Chapter 74 - [Bonus ] I Love You (2/2)
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When Atlas came back from the restaurant, he saw a nurse taking her vital signs. He waited outside utill she finished.
”How is she?” He asked with concern etched in his voice.
”Her vitals are good. She is getting well. I know she will wake up soon. Don't give up.”
The nurse said with a soft smile.
Atlas gave a small nod, ”Thank you.”
”I'm just doing my job. If you need anything please let me know.”
Atlas gave the nurse a nod before he walked inside Meredith's ward.
She was just the way he had left her an hour ago, nothing had changed. The sight of her in the hospital with tubes attached to her was a sight that made his chest hurt so much he could barely breath.
All his life he kept losing people but for Meredith he had hoped fate would be kind to him and let him be happy for once. He had hoped to share happy memories with her.
He hated how he didn't tell her enough how mad he is about her. Tell her that if he had 100 thoughts, she was 99 of those thoughts. She was the first person he thought about in the morning and the last person in the evening. In this small amount of time, she has been able to be his world.
He loves her.
He loves her eyes, the blush on her cheeks, her smile, waking up with her in his arms, he loved everything about her. Even the simplest things like how she knotted her fingers when she was nervous.
Atlas sat on a small stool beside her bed, pressed a kiss on her forehead and he gently took her hands in his. Rubbing the back with his thumb.
”Angel…please…wake up…don't leave me. Keep fighting…I miss you so much, it hurts…”
His eyes closed as a tear dropped onto her hands.
”Meredith…..I-I…..”
The words were so heavy on his tongue. He was afraid, those words would make him lose her but he would never forgive himself, if he didn't tell her before he loses her.
”Angel…I know you might want to hear this when you're awake but..I'm afraid I might never get the chance…”
He swallowed, taking a deep breath.
”I love you, Meredith. I have always been in love with you since the first day I met you but I was too afraid to admit it. I'm a coward, right?” He chuckled, mirthless
”I love you so fucking much, it hurts. Hurts so bad. You made my heart beat for the first time in a long time. You made my heart full of happiness and every morning I wake up with a smile on my face because I know I'm going to see my Angel.
My Angel…mine and only mine. You're everything I want that I didn't think I will find. Someone who is worth all my years of loneliness and pain.
Even fear couldn't stop me from falling for you because with you I'm always ready to take the risks, I'm ready to be selfish. I love you Angel. I love you so please just don't leave me. I need you so much…. I won't ever be the same if you leave me…”
Tears dropped on her hands and her hand trembled but he was too caught up in his emotions to see.
”A-a-tlas...”