Part 30 (1/2)
”That is all the material you sent us.”
”What!”
”We have used all the material that you sent us,” repeated the Keeper of the Gate.
”Now I know that you are mistaken,” cried the man with growing earnestness, ”for all my life long I have been doing things that must have supplied you with material. Have you not heard that I have built a school-house; the wing of a hospital; two--yes, three--small churches, and the greater part of a large one, the spire of St.
Petro----”
The Keeper of the Gate lifted his hand.
”Wait,” he said; ”we know all these things. They were not ill done.
But they were all marked and used as foundations for the name and mansion of John Weightman in the world. Did you not plan them for that?”
”Yes,” answered the man, confused and taken aback, ”I confess that I thought often of them in that way. Perhaps my heart was set upon that too much. But there are other things--my endowment for the college--my steady and liberal contributions to all the established charities--my support of every respectable----”
”Wait,” said the Keeper of the Gate again. ”Were not all these carefully recorded on earth where they would add to your credit? They were not foolishly done. Verily, you have had your reward for them.
Would you be paid twice?”
”No,” cried the man, with deepening dismay, ”I dare not claim that. I acknowledge that I considered my own interest too much. But surely not altogether. You have said that these things were not foolishly done.
They accomplished some good in the world. Does not that count for something?”
”Yes,” answered the Keeper of the Gate, ”it counts in the world--where you counted it. But it does not belong to you here. We have saved and used everything that you sent us. This is the mansion prepared for you.”
As he spoke, his look grew deeper and more searching, like a flame of fire. John Weightman could not endure it. It seemed to strip him naked and wither him. He sank to the ground under a crus.h.i.+ng weight of shame, covering his eyes with his hands and cowering, face downward, upon the stones. Dimly through the trouble of his mind he felt their hardness and coldness.
”Tell me, then,” he cried, brokenly, ”since my life has been so little worth, how came I here at all?”
”Through the mercy of the King”--the answer was like the soft tolling of a bell.
”And how have I earned it?” he murmured.
”It is never earned; it is only given,” came the clear, low reply.
”But how have I failed so wretchedly,” he asked, ”in all the purpose of my life? What could I have done better? What is it that counts here?”
”Only that which is truly given,” answered the bell-like voice. ”Only that good which is done for the love of doing it. Only those plans in which the welfare of others is the master thought. Only those labours in which the sacrifice is greater than the reward. Only those gifts in which the giver forgets himself.”