are,” she cried, rubbing her hands, and speaking in a very cheerful tone; ”and where is Albert? Has he--has he?--why, what is the matter, my love?”
”I must tell you the truth,” I answered, ”for I know you will guess it. Your son has been kind enough to ask me to marry him. You knew he meant to ask me, did you not? but I--I have refused him. No, I don't want any tea; I don't want even to go back in the brougham. I can never, never marry your son, Mrs. Fanning; and you must have known it--and it was very unkind of you to bring me here without saying anything about it.” And then I sank on the nearest chair, and sobbed as if my heart would break.
CHAPTER XVIII
b.u.t.tERED BREAD
Mrs. Fanning let me cry for a moment or two without interrupting me. I think in her way she had plenty of heart; for once when I raised my head, feeling relieved from the bitter flow of those tears, I found that she was looking at me with a quizzical, but by no means unkindly glance.
”We'll say nothing about this at present,” she exclaimed; ”you shan't be plagued, my dear. I'll talk to Albert, and say that you are not to be worried; but whether you take him in the long run or not, you want your tea now. Come, child, drink up this nice cup of hot tea.”
As she spoke she squeezed herself on to the sofa by my side; and gave me tea according to her taste, and insisted on my drinking it; and I could not refuse her, although my sobs were still coming heavily.
”Ah, you're a proud young girl,” she said, ”you're one of those who do not know which side their bread is b.u.t.tered; but you will some day, the knowledge will come to you, and soon, I'm thinking, soon.”
Here she looked intensely mysterious, and nodded her head emphatically.
”And there's not a better fellow in the length and breadth of England than my son, Albert,” she continued; ”there's no one who would give his wife a better time. Kind, he would be to her; firm, he would be no doubt too. He would make her obey him, but he would make her love him too. You will know all about it by-and-by, my dear, all about it by-and-by. For the present we'll say nothing more. Albert shan't drive with us back in the brougham, although I know he meant to do so. Poor fellow! could love go further; his legs cramped up on that little seat at the back, but love feels no pain, dear; no more than pride feels pain. It's a bit of a shock to you, I know. Proposals always are; that is, to modest girls. I felt terribly fl.u.s.tered when Albert's father asked me to marry him. I a.s.sure you, my love, I could not bear the sight of him for the next fortnight. I used to say, whenever he entered a room, 'I'm going out, Albert, if you're coming in. Get right away now, if you don't want me to hate you for ever,' but, in the end, my dear love, I was head over ears in love with him. There never was a better husband. He would be masterful as a good man should; but, dear, I wors.h.i.+pped the ground he trod on, and it was he who made the beginning of that fortune which Albert has turned into so big a thing.
Well, my love, you have seen the house, and you have gone over the grounds, and you have done something else. You have looked into the great good heart of my son, Albert; and after a time, I have no doubt, you will creep into that heart, and take refuge; but mum's the word at present, mum's the word.”
The idea of my creeping into Albert's heart as a final cave of refuge was so funny, that I could scarcely keep back my smiles; and I almost became hysterical between laughing and crying, so much so, that Mrs.
Fanning had to put her arms round me and hug me, and call me her dear little girl.
I was very glad she did not say, ”dear little thing.” By-and-by she ordered the carriage, and we went back to town. She was most affectionate to me. She a.s.sured me many times that she quite understood; that she had gone through precisely the same phases with regard to Albert Fanning the first but that it had all come right, and that her pa.s.sion for the G.o.dly man had been very strong by-and-by. I should feel just the same with regard to Albert the second. It was the way of girls; that is, nice girls.
”Don't talk to me about that Miss Marion Armstrong,” she said. ”The ways of that girl turn me sick. It is the contrast you make to Marion Armstrong which has done the business more than anything else, my dear Miss Wickham. But there, dear, there we'll turn the conversation.”
”I earnestly wish you would,” I said
”Ah,” she said, ”how history repeats itself. I used to feel as if I would like to box any one in the face who talked to me about my dear Albert long ago. But oh, how I loved him before all was over, how I loved him!”
She almost shed tears at the recollection. In short, I had a most unpleasant drive home. At last it was over. I got out of the brougham, with its red body and chocolate wheels, and staggered rather than walked into the house. I did not dare to see mother until all traces of emotion had left my face, but I made straight for Jane's sanctum.
”Jane,” I said the moment I found myself there, ”the Fannings must go away; they must, Jane, they must.”
”Why so?” asked Jane.
”I will tell you what has just happened. Mother must never know, but I must tell some one. Mrs. Fanning took me into the country in their new brougham. We went to Highgate; they have a house there. Mr. Fanning was there to meet us. He called me a little thing, and he took me over the house and over the grounds, and told me, on pain of his direst displeasure, that I was never to give him salad without onions, and then he asked me to _marry him_. O Jane! what is to be done?”
”But didn't you always know that he was going to ask you?” inquired Jane in a low voice.
”Ask me to marry him! How could I suppose anything so preposterous?” I exclaimed.