Part 28 (1/2)
The deep, fragrant breathing of the child soon showed that he was asleep. Cautiously Mostyn propped himself up on his elbow and looked into the placid face. ”He has my brow,” he mused, bitterly; ”my hands; my ears; my long ringers, with their curving nails; my slender ankles and high-instepped feet; and, my G.o.d! he has my telltale sensual lips.
Here am I in the throes of a h.e.l.l produced by infinite laws. What is to prevent him--the helpless replica of myself--from taking the way I took? The edge of the alluring abyss will crumble under his blind tread as it crumbled under mine, and this--this--this cloying horror which is on me to-night may be my gift to him--for whose sake I would die--yes, die!”
Silently Mostyn left the bed and took a seat on the broad sill of one of the windows overlooking the lawn.
”What will be the end?” he asked himself. ”It can't go on like this. I am not man enough to stand it. If I were not afraid of death, I would--no, I wouldn't”--he glanced at the bed--”I am responsible for his being here. He is the flower of my corruption. G.o.d may desert him, but I won't. I will protect him, love him, pity him, care for him to the end.”
A cold drop fell on his hand and trickled through his fingers. He was weeping.
CHAPTER IV
Saunders spent the end of that week on his plantation in the mountains.
On Sat.u.r.day morning he dropped in at Drake's to see Dolly. John Webb came to the door in response to his rap. He was quite unchanged. Even the clothes he was wearing had the same look as those he wore five years before.
”She ain't here,” he said. ”I seed 'er, with some books an' papers under 'er arm, headed for the schoolhouse just after breakfast. I reckon she's got some examples to work or compositions to write. They are fixin' for a' exhibition of some sort for the last Friday in this month. Dolly writes a big part o' the stuff the scholars read in public, an' you bet some of it is tiptop. When she is in a good humor she can compose a' article that will make a dog laugh. She is out o'
sorts to-day.”
”Oh, is that so?” Saunders was moving toward the gate. ”Has anything gone wrong?”
”She is bothered about George,” Webb answered. ”It is first one thing and then another with her. George's crop is a failure this year and he is up to his neck in debt. On top o' that he wants to get married. You know him an' Ida Benson are crazy to get tied, and it was to come off in the fall, but George won't be able to buy a new s.h.i.+rt, to say nothin' of a whole outfit. The boy is awful downhearted, and so is his gal. Dolly busted out an' cried last night while George was a-talkin'.
She says Ida will be the makin' of the boy, but they can't stir a peg as it is, for they hain't got a dollar betwixt 'em.”
”Well, I'll walk by the schoolhouse and see if Dolly is there,”
Saunders remarked. ”It is on my way home.”
As he drew near the little building at the roadside he noticed that the front door was open, and, peering in, he saw Dolly at her desk. She was not at work; indeed, she seemed quite preoccupied with her thoughts, for she was staring fixedly at an open window, a troubled frown on her sweet face. She heard Saunders's step at the door, and, seeing him enter, she began to smile.
”You caught me,” she laughed, impulsively. ”I was having one of my silly fits of blues. I am glad you came in. You always make me ashamed of my despondency.”
”You are freer from it than any human being I ever saw,” he declared, as he shook hands with her. ”I seldom have the blues; but if I did, one thought of your wonderful patience would knock them higher than a kite.”
She laughed merrily, her eyes twinkling, the warm color flus.h.i.+ng her face, as was always the case when she was animated. ”I suppose it is generally due to one's point of view,” she said. ”When it concerns myself I can manage very well, but if it is any one else--”
”A dear brother, for instance,” Saunders put in, sympathetically, ”and his laudable desire to marry a worthy girl.”
She looked at him steadily in mild surprise. ”I see you know,” she nodded. ”I suppose half the county are sorry for that pair. George does try so hard, and yet everything the poor boy touches goes the wrong way. It is not his fault. He is young and inexperienced and so full of hope. He is so downhearted to-day that he wouldn't go to work. He got a letter from Cross & Mayhew last night. You know they advanced him his supplies for this season and took a mortgage on his crop as security.
It seems that they sent a man out here the other day to see how he was getting on. The man reported the condition of George's crop, and they wrote him that they would not credit him for his supplies next season.
That was the last straw. I found him actually crying down at the barn.
He had gone into the stall where his horse was feeding and had his arms around the animal's neck. Mr. Saunders, you can't imagine my feelings.
I love my brother with all my heart. I offered to help him with part of my wages, but he was too proud to accept a cent. That letter from Cross & Mayhew humiliated him beyond description. It bowed him down; young as he is, he is actually crushed. He is coming here this morning to talk to me. He wants to go West with the hope that he may get started there and come back for Ida. I can't bear to have him go--I simply can't stand it. I want him to stay here at home. It is the place for them both.”
”I think so, too,” Saunders said, sympathetically. ”There is no better spot on earth for a young farmer.”
”I am glad you agree with me”--Dolly brightened a little--”and if you should get a chance I wish you would advise him to stay. You have wonderful influence, with both him and my father.”
”I didn't know that,” Saunders said, modestly.