Chapter 22.2 (2/2)

There was no answer in return, but the reason I didn’t follow up on the answer because I seemed to know.

The sun leaking out the window slowly faded away.

The time was coming for Eugene to return.

“I thought you would come.”

Eugene appeared in front of me only when the red glow cast a dark shadow in my room.

When I raise my head to the presence I feel at the door, the face of the person I’ve waited for is in sight.

Eugene also said plainly to my little whisper.

“I thought you were waiting.”

He had a face as usual.

It’s a bit cool, and the look is a bit dry. I saw it and laughed bitterly.

“I heard what happened today. I already know what she said.”

Heavy footsteps were stamped like stains in a quiet room.

As he approached me, Eugene also smiled happily. But it wasn’t a smile that made me feel good either.

“In fact, I think I knew why you also say that.”

I looked up at Eugene, who had reached the point. A red light leaked outside the window stayed on his smiling face.

He looked down at me silently for a while, then slowly opened his mouth again.

“I might have put Ethan next to you, hoping to say that it’s okay if you know everything.”

When I heard Lavender Cordis and Ethan, I thought it was strange on the one hand.

Why did Eugene put Ethan as my escort, not to Eugene himself?

If Ethan was by my side, a word like this would have been compelled to come to my ears at any time.

“No, I must have wanted you to accept me even if you knew all I did.”

And Eugene was saying that he probably did it on purpose.

“Yes. It doesn’t matter, it’s okay, I want to hear what you gonna say to me.”

At the end of his word, Eugene laughed.

The laugh made my heart ache more than the smile he had made a while ago.

“I sent you to Vastia and do a lot of work. Ethan was one of the people who helped me.”

The voice that continued without curvature stopped in my ears.

“In fact, I could have given Ethan Schumaha his position after the work. Only I did not. I didn’t even want to leave that name on the ground. I couldn’t stand it, no mercy, and maybe I couldn’t afford it.”

And Eugene easily admitted.

“I don’t intend to make an excuse. Everything you heard is right. I killed everyone.”

While the calm voice that seemed indifferent at first glance continued, I quietly looked at the person I encountered.

“The person who threatened me, and the person who judged me and gonna be a threat in the future. All.”

I knew it. What Eugene hide from me.

Although not all the parts he wanted to hide, I vaguely guessed what he had done.

But I did not want to dig intentionally.

If I dig something deeply and find out, Eugene naturally knows the fact, and when I do that, I feel like I’m going to be hurting his sore wound.

Sometimes it’s better to bury it. Maybe I thought this thing so.

“People are afraid of me. The reason for destruction is obvious. I can do that many times more if I am to live.”

However, the buried wound will not heal by itself.

Looking at Eugene now, I realized it anew. Then, I pushed my shallow breath out of the dark feeling that was in my chest.

“I don’t even regret it. Maybe I’ll do the same thing if I go back to that time again then. That’s Ethan’s and my decisive difference.”

After Eugene said that, I lifted my mouth slightly for the first time.

“Aren’t you tired?”

Subsequently I opened my mouth, but he turned to me as if he refused to hear the answer.

Eugene’s face, which shows an oblique side, now contains no facial expression.

Then I whispered like a self-talking whisper in the air.

“I don’t think I can be a good person to you either.”

Oh, I couldn’t help it. I’d rather be a bad person, to blame me for being selfish, Do as much as I like.

“Don’t say it that way.”

I couldn’t take it anymore and reached out to Eugene in front of me.

“Stubborn, stupid.”

My stupid person.

As I hugged him, Eugene was obviously big enough to never get into my arms, but for some reason I felt that he was small.

Perhaps it was because he was the 14 years old, Eugene, who split up with us when we were young.

Whatever it is, as long as it’s inside, it’s still him.

“Are you lonely alone?”

Eugene hugged me without resistance and moved my body as my small whisper flow.

I felt a hot breath scattered around my neck and gave my arm a little more strength.

“Now let’s stay together.”

No more lonely, no more need to endure that long night alone.

As a 14-year-old boy, I couldn’t even imagine how hard it would have been to do something alone that Eugene did, and had to lean on no one.

Perhaps he wanted to cry many nights. Probably feared a lot in the morning.

In the meantime, a part of Eugene’s heart was irreversibly scattered and broken. The sharp absence felt by him broke my heart.

“Even if everyone in the world is pointing at you, I won’t.”

I know that what he did was inevitable.

The fact that there were people trying to hurt Eugene was dimly guessed after the accident when he hurt his leg when he was young.

Perhaps I would not have left him alone if I know, but now I understand that I was the risk for Eugene being weak.

So I understood what Eugene did to protect myself.

No…

But it didn’t matter that it wasn’t inevitable. I realized that I would probably never let this man go until I die.

I could not turn away from him or hate him. Somehow I have become like a bird being caged that I do not know of.

“I’ll tell you this time.”

If I had to blame this man, I wish I had cursed myself rather than letting this poor man stop.

“Everything is all right, so do whatever you want to do. If you have something you want, you can take whatever you want.”

I told him exactly what he had said to me that day.

“You can be more greedy. Now I’m only living for you.”

Perhaps no one has ever said this to him.

Even in his childhood, without being protected, he had to be an adult.

“Don’t give up anything, don’t sacrifice anything, and you can be a little more of this.”

I will tell him then, if no one ever.

“Be as happy as you can.”

If no one gives him permission, I will say it instead.

“It’s okay to do anything to achieve that.”

I knew he would do anything to protect us.

And I would not hesitate to do anything to protect him.

I did know how dangerous it was to be blind, but it doesn’t matter. I thought so.

If only I could keep this pathetic and lovely person from getting hurt anymore. Eugene took a slow breath, not holding me.

Then he whispered in a low, cracked voice that scratched to the floor.

“You don’t know what you mean now.”

What do you think I don’t know.

“You know, you can’t say this.”

But even if it was for myself, my answer did not change.

“I can.”

I touched Eugene’s back softly, and opened my mouth again.

“Even if my brother commits a mistake that’s big enough to be blamed by everyone in the world.”

Maybe I don’t have any qualifications like that, but still….

“I forgive everything.”

If I could, I was willing to carry all the sins of this person.

“…..Forgive me?”

“Um.”

Eugene asked me.

“No matter what I do?”

“Huuh.”

“Even if I do something very wrong to you?”

The glow became darker and the view was more red than before.

“Yeah, it’s okay.”

Eugene has been silently burying his head for a while. Then he finally lifted his face and meet my eyes.

“You probably won’t refuse if I ask to sleep in hell together.”

Eugene, who said that, was laughing painfully for some reason.

I saw a smile on his distorted face and opened my lips, but Eugene’s words were a little faster.

“In fact, I didn’t want to ask you to hold my hand. This is cowardly.”

The smile that bloomed in front of my eyes was mixed with self-restraint and ridicule.

Soon his hand held my wrist.

As he did when he touched my hand in the wagon last time, it seemed like the place that touched by him was burning hot.

“But will you forgive me?”

He wasn’t asking me again, as he was like he close to memorizing the words again.

Finally, Eugene’s eyes were in front of me.

He looked straight through me. I couldn’t take my eyes off the dark black eyes that had intense light.

“You will regret it.”

He whispered at a distance close enough to mix his breath.

I tried to answer that I didn’t, but Eugene came a little closer to me than I did before, and I couldn’t say a word.

“I might hurt you.”

The tense breath leaked out of my small open mouth. His lips seemed to come closer to touch even now.

The next moment, however, the place where his lips was buried was my hand that held firmly by Eugene.

“But it’s already too late.”

The red glow made a long shadow behind his back.

It seemed that only the two of us existed in this world, in the niche of intense time, where black and enemy were mixed.

“Now….”

His hands were so hot that the flesh touched by his lips seem burning.

“It’s really late now.”

In that state, Eugene said.

Just like he apologize to me for something I don’t know, he’s blowing a desperate breath into my hands.

As if I was his only one.