Chapter 41 - Warm Life (1/2)

Chapter 41: Warm Life

When you thought you were going to get something, but you ended up losing it, this would result in the most pain. Just as she had thought that she was so close to him, only to be rejected thousands of miles away.

Yi Ran knew that the damage she suffered was nothing compared to the damage he had suffered.

But if, at this time, they couldn’t even frankly face this setback together, it would be nearly impossible to cross this gap in the future.

Yi Ran stared silently at the man in front of her. She felt helpless but had to make some changes for him to see.

“Gu Tingchuan, you once told me that you don’t know how to manage relationships, so you will choose to avoid it. But we also said later that we should cherish this marriage with each other.”

A sense of awareness slowly trickled through Gu Tingchuan‘s heart. His fingers on the coffee cup trembled as he lowered the cup and looked at her heavily.

“This time you’ve encountered these things, but I don’t know how to comfort you. In fact … I probably said everything I could say, but it didn’t seem to help you.”

She smiled mockingly at herself and rested both hands on the table. But, her tone was quite calm. “You’ve been hiding in the studio for more than a few days…It seemed that you don’t need my company. You’re just fine.”

Gu Tingchuan frowned slightly. It was just that he was too accustomed to dealing with matters by himself. He tended to keep all his emotions in his heart and did not want to tell others. He had never tried to emotionally rely on the people in front of him.

Yi Ran stood there quietly, as quietly as snow melting, gentle and clear, which made Gu Tingchuan’s heart tremble.

“I never really felt that you have difficulty connecting with me. Even if we come from different classes, you can at least understand me…It’s just that things have changed and this seemed like something that’s hard for us to handle.”

Because he had a proud, reserved, and strong personality.

She thought that they had already reached the stage where they were just like any pair of husband and wife with a tacit understanding of each other. But, it turned out that she was just too happy and had lost her sense of reality.

“I also wanted for us to be able to go out together and relax. Hopefully, your inspiration will come back. But, you didn’t seem to want to, and in the end, no one can really force you. Sorry. I thought that I might be able to help you.”

She ought to be able to rise up with great enthusiasm and persistently help him. But, when she took a step back, she realized how mentally and physically exhausted she was. Yi Ran really felt that a bit of change was needed in order to make him realize that the dilemma between them was something that they needed to resolve together.

“Gu Tingchuan, I plan to move home and stay for a few days.”

Gu Tingchuan’s expression froze and he lifted his head to look at her. “What did you say…?”

“You need to think calmly about many things, so I’ll give you some time. I believe you can come to a decision,” Yi Ran said, sounding calm. In fact, the more violently he reacted, the better it would be for her.

“Also, I know that it wasn’t personal…”

Gu Tingchuan, if you still need me, then find me again.

Yi Ran took one last bite of her omelette and washed it down with the last of her coffee. She silently stood up and walked to the sofa. Without uttering a single word, she simply picked up the small bag that had been arranged earlier and left, closing the door behind her.

The hurried movements at the door quickly disappeared, leaving only silence in its wake. Gu Tingchuan looked at the door for a long time, unable to calm down.

He clearly knew that the anomalies these days were causing too much damage to her and the torment might result in irreversible damage to them. He had meant to tell her that there was a corner of his heart that belonged to her and even if he was suffering, he would also take responsibility for her.

However, Yi Ran was obviously completely disappointed with him.

Gu Tingchuan’s expression was cold as he looked at the breakfast she had prepared for him. But he could not eat half a bite. After thinking for a while, he got up and walked back to the studio. He turned on the lamp attached to the wall.

This was where he had spent the longest time. But everything here, from the computers, projectors, players…to the air conditioners, televisions, and even refrigerators, were all just cold machines. How could they compared to a soft, tender concern?

He strode to the table and swept out his arms, scattering all the pens and papers and everything else on to floor. Then, he pulled back the chair and sat down heavily.

Even as a child, Gu Tingchuan had never been good at talking with his family. He had already understood from a young age that there was no use in talking. It would not improve his situation at all.

When he calmly thought about it, he wanted to find a mobile phone to call Yi Ran. But then, a moment later, he saw the small white pill bottle that had fallen to the ground. His assistant had bought it for him a few days ago to alleviate his migraines. He leaned over and pick it up, resting it on the corner of the table.

In these past few days, his mental pressure was so great that he couldn’t fall asleep and had a persistent headache. This feeling was especially strong when he was creating. It was like God was giving him both talents and trials hand in hand.

In the end, Gu Tingchuan had to admit that he had long grown accustomed to Yi Ran being by his side and had became used to their new identity as husband and wife. His wish was not only to indulge and pamper her, but also to be able to talk to her honestly and unreservedly.