Chapter 30 (2/2)

Xu Ping considered for a moment and answered slowly, “I don’t know.”

Huang Fan started laughing again, but laughter turned into coughing.

“I really envy Xu Zheng. He might be an idiot, but he has someone like you loving him wholeheartedly.”

Xu Ping clenched his fist. “Stop talking.”

Huang Fan chuckled. “What are you afraid of? You know, Xu Ping, your biggest fault is being hesitant and fearful, always keeping yourself in a tight frame, unable to relax for even a second. Let me guess. Did you put down Beijing schools on your application?”

Xu Ping clenched his teeth.

“You want to force yourself to be apart from your brother, thinking that would sever your feelings for him.” He began laughing and coughing simultaneously. “Xu Ping, you truly are the biggest fool I’ve ever seen. What’s the point living like this?”

“Did you call just to make fun of me?” Xu Ping spit coldly.

Huang Fan continued without paying heed. “If I were you, Xu Ping, and I met someone I liked, I wouldn’t give a d.a.m.n about what anybody says. I’d hold onto him with everything I got and never let go.”

“He’s my brother!” Xu Ping snapped.

“So what? Does he like you?”

Xu Ping didn’t speak.

After a spell of violent coughing, Huang Fan continued quietly, “Really, Xu Ping, I really envy your brother.”

“What’s there to envy? He’s just an idiot.”

“Yeah, that’s why I envy him. He has obtained what I want without lifting a single finger, but he doesn’t have the slightest clue as to its value.”

Xu Ping chose to stay quiet.

As he listened to the man’s heavy breathing, a firecracker seemed to explode near him on the other end. BOOM!

Xu Ping shuddered.

“Huang Fan! Are you really playing with firecrackers?! Where are you?! The People’s Square?!” He shouted into the receiver.

Huang Fan laughed. “Yeah, we’re at the square with firecrackers. The ertijiao is pretty loud. Why, did it scare you?”

Xu Ping couldn’t speak through his clenched jaws.

“You’re too much of a scaredy-cat, Xu Ping. You need to let yourself go. Sometimes you have to let go first to get what you want. But,” he coughed through his laughter, “it’s not good to be too reckless, like me.”

“Huang Fan, you’re wounded, aren’t you?”

Silence on the other end, then weak chuckles. “Amazing. You could tell over the phone. I was caught off guard by the firecracker and fell down some steps and b.u.mped my head. Don’t worry, though, it’s just a light scratch. It’ll go away tomorrow morning.”

Xu Ping covered his eyes trying to push back the tears.

“Oh no, Xu Ping, we can’t talk anymore. I borrowed a Brick from a friend from Hong Kong, and the minutes are very expensive, and the battery is about to die. Say goodbye to me, Xu Ping.”

“Huang Fan, you f.u.c.king b.a.s.t.a.r.d! Why the h.e.l.l did you call me?! You don’t want me to rest easy, do you?!”

After a long pause, a quiet response came. “I’m sorry, Xu Ping. I’m a selfish person. If I could, I really want to see you again. I miss you. I’m sorry.”

Doo-doo-doo. The tone began to play.

“h.e.l.lo?! h.e.l.lo?!” Xu Ping yelled into the receiver, but the connection had been terminated.

He smashed the receiver back onto the phone.

The martial law announcement kept rolling across the television screen.

“Urgent announcement from the Chinese People’s Liberation Army: the army, local police force and armed police force have liberty to enforce martial law through any means necessary. Protest organizers and rioters are solely responsible for all consequences…”

Biting his nails frantically, Xu Ping paced the room a few times before das.h.i.+ng to his bedroom for a jacket.

He knocked loudly on his brother’s door. “Xiao-Zheng, I’m heading out for a bit.”

His brother didn’t answer.

When he was getting out his sneakers from the closet, his brother finally came out from his room.

“Where are you going, Gege?”

After slipping on his shoes and grabbing his keys, Xu Ping turned around. “I’m going out for a bit. Be back very soon. You stay here. Don’t go anywhere.”

Wearing a tank top and shorts, Xu Zheng shot forward and grabbed him. “I go, too.”

Xu Ping eyed him and then gave him a powerful shove, warning sternly, “You stay home, and don’t go anywhere!”

Xu Zheng heard the front door locking from the outside. After a moment of stupor, he leaned out the balcony and saw his brother racing out the building wearing a grey jacket and blue jeans.

Leaning on the railing, he hollered, “GEGE!”

Xu Ping didn’t hear. His running was swift and nimble, like a soaring bird, flas.h.i.+ng once under the streetlight before disappearing into the vast darkness.

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