Chapter 58 - Be Selfish (1/2)

TW: Mature content

Meredith's heart squeezed at his words and she fought hard not to leaned in and wrapped her arms around him. Her eyes squeezed shut, her breath thinning as he kissed the crown of her head.

She never thought behind the cruel and twisted Atlas Martini was a lonely and broken man who thought he didn't deserve love because he was cursed to be unhappy. Everyone deserved love even the devil and she was going to prove it to him.

Trembling inside, Meredith opened her eyes and slowly slipped her arms around his waist, burying her face in his hard, solid chest.

”Let me show you're capable of love, Atlas.” Meredith whispered but he said nothing, just buried his face against her hair, his body shuddering with effort as he pulled her closer against him, his arms tightening around her.

”I know you're broken and hurt and there is nothing I can do to take the pain and guilt from you not until you're ready.” Meredith swallowed,

”But I can be there for you, to show you, you deserve to be loved. I can make you smile with my clumsiness and if you're too scared loving me would make you lose me then you don't have to. I'm a big girl, I think my love would be enough for both of us as long as you treat me good. ”

Meredith pulled away from him and looked at him. She watched as he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. When he opened it, his blues were so anguished her heart literally felt like it has been stabbed with a knife.

His lips curled into a painful smile, he lowered his head so their forehead touched, ”I'm not a good man, Angel. You don't understand what you're saying.”

”Well, I know. No one is a good person Atlas; we are all sinners with different sins.”

Atlas smiled and traced his thumb across her lips, ”You're such a innocent soul, Angel and it would be selfish of me to ask you to love me when I-”

”If being selfish means not letting me go, then be selfish.” She interjected.

Atlas groaned and crushed his lips against hers. He kissed her like she has never been kissed before. Everything else faded around them, as he poured all his unsaid emotion into the kiss.

”I can't lose you, Angel. I can't. I can't let you go.” He whispered gruffly as he broke away slightly, grazing his lips along the line of her jaw.

”Then I'm going to selfish Angel, you're mine now. Stuck with me forever. Please tell me, you're mine forever.”

Meredith sniffled back her tears and smiled weakly, pressing her forehead against his chin.

”I'm yours, Atlas. Only yours. As long as you want me.”

Without saying anything, he scooped her up in his arms, Meredith gasped.

”What are you doing?!”

”Taking you back to the resort, I want you so bad damn.”

Meredith let out a low chuckle, ”But we are like ten minutes away from the resort, can you hold me?”

”Oh, you don't know how strong your man is Angel, guess I have to prove it to you,”

Meredith chuckled and wrapped her arms around his neck.

”Hmmm, I'm looking forward to it.”

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Atlas didn't even put her down when they reached the resort. Meredith buried her head in his chest to avoid people's burning gaze. When they reached their room, he placed her on the floor.

His lips curled up darkly and he fisted her hair in his hand and pulled her back, exposing her neck.

”You know how I always tell you I'm mad about you?” He questioned.