Chapter 10 (1/2)

Eugene, who has hurt his leg, has become difficult to walk freely. Rumors circulated that he should live on one leg forever, but Eugene just let the rumors spread.

Since then, he has always carried a cane, so other people believed this rumor soon.

“That’s why cloth that grew up without a root will never be the same as silk.”

Even now, as the fall deepens, I was listening to the ill-tempered lessons from this evil woman.

“No matter how hard I try, I can’t do anything about this frivolity flowing from the young miss.”

From the start, the madam wasn’t even enough to take me out of her way, and she started to talk about ridicule that mocked my birth.

“This is why Mrs. Ernst is different. Even if she sympathic at people, why did she have to reward you by taking the young miss as a daughter? No, rather than that, now, Mrs. Ernst might be deeply regretful and regret it.”

Because I’m an adult, of course I haven’t been hurt by such words. Sometimes, I think can I just turn it all over?

“By the way, it said Eugene will never be able to use his right leg again as he did in the past because the accident.”

No. After a little more time, it said he could

walk around like he did before.

“Of course, I don’t think Ernst’s dignity will fall because of that, but I’m still worried. Well, in a public place, other relatives can take the place of Eugene’s master, so there’s nothing wrong with it. He can leave it to the younger brothers and if he’s younger maybe Erich can take his place.”

Abominably, She just pretending to be sorry for Eugene in words.

“Madam always call Eugene by name, as he is the duke now. And it seem she’s keep forgetting that my brother is in full authority in this house, not the madam.”

“Your brother has been passed down for a long time, but you still haven’t gotten used to it? Oh, I heard there’s a disease that causes memory to deteriorate with age,

Madam.”

I said toward her, then the word sent her long eyes full of anger, compassion, and shock.

The original nobles she said. That’s because I didn’t put out the low-level words directly, so the madam was amazed at the sound of ‘shit’ that I just said.

“Oh, it’s such a vulgar expression, young miss.”

“Oh, I’m sorry, the anxious heart is ahead of me…”

“I’m afraid it will be too heartbreaking for me to think that my master, Madam, who is my teacher, will be mocked by an old lady who might shit on the wall in front of others, because she’s been acting as if she had the same authority as the current Duke Ernst.”

But, as I said, wouldn’t you be aware anyway? That, I can tell you again and again! I enjoyed watching the Madam fury and anger.

“It look like the young miss will be back to

her sense after being hit by the cane! Pull the skirt up right now!”

And she tried to punish me and punish me again. The sound of canning was really swelling whether it was really damaged.

However, I was not feeling the same pain as when I first met her.

How many years have I been beaten by this aunt and lived for years? Couldn’t I have come up with a less painful way?

Perhaps this aunt didn’t even know that it was not a noble way, but my legs were covered with honey from a thread hem.

It was a secret produced by Silla Mender, a kind of flower, which was easy to pick

up in the early morning in the forest.

One doesn’t need to be a noble to know that. Everyone who lived commonly know what the honey of real hymen was.

It was very nice to apply this thread hymen honey to my hands when there were so many sewing distances so that my fingertips couldn’t swell or when I had to do laundry with bare hands in a frozen river.

At first, it is semi-liquid like an ointment, but when it dries out, it hardens transparently and serves to protect the skin.

Silamen’s honey had to be removed by hand without being easily washed with water, so once applied, it was retained for a long time, which was convenient.

So when I rubbed on something used by the nobles, it was more like an adhesive or a coating that was applied to the furniture to luster it.

Of course, it’s not without any hitting feeling, but it was much better than just being beaten to death.

“Where does that aunt come from, that aunt? What should I do? I’ll have to apply a little thicker from tomorrow.”

It was fortunate that maids who had some acquaintances with me from the past were able to get the seal hymen honey.

Most of the maids have it because they do

things like cleaning, washing, and sewing.

Hah! A necessity of life that is indispensable among people who live without it!

After the madam returned, I pulled out the red ink and leaned on the back of my leg to draw a horizontal line. Well, it looks funny, but what about it?

It would be strange if my legs suddenly became fine, so it was my own trick.

It’s been quite a while since I did this, but I saw that my aunt didn’t know, It was a good plan to use.

Or, with the common sense of a noble lady, I couldn’t even imagine that I would do this.

Well, I only needs to go to pass this islands to survive.

******

“Goodbye, Aunty.”

That evening, as usual, I accompanied the Marchioness Leonard off.

“I don’t mind if it is Erich. But where is Cabel? He can’t even bid a goodbye when an elder leaving his house.”

However, following today, she found fault at Cabel and slowly raised her eyebrows. Didn’t you usually notice that Cabel doesn’t do anything that he doesn’t like?

He usually never send you off.

“How Melissa taught her kids, Tsk.”

I felt like my chest was getting colder every time she speak, but this time I seemed to be keeping the least amount of anger.

“One is limp, one is ruined, one is half dumb, and the other is a nasty bitch who doesn’t know where she came from.”

At that moment, I clenched the discomfort of being attacked to the back of my

hand like a thunderbolt.

After his parents died, Erich, who was looking at the sky with a face that didn’t know what to think, I was not sure if he

would still be thinking about anything else.

Or, otherwise, he might not have heard of Mrs. Leonard voice, just like before.

Insulting me could have been better understood, but aren’t those three her nephews? How can she say that way?

“How is that…”

“Are you going now, Aunt?”

If Eugene didn’t appear then, I might have expressed this feeling to Mrs. Leonard.

Even though I know it’s not a good way, I’m overwhelmed with inevitable anger at this moment.

“Oh, Eugene. Have you been there?”

As Eugene came down the stairs with a face with no expression, I tried to erase the feelings of boiling anger in the air.

Mrs. Leonard watched Eugene come

down from the stairs. See, she’s abominable only after he comes forward.

“If your legs are uncomfortable you don’t have to see me out.”

“My Aunt is going, how am I going to stay upstair?”

Eugene stood in front of Mr Leonard’s wife and politely greeted her.

I clenched my fists as I saw a satisfying smile on her red lips in front of my eyes.

“That’s why you shouldn’t be so attached to that lady.”

That night I woke up with an outrage.

“No matter how good she is to you, it’s all about cheating.”

I knew it wasn’t a matter of discussing ‘who win.’ I hate her before, but now I hate her even more. I was younger so I used not to know before.

Eugene thought that Mrs. Leonard was better. I was upset, but it was even more annoying that there was no way to prevent what she was doing.

During the day, a servant entered the office without Eugene’s permission.

I thought she was going to clean it, but I think it’s just an excuse. It was even more suspicious because the servant was one of the people who came from the madam in Leonard.

‘It’s a face I couldn’t remember. Where are the one originally in charge of cleaning?’

‘She quit last week, your grace.’

‘Yeah?’

However, Eugene just stared at the maid’s face for a while, and then asked her no more and turn back to his job.

I didn’t think he would have realize it because he didn’t really notice the suspicion, but no matter how mature Eugene is, he is only 14 years old.

I’m different than Eugene in this Ernst. I couldn’t be at ease because I looked as

anxious as my life like a lamp. I’m 27 years old inside.

In the past, there was no entanglement in it, and Eugene never hurt his legs as he is

now. Besides, Erich floats inside Ernst’s mansion.

This strange atmosphere that turns out. It’s not like Ernst I knew.

Tak!

“Oh!”

At that time, Erich, who was walking ahead, stumbled over.

I wasn’t going to go, I wondered if Erich would wake up, but for a moment, he was still staring and looking ahead, so I sneaked up and make way to the third brother.

“Why do you fall when there is nothing in front of you?”

“You can’t be bruised.”

And it was a little while until Erich would notice the situation in his body. Of course, I wasn’t even thinking about taking the truth and hiding it….

Therefore, it would not be too bad if he could not know until then. You’re going to have trouble walking over your feet tomorrow morning.

I secretly brushed Erich’s knees in such trouble.

“Uh.”

At the warmth that grabbed my hand, I inadvertently opened my mouth. Maybe he just fell down and dropped the doll.

I could see the face of the third brother staring in front of me.

Perhaps because of the cold moonlight, Erich’s face seemed soft enough for a moment to settle his mind.

“Stop and go to bed.”

I whispered a little, looking silently at his face for a while. So we walked hand in hand and walked down the hallway late at night.

Silently like a ghost, with a puppy of gold fur behind our back like an escort. Until Eugene’s shadow appeared in front of my eyes.

“You guys, why?”

Because he’s moving without a stick, I didn’t even know that Eugene was in the hallway. Whether he never slept, he was out of the room at this late time.

His eyes that looking at me and Erich were in doubt, but he soon caught his eye on Erich’s face as if feeling discomfort.

Erich was still walking slowly toward Eugene with a blank face.

The next moment, Eugene’s hand on the wall fell down. I saw Eugene’s face for the first time.

In the dark, cold moonlight poured down over Eugene, staring at his younger brother with a breathtaking face. He couldn’t be overlooked until Erich passed by him.

“Erich.”

Finally he whispered a small voice in his ear. I couldn’t go into the room with Erich anyway, so he held the doll’s ear on the other hand in Erich’s hand instead of the doll’s wrist.

Erich dragged the rabbit doll and returned to the room with Penny.

“When did it start…?”

I watched it all the way to the end, then turned around, and I saw Eugene standing up and burying his face in his hands.

There was a hoarse voice in his voice as if he was strangled. I didn’t know what to

say.

He shook, and suddenly I saw Eugene’s hands shaking his face seem so small. At that moment, I didn’t know what to say to Eugene. I opened my mouth.

“Everything will be all right.”

Of course, Eugene may not want this kind of my consolation, but I couldn’t help but say as much as this moment.

“My brother is doing well.”

“It’s okay, brother Eugene.”

I hesistated, but eventually I couldn’t reach to him. I hope he can hear it.

“It’s okay.”

I thought so as I didn’t stop whisper again and again.

*******

“Did you know why I called you?”

A few days later, Mrs. Lenoard took Erich away and called me. I quietly looked at the person I met, and then opened my mouth.

“don’t know.”

It was never before in the past life that I met face to face with Mrs. Leonard in this way. But what she said to me was what I expected.

“I’m sending you to the orpahanage.”

“St. Marie has a connection that I know, so it won’t be too bad to live there. Honestly, It will be better than overflowing with people who lived through a dirty back street right?”

She would have been less than happy with me being noble than anyone else.

“I don’t know for sure whether Melissa and my brother had a ghost, or where this bitch-like bitch resembles Arina.”

Since then, she hasn’t been able to understand the eyes of the Ernst couple who have died for a long time, and their

humbleness of my origin.

I arranged what her word about. I listened to it and asked Mrs. Lenoard.

“What did brother Eugene say?”

“What?”

She glanced at the name of Eugene and shone her eyes.

“You don’t have the right to decide Ernst’s work on your own. You know that much.”

“Oh shit. What if Eugene is thinking the same way?”

“Brother Eugene agreed?”

“Isn’t it natural?”

“Then aunt is a liar.”

Mrs. Leonard jumped for a moment. I am

not a 9 year old child who knows nothing. No, I was a 27-year-old Hari Ernst, who had been burying bones for 20 years in this Ernst, and spoke steadily towards her.

“Eugene doesn’t handle things this way.”

Even if it was his sincerity to want me out of this house, this wasn’t his way.

“This kind of low-end and frail way doesn’t suit Ernst. Doesn’t aunt know

more about Ernst than me, an indispensable bitch who was going through a dirty back street?”

I wasn’t really an Ernst, but I knew it wasn’t Ernst way doing things like this.

“What? This Isn’t Ernst’s way?”

The next moment, I was bent over and pulled in front of Mrs. Leonard.

“A cheeky brat. Who dares to pretend to be superior in front of me and tease me with her mouth?”

I met my aunt’s eyes with the table in between. As my upper body tilts forward, A mug was caught in the hand with the table on it and dropped onto the carpet.

My hands got wet with hot water, but I didn’t even know that my burning skin was sore.

“Do you know that even the essence of Ernst’s castle has been overshadowed by luck? Do you know that you are arrogant and ignorant of the high sky?”

“Yeah, I think you’re believing in Eugene and making fun of yourself.”

I don’t say anything and just stay silent.

I thought it would have been nice if I had been talk back to her, but as it had not been my willingness, I’ve been quietly

listening to her as she spoke with Eugene’s spokesperson.

“Even if what I say is false, do you think he can protect you?”

“I don’t know how he’ll handle it because he can’t help a little girl like a rat so far.”

“What can Eugene do if you die from this position now? What about Cabel? Erich? Can they help you? No, before that, are you mistaken that they really think of you as a sister? You dare not even know your position?”

I couldn’t pretend that there wasn’t this boiled anger, sorrow, and pain from the inside of my stomach was, as if I had

never known it.

In the beginning, Arina’s death was the one who made Ernst’s surname after my name. She was right.

The poor girl who lived in the back alley spent 20 years in Ernst, and she became so arrogant that she thought she had become the Ernst itself.

So, as if I was their real daughters, or as if I were their real sisters, I couldn’t help this feeling alone and regretful feeling….

“That’s why a pheasant like you aren’t good. Once you show the sweetness, she can’t know the end and like a flock of ants. When you start your life again, nothing has changed significantly from

before.”

“If you don’t want to die, tell me things again my word.”

When it came to Mrs. Lennold’s words, would they help me? Will the person I

desperately want to keep here gonna protect me?

“Looks like a bitch.”

Myself, no. I am.. really miserable…..

I wasn’t confident enough to deny her words.

********

“What are you doing there?”

After Mrs. Lenoard word, I stood in the front of porch, like Eugene in the middle of

the night. However, the direction in which I was looking was different.

The door soaring in front of my eyes.

I wondered whether I could open the door or go out and stand there. I heard a strange voice from Cabel, but I didn’t move for a while.

“What are you doing?”

And after a while, I took my gaze from the door and turned to look at him.

“Uh, you….”

I thought I had a casual face as usual, and I opened my mouth slightly with a chuckle in my mouth. I opened my mouth towards him like that.

In my words, Cabel has an expression that he cannot understand the language.

“Let’s eat together.”

“No, now it is not a problem. Why are you…”

“Eat with me.”

I grabbed the arm of the second brother and went to Erich this time.

Cabel, dragged by me seemed to be embarrassed, but he pretended not to know.

“Erich, let’s eat.”

Penny, who was held by Erich, greeted us and barked.

“Woof!”

“No.”

Erich refused with a single word like knife this time.

“Don’t be like that, let’s eat together. At the dining room….”

“You go and eat.”

Erich said once again without looking at me. My mouth was slowly biting. Cabel looked at me, silently whispering from side to side, and for some reason I felt that my mood was strange.

“Why….”

It was a bit strange to hear.

“Why doesn’t everyone eat at the dining room? You can eat rice together.”

This time, Erich looked at me and opened his eyes.

“Why are everyone eating separately when the dining table is so big?”

I’ve been patient towards them. I finally vomited the words that I had been kept inside.

“I don’t want to eat alone.”

I said to Erich as he start opened his mouth.

He seemed very embarrassed and

surprised by the current situation, but he seemed to have no idea what to say, as he just dabbled his lips.

So did Cabel next to me too.

“Why do I have to eat at the dining room alone every day?”