Part 24 (2/2)

”You shall tell me them the next time we come; and that will not be so soon; for my affairs are going on much better than if I interfered with them; and I should not like to get into the habit of drinking Madeira to prevent myself from being frightened at my own shadow. And now, Marca.s.se, I must ask you as a favour not to tell any one what has happened. Everybody has not your respect for your captain.”

”The man who does not respect my captain is an idiot,” answered the hidalgo, in a tone of authority; ”but, if you order me, I will say nothing.”

He kept his word. I would not on any account have had Edmee's mind disturbed by this stupid tale. However, I could not prevent Marca.s.se from carrying out his design; early the following morning he disappeared, and I learnt from Patience that he had returned to Roche-Mauprat under the pretence of having forgotten something.

XVIII

While Marca.s.se was devoting himself to serious investigations, I was spending days of delight and agony in Edmee's presence. Her behaviour, so constant and devoted, and yet in many respects so reserved, threw me into continual alternations of joy and grief. One day while I was taking a walk the chevalier had a long conversation with her. I happened to return when their discussion had reached its most animated stage. As soon as I appeared, my uncle said to me:

”Here, Bernard; come and tell Edmee that you love her; that you will make her happy; that you have got rid of your old faults. Do something to get yourself accepted; for things cannot go on as they are. Our position with our neighbours is unbearable; and before I go down to the grave I should like to see my daughter's honour cleared from stain, and to feel sure that some stupid caprice of hers will not cast her into a convent, when she ought to be filling that position in society to which she is ent.i.tled, and which I have worked all my life to win for her.

Come, Bernard, at her feet, lad! Have the wit to say something that will persuade her! Otherwise I shall think--G.o.d forgive me!--that it is you that do not love her and do not honestly wish to marry her.”

”I! Great heavens!” I exclaimed. ”Not wish to marry her--when for seven years I have had no other thought; when that is the one wish of my heart, and the only happiness my mind can conceive!”

Then I poured forth all the thoughts that the sincerest pa.s.sion could suggest. She listened to me in silence, and without withdrawing her hands, which I covered with kisses. But there was a serious expression in her eyes, and the tone of her voice made me tremble when, after reflecting a few moments, she said:

”Father, you should not doubt my word; I have promised to marry Bernard; I promised him, and I promised you; it is certain, therefore, that I shall marry him.”

Then she added, after a fresh pause, and in a still severe tone:

”But if, father, you believe that you are on the brink of the grave, what sort of heart do you suppose I can have, that you bid me think only of myself, and put on my wedding-dress in the hour of mourning for you?

If, on the contrary, you are, as I believe, still full of vigour, in spite of your sufferings, and destined to enjoy the love of your family for many a long year yet, why do you urge me so imperiously to cut short the time I have requested? Is not the question important enough to demand my most serious reflection? A contract which is to bind me for the rest of my life, and on which depends, I do not say my happiness, for that I would gladly sacrifice to your least wish, but the peace of my conscience and the dignity of my conduct (since no woman can be sufficiently sure of herself to answer for a future which has been fettered against her will), does not such a contract bid me weigh all its risks and all its advantages for several years at least?”

”Good G.o.d!” said the chevalier. ”Have you not been weighing all this for the last seven years? You ought to have arrived at some conclusion about your cousin by now. If you are willing to marry him, marry him; but if not, for G.o.d's sake say so, and let another man come forward.”

”Father,” replied Edmee, somewhat coldly, ”I shall marry none but him.”

”'None but him' is all very well,” said the chevalier, tapping the logs with the tongs; ”but that does not necessarily mean that you will marry him.”

”Yes, I will marry him, father,” answered Edmee. ”I could have wished to be free a few months more; but since you are displeased at all these delays, I am ready to obey your orders, as you know.”

”Parbleu! that is a pretty way of consenting,” exclaimed my uncle, ”and no doubt most gratifying to your cousin! By Jove! Bernard, I have lived many years in this world, but I must own that I can't understand these women yet, and it is very probable that I shall die without ever having understood them.”

”Uncle,” I said, ”I can quite understand my cousin's aversion for me; it is only what I deserve. I have done all I could to atone for my errors.

But, is it altogether in her power to forget a past which has doubtless caused her too much pain? However, if she does not forgive me, I will imitate her severity: I will not forgive myself. Abandoning all hope in this world, I will tear myself away from her and you, and chasten myself with a punishment worse than death.”

”That's it! Go on! There's an end of everything!” said the chevalier, throwing the tongs into the fire. ”That is just what you have been aiming at, I suppose, Edmee?”

I had moved a few steps towards the door; I was suffering intensely.

Edmee ran after me, took me by the arm, and brought me back towards her father.

”It is cruel and most ungrateful of you to say that,” she said. ”Does it show a modest spirit and generous heart, to forget a friends.h.i.+p, a devotion, I may even venture to say, a fidelity of seven years, because I ask to prove you for a few months more? And even if my affection for you should never be as deep as yours for me, is what I have hitherto shown you of so little account that you despise it and reject it, because you are vexed at not inspiring me with precisely as much as you think you are ent.i.tled to? You know at this rate a woman would have no right to feel affection. However, tell me, is it your wish to punish me for having been a mother to you by leaving me altogether, or to make some return only on condition that I become your slave?”

”No, Edmee, no,” I replied, with my heart breaking and my eyes full of tears, as I raised her hand to my lips; ”I feel that you have done far more for me than I deserved; I feel that it would be idle to think of tearing myself from your presence; but can you account it a crime in me to suffer by your side? In any case it is so involuntary, so inevitable a crime, that it must needs escape all your reproaches and all my own remorse. But let us talk of this no more. It is all I can do. Grant me your friends.h.i.+p still; I shall hope to show myself always worthy of you in the future.”

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