Chapter 23 - Show Me (1/2)
”But you can't fall in love with me. I know sex creates some kind of bond for females but I can't love you, Meredith. I can give you my body but not my heart.
So, we stop the moment you realize you're developing any sort of feelings for me. Because the last thing I want is for me to break your fragile heart.”
Meredith leaned forward and cupped his face in her hands.
”What if you're the one who falls in love with me?” her lips formed a soft smile which brightened her face.
Atlas smiled darkly, ”No. Love isn't for a man like me.”
And what kind of man are you? Meredith wanted to ask but she didn't. She knew he was warning her, letting her know not to have any stupid fantasies because this was purely sex for him. No feelings attached.
Meredith knew she was a hopeless romantic and this was a dangerous game for her. Deep within her she had always wanted to give her virginity to a man who loved her. Someone who would make slow and passionate love to her worshipping every inch of her.
Never in her wildest dream did she think a cold and twisted man like Atlas was the one she was going to lose herself to. But Meredith didn't mind though because honestly making a deal with the devil sounded so attractive.
Also, she was no stranger to this thing. This had been one of her darkest fantasies since she started reading all those erotica books.
Meredith was so used to hardcore and rough style of smut in books that she found herself getting bored with the slow passionate ones.
She had always wondered what's like to have a man wrapped his hands around your neck as he drove you to sweet oblivion. How it felt like to have your body consumed by fire and ice while you felt nothing but complete ecstasy. But experiencing it in reality she was a bit shy and nervous.
This was her choice and she was not going to let the opportunity of fulfilling her sexual fantasies pass her by. What if she wasn't good enough and didn't satisfy him?
”What are you thinking about?” Atlas leaned back his face thoughtful.
”That I wouldn't be enough for you and can't satisfy you.” Meredith said, a blush on her cheeks.
”You will be fine Angel. Don't think about satisfying me. All you have to do is to listen. Leave the satisfying part to me.”
Meredith nodded. She swallowed her nerves and asked the question that had been at the back of her mind all evening.
”Are you going to inflict pain on me?” Meredith asked, suddenly nervous.
”Yes.” He replied as his eyes darkened
Meredith shivered, panic swelling inside her.
”But I won't always want pain or humiliation. I just want control and we can always stop once you reach your limit or you want us to stop all you have to do is utter your safe word.” Atlas explained.
”Safe word?” Meredith asked confusion etching between her brows.
”Yes, it's a word which ends the play instantly. So, pick one. It can be any word.”