Part 36 (1/2)

After that he never struck any of them; and from the sight of a blow dealt a horse he turned as if sick. It was a long time before he lifted himself up from his sorrow, and then the will of the man seemed to have been breached through his affections. He let the girls do as they pleased--the twins had been girls; he let them go away to school, and got them a piano. It was they who made him sell the farm. If Conrad had only had their spirit he could have made him keep it, he felt; and he resented the want of support he might have found in a less yielding spirit than his son's.

His moral decay began with his perception of the opportunity of making money quickly and abundantly, which offered itself to him after he sold his farm. He awoke to it slowly, from a desolation in which he tasted the last bitter of homesickness, the utter misery of idleness and listlessness. When he broke down and cried for the hard-working, wholesome life he had lost, he was near the end of this season of despair, but he was also near the end of what was best in himself. He devolved upon a meaner ideal than that of conservative good citizens.h.i.+p, which had been his chief moral experience: the money he had already made without effort and without merit bred its unholy self-love in him; he began to honor money, especially money that had been won suddenly and in large sums; for money that had been earned painfully, slowly, and in little amounts, he had only pity and contempt. The poison of that ambition to go somewhere and be somebody which the local speculators had instilled into him began to work in the vanity which had succeeded his somewhat scornful self-respect; he rejected Europe as the proper field for his expansion; he rejected Was.h.i.+ngton; he preferred New York, whither the men who have made money and do not yet know that money has made them, all instinctively turn. He came where he could watch his money breed more money, and bring greater increase of its kind in an hour of luck than the toil of hundreds of men could earn in a year. He called it speculation, stocks, the Street; and his pride, his faith in himself, mounted with his luck. He expected, when he had sated his greed, to begin to spend, and he had formulated an intention to build a great house, to add another to the palaces of the country-bred millionaires who have come to adorn the great city. In the mean time he made little account of the things that occupied his children, except to fret at the ungrateful indifference of his son to the interests that could alone make a man of him. He did not know whether his daughters were in society or not; with people coming and going in the house he would have supposed they must be so, no matter who the people were; in some vague way he felt that he had hired society in Mrs. Mandel, at so much a year. He never met a superior himself except now and then a man of twenty or thirty millions to his one or two, and then he felt his soul creep within him, without a sense of social inferiority; it was a question of financial inferiority; and though Dryfoos's soul bowed itself and crawled, it was with a gambler's admiration of wonderful luck. Other men said these many-millioned millionaires were smart, and got their money by sharp practices to which lesser men could not attain; but Dryfoos believed that he could compa.s.s the same ends, by the same means, with the same chances; he respected their money, not them.

When he now heard Mrs. Mandel and his daughters talking of that person, whoever she was, that Mrs. Mandel seemed to think had honored his girls by coming to see them, his curiosity was p.r.i.c.ked as much as his pride was galled.

”Well, anyway,” said Mela, ”I don't care whether Christine's goon' or not; I am. And you got to go with me, Mrs. Mandel.”

”Well, there's a little difficulty,” said Mrs. Mandel, with her unfailing dignity and politeness. ”I haven't been asked, you know.”

”Then what are we goun' to do?” demanded Mela, almost crossly. She was physically too amiable, she felt too well corporeally, ever to be quite cross. ”She might 'a' knowed--well known--we couldn't 'a' come alone, in New York. I don't see why, we couldn't. I don't call it much of an invitation.”

”I suppose she thought you could come with your mother,” Mrs. Mandel suggested.

”She didn't say anything about mother: Did she, Christine? Or, yes, she did, too. And I told her she couldn't git mother out. Don't you remember?”

”I didn't pay much attention,” said Christine. ”I wasn't certain we wanted to go.”

”I reckon you wasn't goun' to let her see that we cared much,” said Mela, half reproachful, half proud of this att.i.tude of Christine. ”Well, I don't see but what we got to stay at home.” She laughed at this lame conclusion of the matter.

”Perhaps Mr. Conrad--you could very properly take him without an express invitation--” Mrs. Mandel began.

Conrad looked up in alarm and protest. ”I--I don't think I could go that evening--”

”What's the reason?” his father broke in, harshly. ”You're not such a sheep that you're afraid to go into company with your sisters? Or are you too good to go with them?”

”If it's to be anything like that night when them hussies come out and danced that way,” said Mrs. Dryfoos, ”I don't blame c.o.o.nrod for not wantun' to go. I never saw the beat of it.”

Mela sent a yelling laugh across the table to her mother. ”Well, I wish Miss Vance could 'a' heard that! Why, mother, did you think it like the ballet?”

”Well, I didn't know, Mely, child,” said the old woman. ”I didn't know what it was like. I hain't never been to one, and you can't be too keerful where you go, in a place like New York.”

”What's the reason you can't go?” Dryfoos ignored the pa.s.sage between his wife and daughter in making this demand of his son, with a sour face.

”I have an engagement that night--it's one of our meetings.”

”I reckon you can let your meeting go for one night,” said Dryfoos. ”It can't be so important as all that, that you must disappoint your sisters.”

”I don't like to disappoint those poor creatures. They depend so much upon the meetings--”

”I reckon they can stand it for one night,” said the old man. He added, ”The poor ye have with you always.”

”That's so, c.o.o.nrod,” said his mother. ”It's the Saviour's own words.”

”Yes, mother. But they're not meant just as father used them.”

”How do you know how they were meant? Or how I used them?” cried the father. ”Now you just make your plans to go with the girls, Tuesday night. They can't go alone, and Mrs. Mandel can't go with them.”

”Pshaw!” said Mela. ”We don't want to take Conrad away from his meetun', do we, Chris?”

”I don't know,” said Christine, in her high, fine voice. ”They could get along without him for one night, as father says.”