Chapter 4 (2/2)

The moment a sharp sound resonated in the room, I closed my mouth with my

eyes wide open.

“Seem you got along with my younger brothers too much and I think you’re starting to act like them. Apologize to Hari right now.”

“I’m sorry, Hari.”

Eugene apologized to me in a calm voice. I sat on my bed and stared at Eugene’s face, holding one of his cheeks while I’m

holding my breath.

“Hari, dad will buy you a new candy. I’m going outside tomorrow to the store. How about buying candy by any type?”

“Uh….”

I couldn’t answer easily and hesitated. I knew what it was like now, but I was confused because I couldn’t get it in my mind.

“Eugene interrupted you from resting. I’m going out with him, so please lie down.”

Duke Ernst smiled at me gently as usual, and then, like that, he led Eugene and

left the room together.

When I was left alone, I was able to exhale out of the shallow breaths in my lungs. It’s a surprise. I was surprised to see him beating Eugene in front of me like that.

That’s why I feel like I was wrong.

Compared to what they have done to me so far, it’s nothing…

But is it because Eugene has a useless appearance now? I close my eyes tightly to the unknown feeling. I put the door in the my field of vision one more time.

Eugene face and expression, which had just been expressionless until the end of the room, squeezed hard enough to dig

into my eyes. I shake my head hard.

The next day, Duke Ernst bought the candy like a pile and gave it to me. The colorful candy in the glass bottle is so pretty.

Actually, I still concerned about what happened yesterday, my heart heavy.

“Well, this is yours.”

“Wow!”

It wasn’t only me who received the gift, after a while, Ernst sons also get it.

I caught my eye on the landing stair while Cabel and Erich were enthusiastic by a

sweet snack.

Even though the sound from below was forced to reach the upper floor, Eugene did not show up. Seeing that Mrs. Ernst is invisible, did they sit together?

“If you want something else, tell me anytime, I’ll buy it.”

“I like this. Thank you.”

Ernst’s seemed awkward because of

yesterday. Even though I knew that he’s teaching Eugene in a very strict way, he must have be beaten that way.

It was true that the three brothers not wished they had some trouble with the Duke of Ernst, but somehow this is something awkward rather than cheerful.

“Oh, is this everything you bought?”

Then Mrs Ernst walked down the stairs from upstairs.

“Mom! Dad gave me this!”

“This and this!”

Those two guys were so excited and

shouted.

“Only a good child can get a better gift next time. In the future, we should all go together.”

“Huuh!”

“Yeah!”

“Don’t fight with Hari, okay?”

Simple ignorant Cabel nodded his head at time when his gift was in his hand, and Erich paused for a moment and replied to ask for another soon.

Ernst couple was staring at their smiling face. Only I had a strange sense of discomfort, but I couldn’t figure out where this sense of incongruity came from.

As I narrowed my head by myself, I smiled

reflexively when I met my eyes with Mrs. Ernst.

“I heard from Eugene there was a small quarrel yesterday.”

Uh, um. I think it’s kind of ambiguous to call it a quarrel. The candy that was stolen by Eugene was a gift she give, but well. I have to steal it later.

Of course it is if Eugene hasn’t processed my candy yet. I smiled and said to Mrs.

Ernst.

“Yes. It’s okay. Instead, dad bought me candy this much! He bought me!”

Oh ah! It’s so hard to be like 7 years old! I didn’t know if I can do the acting, so I observed Erich every time I had a chance. As I saw him, I was surprised.

Then, looking at myself now, it seemed to me that I was struggling to presented the acting.

Whether or not the third brother show such behavior, I flashed my eyes and copy his behavior all the time. And finally came to this day.

I couldn’t take a little bit of my heart to feel hurt because Mrs. Ernst smiled at me and seemed cute. Good god! Try to do this with a bare spirit! It’s not easy!

Suddenly I’m feeling like getting drunk and I’m skeptical about life. Ugh damn. It turned out that there were a lot of

precious alcohol in this house.

Huft. To some extent, I want to drink

it all. Of course, if I go back to 20 years later, I won’t want anything more….

I thought again and again, I raised my hand and took a dry face.

“Hari, what are you doing? Why do you do that?”

I forgot about it for a second. It’s embarrassing when a child suddenly washes her face with a regret. I exercised wits, and alas, I stumbled on my forehead.

“It’s suddenly dizzy.”

“Oh, you have to go to the room and lie down.”

“Now, hug him.”

I heard about princess hug from the Duke Ernst. Ugh, uh, I’m a little embarrassed. Can’t you hug me a little bit? I’m an old girl and I’m embarrassed!

“We went upstairs for a while, so Cabel, you’re taking care of Erich.”

“Yeah, okay!”

Cabel replied, still insane about chocolate and candy. Well. His appearance was not very reliable. Erich was dissatisfied with how I was being held by Duke Ernst.

“Hari, will you go up with dad and I’ll sing you a lullaby?”

He couldn’t even sing, but the Ernst couple had a good conversation with me.

For some reason, the sense of incongruity I just felt was once again grown up around me, and I looked at the two guys moving away in a jolly mood.

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Under the care of the Ernst couple, I started to gain weight little by little since the time passed, I’ve been eating well,

sleeping well, and resting well.

Of course, it’s just that the dried tree

branch has become less dried tree branch, but that’s what my body now.

“Woof woof!”

“Penny, O-O-Oh.”

In the meantime, I succeeded in getting close to Penny. Considering that I had to spend years of taming penny, it was a remarkable achievement.

Of course, there was a big role for Penny’s favorite snack, dog sausage.

“Hand!”

“Woof!”

“Foot!”

“Woof!”

“Roll!”

“Woof!”

Yeah, great! Penny, you are a very nice puppy! I was thrilled and decided to play Penny a little more.

“Penny, jump!”

I hurried around for a while to see if there were any maids or servants, and threw

the ball at Penny.

Ernst’s mansion, albeit inside the mansion. The high silver ceiling made it possible to extinguish this much. Woof!

Because it was winter, Penny ran with a golden fur fluttering because she was only

indoors and the brothers rarely played such games.

Pug!

“Damn!”

But suddenly someone appeared in the hallway when I was playing with Penny.

“Evil, awful, it hurts! Isn’t my head exploded?!”

It was the second, Cabel. Penny, who was interrupted to play, angered and barked, Cabel shrugged around his head and shouted.

“Hey. It hurts. No, so who suddenly popped me up?”

Of course, my fault was big when I threw the ball in this place, but I didn’t feel very sorry that he was the opponent.

If the person who’s being hit the ball was another maid or Hubert, I would have run

and apologized.

“You! Hey, you attacked me now, huh?!”

Cabel yelled at me. He was mad at the ball and he was eagerly staring at me.

“Why does you pop out without notice?”

“Is this my fault now?!”

“Oh, did you cry?”

it seemed like tears were hanging on his eyes.

“Did it hurt a lot?”

“Who cried, who cried! See, no!”

But when he was hurt by the fact that he was showing tears, Cabel tried to hide it as he can. Ugh, I’m sorry to see you crying

like that.

“Let me look at it.”

“Uh, uh, what are you doing now?”

I approached the second brother and reached out to him. As I removed his bangs, his forehead came up with a bright red. Hey, it’s okay, but it’s a little swollen.

It might hurt a little. No, by the way, why is he twisting so wildly? I said, holding his face more firmly so that Cabel could not move.

“Oh, stay still. I’m seeing if you hurt a lot.”

“You, this, this, where do think you’re touching!”

But, for some reason, when I touched his face, Cabel began to stutter badly. Um? Now? It turns out that his entire face looks a little red.

Does your forehead hurt and your fever rises?

“This will be better if you apply medicine.”

Shhh! I wanted to do something to treat the second brother’s forehead as an excuse for treating my heart, but I just endured it.

Besides, Cabel’s condition was a little strange than usual.

Erich, who heard the commotion, opened his mouth as he looked at us.

“What are you two doing there now?”

What are you doing?

“I’m checking my brother, and what are you doing?”

Cabel was still stupid and staring at me stupidly. And whether he like it or not, Erich come and approach Cabel, my hand, which was holding onto his face, was slaped.

“Don’t pretend to be close to my brother!”

Ah, maybe he was dissatisfied with the fact that I was stuck with Cabel. It was right then, penny whom next to me greeted Erich and barked her tail.

Seeing penny, Erich stared at me more.

“Don’t pretend to be close to Penny!”

“Who tell you can play with penny? Oh, you gave snacks to Penny earlier! It’s me who can play with Penny, and it’s me who can give Penny a snack! Not you!”

Well, hey, Erich. Why, you, I think you seem more worried about Penny than about Cabel. Is it my illusion? You know, I knew, you like penny more than Cabel.

But he’s your second brother, for god’s sake. I stared at Cabel’s face with less red color than before.

At that time, I suddenly noticed somewhere, and when I turned my eyes, I noticed that the servants and maids were looking at us in every corner of the hallway.

“Yeah, then you play with Penny.”

Well, my arm hurts anyway.

“Hah! I would do that even if you didn’t say that!”

Maybe I do seemed to feel better about the idea that he took Penny from me, but I only had my arms down. Now I just want to stop being mixed up with them and go to my bed.

“Hey, you, hmm, hmm.”

Just then, Cabel, who had not left his position, suddenly called me. He look embarrassed.

“I will hang out with you!”

He didn’t ask me, but Cabel told me as if he knew I will be grateful.

“I don’t fight with weak kids like you! So you can play with me, with me…okay! Catch it!”

It wasn’t until long ago that his forehead was hurting, and then it seemed like he was getting better.

“I’m glad, but I must refused.”

“What?!”

“No. Why do should I play with brother?”

Then Cabel started blinking his eyes

wide open. He was embarrassed as if he had heard something he had never thought of.

Probably so, after I came to this house, I didn’t say to Cabel things like ‘I don’t want to do it’ or ‘I can’t do it’ anymore, so I was just dragged around as by him.

“Why not?!”

Soon Cabel yelled at me as if he couldn’t believe it. Ck. Ck. I noticed that you were shocked by my rejection.

“Because it’s not fun to play with you, brother.”

Do you know the word “nuclear jam”?

Honestly, when the second brother said to played together, there was nothing interesting for me because he always acted as he liked.

And now, frankly, the difference was between the mental ages, so it was more troublesome.

“Why isn’t it fun to play with me?!”

“It’s more fun to play with Penny than my brother.”

Dudun!

Cabel stumbled as if he were shocked by a second. Oh, I’m going to bother doing more here. I decided to win him at this point and again raised my hand to Cabel’s forehead.

“Isn’t your forehead hurting more than that?”

But Cabel, who met my eyes again and again, was stupid and look like he want the petting more.

“Ah, ah…”

However, it’s just like Cabel’s brother. Isn’t it hurt? I knew it.

“Yes, yes! Nothing hurts! What’s hurt? this? Really! It’s nothing!”

Cabel pretended to be as if he had

waited for me, then puffed his runny nose and sneeze again.

“Hey, it’s for you, eat it!”

The second time he shook his pants pocket and threw it at me, it was a cookie that I didn’t know. I took it reflexively and made a subtle glance.

“I, I carry it in my pocket. It’s annoying, so don’t give anyone else and eat it all by yourself! Ok? Do eat more, is it a tree

branch or an arm?”

I’ve had a similar experience like this before. Congratulations! The winning over the hulk! No, no. In this case, I have to say that the second is still 9 years old and not a hulk!

But wait a second? The moment he threw, I heard the sound of a popping pop in my

ears. Are you throwing cookies? Nice to meet you anyway, pushover, Hoho!

“Thank you, brother Cabel!”

I smiled at the second brother. I will record today as a historic day when the second was born as a new person!

“Wow!”

But at that very moment, Cabel took a breath and became stiff. Huh? Why are you doing that all of a sudden? Why did you like as if you never see something like this?

“Oh, why?”

The strangest thing happened the next moment. The second step back and forth from me and began to stutter the most severely.

“Hey, this! You! Why am I splitting up all of a sudden!”

“Even if you smile, it’s crazy. Oh, don’t smile! You, smile in front of me in front of me… hiccups.”

Do you hiccup while you step back?

it became more and more spectacles. Cabel ran awkwardly, covering his face with the back of his hand, and then ran over to the other side of the hallway.

So what was it? I looked at the back of Cabel, who was running like a lit fire with a glance looking at a sick child.

Huft. Is Eugene’s reaction like this the last time, and is it that I smile like that? Strange.

“Miss Hari really like the second master.”

A heavy voice came from the side when I was in doubt.

A half-year-old middle-aged man who was approaching and looking down at me was Hubert, the butler of Ernst dukedom.

“Hubert!”

“Are you not calling me Mr. Butler today?”

Oh right. It’s only since I got older that I called Butler Hubert by name.

“Hehe. Hari wants to be an adult as quickly as brother Eugene!”

Butler Hubert was still a blunt face 20 years later and now. I was scared of Hubert, who only wears flat facial expressions.

So maybe he was a little surprised when I smiled at him.

There was still not much facial expression change, but I felt a slight emotional change in his eyes that were slightly widened.

“You’re right.”

Soon after, Hubert smiled at me, and I was amazed this time. Even more incredible, he even touched my head with a clumsy touch.

“But it’s not good to be an adult too quickly. A young child better remains a young child as long as she can.

It’s a good thing to be.”

While I was surprised and said nothing, he went back to his original blunt face.

Then, as if nothing had just happened, he lifted his hand from me and began to move his feet with a measured step.

“Did you clean up the grocery storehouse?”

“Yes, yeah! I just finished it all over.”

I stared a little in the distance from Hubert’s back, speaking to the maids and servants. Surely. This is his own way. Did he worried…?

I touched the place smoothly as if I were drawing the hand that sat down on my head. Ugh. What, what.

Uh, somehow this is make me a little shy. I hurriedly daylighted, and then ran to my room.

“Are you all ready?”

Today, it was the day Ernst’s whole family

decided to go on an outing.

After the violent blizzard came to an end,

the winter suddenly fell and boasted warmer weather than before.

Most of the snow piled up outside was really melted that there was no crowd even when riding in a wagon.

“Hari may get a cold again, so you must wear warm clothes.”

Because the floor was still slippery, I often had to walk slow in order not to fall.

“Mom! where’s my gloves?”

“I’ve put it on the table, haven’t you seen it?”

“No. I can’t see it anywhere.”

In response to Erich’s call, Mrs. Ernst eventually went back inside, but I knew that Erich was speaking a lie. That glove, he just hid it in the drawer!

Anyway, he can’t see myself when I’m stuck with his mother.

“Yeah! We’re out! Go outside! Ooh oh oh”

“Cabel! Where did you put your outer

garments?”

Cabel was so excited that he jumped out with less clothes and was dragged back inside by the Ernst’s wife.

“I don’t want to go with you.”

“Really. So what do you want to do? I like going with you.”

“What?”

As he was surprised, the third’s mouth opened as his eyes widen. Oh, but this look is pretty pretty.

On a day that this guy was speechless, only looking at me was much better than opening his blunt mouth.

Erich started to look at me again after adjusted his look and his ears. Maybe he was teased by me more than one.

“Whatever. If you want to go with me, you ride there.”

“What.”

“You guys, are you really ready now?”

“I’m ready! Oops!”

Mrs. Ernst came out with Cabel’s weird command. Duke Ernst and Eugene also appeared immediately.

Duke Ernst, Eugene, and Cabel decided to ride the same wagon. Mrs. Ernst, Erich, and me is in one carriage.

“Now, let’s go.”

She grabbed our hands one by one and headed for the wagon we had to ride.

When I reached the carriage, I stared at

the third with slender eyes and pulled Mrs Ernst’s hand with my puppy eyes.

“Can I sit next to mother?”

“Oh, of course.”

I looked at Mrs. Ernst and smiled at her. She below her head again and Erich could not see my face. How is it? I hate you. Do you want to hit me?

I just did it before you do!! Yo man, take a look at you now! As expected, Erich threw off the his mask and yelled at me.

“No! I’ll sit next to mother! Go away!”

“Erich!”

He was frightened by Mrs. Ernst’s word and frightened more. I was thinking of putting Erich on a little more.

“You can’t do it.”

“No, I want to sit next to my mother.”

“Our Erich is a good kid who can give way to his sister. Yes? Isn’t it?”

It wasn’t even that the Ernst’s wife scolded him. She just stared at Erich

and whispered in a bit of coarse, but I was very glad after that the third words fleeing for a moment.

I saw his lips start to writhe.

“She is not my sister….”

“Erich. My baby is a good kid who listens to his mother.”

Gradually, a shallow water gradually began to appear in the clear eyes resembling Mrs. Ernst.

Erich opened his lips as if he wanted to say something several times, but in the end, he couldn’t say a word, but looked at his mother’s face.

“Now, let’s sit in front of her mother.”

“Yes.”

Finally, Erich replied in small voice and drew his head down. It was the same after climbing the wagon.

He was just sitting quietly and bowing his head halfway, never again struggling with me, and without being thrilled as a young child.

I looked at Erich’s round head without saying anything.

“Hari, is this the first time we’re going out together?”

I turned to Mrs Ernst’s voice. She’s looking at me with a smile that’s soft as usual.

“Yeah. It’s better to go with Erich and brothers together!”

“When you arrive at the destination, it will be more enjoyable.”

I felt that Mrs. Ernst’s bright laughter was slowly getting bitter. It was because I just realized what the sense of incongruity I had felt a while ago.

“It’s not too short to travel in a wagon, so sit comfortably like Erich.”

I heard Mrs. Ernst’s words. I looked away from the window. The rapidly passing landscape was all white with color as my eyes sitting on the branches.

I looked at the sight, and after a while I

closed my eyes.

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“Wow ah! There are so many people!”

As soon as people stepped into the bustling city, the turbulent air peculiar to the city shook me.

Cabel keeps running somewhere like a puppy who has already been so excited to gone out. He squeaked his feet to run out.

Probably, if Duke Ernst had not held the second brother arm since the beginning, he would have remained lost ten times.

“Today, we only need to stop by the

medicinal dealer, and since the weather is warm, so shall we go around?”

“Then it takes time anyway, so it would be better to order medicine first.

According to Ernst’s opinion. The aim was to buy my own medicine with Mrs. Ernst, whose body was also weak.

“After ordering the medicine by combining herbs, we can eat it at home, so I decided to go back to the medicine I had set at the time I finished going out. What about Hari? Do you have anything you want or want to eat?”

‘It is a good idea for a young child to remain a child as long as possible.’

At that very moment, Butler Hubert’s words passed by. When I think about it, I have never argued strongly with someone for what I wanted during my life.

Even in my childhood, I didn’t even remember using a tantrum when I wanted to have or buy anything. It wasn’t because I didn’t really want anything.

I quietly looked up at the face of the Ernst couple. If this is a dream, I will wake up someday. If I was, could I do everything I wanted to do?

Even if it’s so trivial that it feels trivial on the one hand.

‘I want to buy cotton candy! Two people eat on one cotton candy will not know if one can!’

I decided to put my thoughts into action immediately. Now, anyway, I’m 7 years old now, so let’s forget the embarrassment and shame and put a sheet of iron on the face.

“Cotton candy! I want to eat cotton candy!”

I said proudly, pointing my finger at a street vendor nearby.

“Mom, I want that! Grilled lizards! I want to eat it!”

In conclusion, I succeeded very easily in getting cotton candy. Only Cabel had to abandon grilling lizards sullenly because of the careful wife of Ernst.

“Cabel. Eat this instead.”

But Cabel quickly regenerated after Eugene grabbed the authority skewers.

I stood in front of a cotton candy street vendor holding hands alongside Duke Ernst.

“Mister, give me a pink cotton candy.”

“Yes, cute girl! It’s very sweet and delicious because it’s cotton candy imported directly from Obelia!”

Oh. This was imported from Obelia. After 20 years, I didn’t realize it because I could see it in every street within Arlanta.

Of course, at that time, I wanted to say, ‘What am I doing at this age?’

I look at the street vendor making cotton candy with a vague look.

Obelia is a country in goodwill with Arlanta, where I live, and was regarded as one of the great powers ruled by the powerful wizard emperor.

Oh, and then I remembered that the princess of that country had a wedding ceremony 20 years later, and it was so lively even in Arlanta.

Did I say that it was the princess, the jewel of Obelia?

It seems that the princess was probably one year younger than me, but she was married at the age of 26, so it was a really late marriage for a princess in one country.

Huft. Thinking that makes me a little bit sad again.

It was said that the princess was only allowed to get married at that age due to the great love of the father Emperor.

I heard that it was the Emperor’s desire to keep his daughter a little longer next to him.

It’s so different from me, who was an old woman, because I couldn’t get my marriage until turn 27!

Ouch. What’s more, he didn’t marry the

princess elsewhere in the house of imperial family of Obelia, but decided to send the groom to the palace and live together as a member of the royal

family.

It was a surprised. Well. Perhaps the emperor is seriously out of control.

Later, people said that they don’t know if the princess will take over the throne, or, in the general case, the groom will take the place.

Everyone had to put their mouths together and conclude. Well, it’s going to happen about 20 years from now. Then how is that princess by now?

Did she living a happy life?

She was born with a gold spoon in her mouth, so I’m sure she’ll be living well while being loved without being mistreated like anyone else and noticing others.

Ugh damn. I envy her… In the next life, I want to be born like that princess.

Oooh! What kind of karma am I doing in my previous life that I’m doing this twice on top of dealing with three pieces of shit?

“Now, it’s a heart-shaped cotton candy!”

“Wow!”

Ah, while I was thinking, a cotton candy came out! The color is pink and the street vendor made the heart shape. With a cotton candy, I ran to where the third was.

“Erich!”

Erich had been quiet all the time since his lose at the wagon. I fluttered the rabbit fur and ran to him and said,

“Oh”

“What?”

“Ah? Hey! Eat this!”

My hand that hold a cotton candy turns into Erich’s mouth. It was thick.

He followed me and opened his mouth

unknowingly, and he was surprised to the cotton candy that come in.

“Is it delicious?”

“What are you doing now?”

“Now, eat more. It’s delicious.”

“I dont want to eat it.”

“What? Isn’t it so delicious? Do you want to eat more? Dad! Can I buy another cotton candy?”

It was the third piece of shit (Erich) face that looked really bad and making me worried.

“Now, I’ll give you a new one.”

“I’m not eating!”

“Don’t cry later, eat it.”

I thought I just wanted to put it in his mouth, but because the Ernst couple was

watching, I smiled at Erich and chuckled in a good-looking cotton candy.

But his stubbornness is not normal. The cotton candy thrown from the third hand rolled down the floor the next moment.

“Erich, what are you doing now?”

Naturally, Erich was confused by Ernst wreath. He cried and I saw Erich hanging over to Eugene and burying his face.

That child, how delicious is cotton candy, and I don’t even know the nobleness of

some!

…. No. Where the heck is this. I can’t quite grasp what to do. Ugh. After all, children are too difficult. It was also instantaneous

that the usual outing became a mess.

After that, the Ernest couple tried to change the atmosphere, but as a result, only a few hours passed without exerting a great effect.

Still, by the end of the outing, it was fortunate that Erich had some relief and was embraced by Mrs. Ernst.

Of course, I never opened my mouth until the end.

“Now we have to find the medicine,” said Ernst’s wife, while walking with Erich in her side.

“Oh, isn’t it the duke of Ernst?”

But there was a man who knew the Duke of Ernst nicely. It was just a negligible greeting. After a short greeting, she turned her head to Eugene, who was next to me.

“Eugene. Maybe you should go.”

“Okay.”

We can wait for Duke Ernst as it is, but the problem was that the time to close the door of medicinal herbs was getting

closer.

Then I wonder if I will be waiting here…

“Come with Hari.”

I remember! Mrs. Ernst plan screamed like a chunky wall. Eugene shook his eyes at her word.

“I can go alone.”

“It’s hard to keep watch at all three children alone. Cabel doesn’t know where to turn his eyes, and Erich…”

Mr. Ernst glanced down at Erich, who wasn’t close to him. Soon she smiled and talked to Eugene and me.

“Because there are so many people, it’s easy to get lost, so the two of you should hold your hand and go. Hari must be well attached to her brother.”

I had to try hard not to rot my face. I could notice what Mrs. Ernst’s thoughts were.

Auntie, are you trying to reconcile me and Eugene right now?

Since Eugene and I seem to have been awkward since the last candy incident,

you’re deliberately sending the two of us apart, right?

But no matter how much it is, it’s not easy like that! Even Mrs Ernst overlapped my hands with Eugene. At the touch of the hand, both Eugene and flinched.

“Carefully, come and go!”

Eventually, Eugene and I awkwardly grabbed our hands and went out on the road.

At the streets, where I and Eugene walking alone were, of course, so awkward that I feel like want to die.

I looked up at Eugene with a sneak glance between the people coming and going. He was walking with his face staring straight ahead, not knowing what he was thinking.

Since the candy incident at that time, I have never had a conversation with Eugene. It wasn’t like that i don’t what to say.

After that day, Eugene was stuck in his room, excluding meal time, making it difficult to see his face. They said he was studying.

In fact, Eugene studied at Arlanta’s largest academic institution from the

age of 11 to the age of 17.

Right now he’s not in the semester, so he’s at home, so maybe when spring come he will be back to school. So it might not seem like an excuse to study in his room.

Oh? But what did you just say? Anyway, I just thought what Eugene had said to me. I was in a different thought and raised my head to his face.

Then Eugene opened his mouth again without looking down at me.

“Do you still want to go back to where you were?”

I was puzzled. Why are you asking me this thing without hesitation? Oh, and when I saw it, it wasn’t long before I first realized

as I opened my eyes where here is.

Did you say do I want to go back?

“Yes, I want to go back.”

Of course, Eugene would think that the place I was talking about was the street of Meltington where I used to live as a child, but I didn’t think I had to correct it, so I just replied.

After that, Eugene was silent.

What the hell are you thinking, but for me, Eugene was a difficult person at any time, so it wasn’t easy for me to dig his heart up even when he was young.

Eugene and I walked silently through the gap between people who came in and out, like low tide and high tide.

Unlike my hand who wearing white mittens, Eugene was bare. His hand, which held my hand, remained a little red and frozen for a moment.

It was then that the power around my hand was loosened.

On the slowly fading hand, I opened my mouth to call his name, but before his name flowed out of my mouth, his hand shook from me first.

The cold air in my hand, where the warmth disappeared, struck.

“Eu-“

I stepped forward one or two steps along the crowd, and soon stopped in my place.

A voice that didn’t come out before became a white breath and embroidered the winter air.

‘Because there are many people, it is easy to get lost, so hold your hand and go.’

I looked at Eugene far away from people. Without calling his name or chasing after him. The daytime ripe brown of his hair soon disappeared from view.

Thousands of people have passed around me…

I Wouldn’t have known if I was really 7 years old, but I wasn’t a kid, so I realized. The fact that Eugene left me here now.

There were a lot of people wherever we went, because it was crowded.

I once again moved to the corner of the street, avoiding the crowds who are constantly pushing.

And I sat properly with my ass sitting on the empty boxes in front of the vegetable shop. It would be hard to find if you lost a child here.

I sat down on the box and looked down at

Eugene’s hand just before, but, of course, my hand was empty, and the warmth I was staying in was already captured by the winter breeze, so I couldn’t even find it back.

Is this has happened before, but was it just that I didn’t remember as a child? Or did something change because I was

different now and then?

While walking with Eugene, I wasn’t aware of it because of other thoughts, but now this road was not the way I went with

Ernst’s family.

Strangers who pass by. The first day to see the street. And above all, this time 20 years ago, unfamiliar. In it, I was alone.

It was strange.

Even though I knew what Eugene did, but I did not hate or blame him. Maybe this is because I still think this is as a half dream.

Everything on this land I’m on now feels terribly realistic and terribly unreal.

I was just a little curious as to what Eugene at the age of 12 was thinking as would leave me here.

“My baby, are you waiting for your mom? It’s cold, stay inside.”

Is it because I was sitting looking too pathetic?

The women that appears to be the owner of the vegetable shop thought of me as a waiting child and kindly recommended it, but I replied shortly, still keeping my eye on the people who were coming and going.

“I’m not waiting for anyone.”

The old lady at the vegetable shop chuckled at me, but I didn’t say anything anymore.

I thought of my childhood suddenly trying to sit in the middle of the street like this. I was doing my mother’s nursing care at a shack.

I was walking around the houses in the alley to beg. I couldn’t sell all the flowers in the basket, so I got messed up with my neighbor, Sarah.

And Ernst’s couple who smiled with tearful faces even when I gave them all the white flowers that had withered.

If I mix myself in between those people in front of me and leave my body, can I go anywhere like this?

In what sense is that a result that resembles the freedom I wanted? Okay….

Then, why did I never think about leaving the house? I thought and looked at the people passing by. Until I even felt tired of passing by dozens or hundreds of

people in their lives.

Huft. It was some time after that and dark shadow was cast before me. I was tired of seeing people, bowing my head curled

up on the box.

Then at some point, my eyes see a men’s winter shoes in front of me.

As I looked down at the lustrous, shoe-nosed nose with shallow sand dust, I slowly raised my head.

Then Eugene, standing in front of me, shed some light on my sight. Brown hair, which was always neat, was a little disheveled.

The breath hanging on his lips followed my breath and tickled my forehead. In that state, he goes for a while and looks at me….

“Let’s go.”

Before long, he said so briefly. I looked up

at the person in front of me. The moment our eyes met, the emotions in his eyes flowed to me.

The deep-rooted feelings of guilt, compassion, and despair that swirl in that black pupil.

“Have you been there?”

I just pretended not to know what he was feeling at this moment, and what I was

feeling. I just said that.

What just happened between him and me like I don’t know anything, and pretend that he gone to order the medicine. Then

Eugene smiled for a while…

“I’ve been there.”

He replied so.

“Let’s go back.”

I got out of the box and stand up, and this time I first reached out to him. Eugene stared at it for a while, and then slowly took my hand.

His hand was colder than me. The cold felt over my gloves. The hand was cold.

“My leg’s hurts.”

I decided to try a childish fight against Eugene. In a way, I knew that he would not be able to refuse now, and I was also

in my own mind.

“Up here.”

Eugene also answered with a short answer and then sat down with his knees in front of me. I threw my hand on his back

as if I had waited.

“Stupid.”

I mumbled over Eugene’s back. And after a while, impulsively raised my hands.

“Ugh.”

No matter how much you think about it, it’s rude, but I pick his head!

“What are you doing?”

It wasn’t an excuse to say, but,

“Hey. I’m trying to remove the dust.”

“But, what are you going to do?”

Isn’t this is a pretty back head right in front of my nose? This was a chance for my revenge.

I raised my hand to his head and beat the back of Eugene’s head, which had been looking for an opportunity to explore the city sight.

Every time I did, Eugene hissed, but instead of scolding me, he just walked silently.

Now the sun started to settle down on the ground. The shadows created by the two fools also stretched to the floor.

“Brother Eugene is uncomfortable.”

“Noisy.”

Eugene still said that it was heavy, but the hand that carry me was as hard as ever and never going to let me down. Whatever it was, it was now that was important.

He came back to pick me up. That what I thought.