Part 14 (1/2)

”What could there be, Perceval? You are trying to frighten me.”

”No, Mr. Stanniford; but I should wish you to be ready ... to be braced up ... not to allow yourself ...” He had to lick his dry lips between every jerky sentence, and I suddenly realised, as clearly as if he had told me, that he knew what was behind that closed door, and that it _was_ something terrible. ”Here are the keys, Mr. Stanniford, but remember my warning!”

He had a bunch of a.s.sorted keys in his hand, and the young man s.n.a.t.c.hed them from him. Then he thrust a knife under the discoloured seal and jerked it off. The lamp was rattling and shaking in Perceval's hands, so I took it from him and held it near the key-hole, while Stanniford tried key after key. At last one turned in the lock, the door flew open, he took one step into the room, and then, with a horrible cry, the young man fell senseless at our feet.

If I had not given heed to the clerk's warning, and braced myself for a shock, I should certainly have dropped the lamp. The room, windowless and bare, was fitted up as a photographic laboratory, with a tap and sink at the side of it. A shelf of bottles and measures stood at one side, and a peculiar, heavy smell, partly chemical, partly animal, filled the air. A single table and chair were in front of us, and at this, with his back turned towards us, a man was seated in the act of writing. His outline and att.i.tude were as natural as life; but as the light fell upon him, it made my hair rise to see that the nape of his neck was black and wrinkled, and no thicker than my wrist. Dust lay upon him--thick, yellow dust--upon his hair, his shoulders, his shrivelled, lemon-coloured hands. His head had fallen forward upon his breast. His pen still rested upon a discoloured sheet of paper.

”My poor master! My poor, poor master!” cried the clerk, and the tears were running down his cheeks.

”What!” I cried, ”Mr. Stanislaus Stanniford!”

”Here he has sat for seven years. Oh, why would he do it? I begged him, I implored him, I went on my knees to him, but he would have his way.

You see the key on the table. He had locked the door upon the inside.

And he has written something. We must take it.”

”Yes, yes, take it, and for G.o.d's sake, let us get out of this,” I cried; ”the air is poisonous. Come, Stanniford, come!” Taking an arm each, we half led and half carried the terrified man back to his own room.

”It was my father!” he cried, as he recovered his consciousness. ”He is sitting there dead in his chair. You knew it, Perceval! This was what you meant when you warned me.”

”Yes, I knew it, Mr. Stanniford. I have acted for the best all along, but my position has been a terribly difficult one. For seven years I have known that your father was dead in that room.”

”You knew it, and never told us!”

”Don't be harsh with me, Mr. Stanniford, sir! Make allowance for a man who has had a hard part to play.”

”My head is swimming round. I cannot grasp it!” He staggered up, and helped himself from the brandy bottle. ”These letters to my mother and to myself--were they forgeries?”

”No, sir; your father wrote them and addressed them, and left them in my keeping to be posted. I have followed his instructions to the very letter in all things. He was my master, and I have obeyed him.”

The brandy had steadied the young man's shaken nerves. ”Tell me about it. I can stand it now,” said he.

”Well, Mr. Stanniford, you know that at one time there came a period of great trouble upon your father, and he thought that many poor people were about to lose their savings through his fault. He was a man who was so tender-hearted that he could not bear the thought. It worried him and tormented him, until he determined to end his life. Oh, Mr. Stanniford, if you knew how I have prayed him and wrestled with him over it, you would never blame me! And he in turn prayed me as no man has ever prayed me before. He had made up his mind, and he would do it in any case, he said; but it rested with me whether his death should be happy and easy or whether it should be most miserable. I read in his eyes that he meant what he said. And at last I yielded to his prayers, and I consented to do his will.

”What was troubling him was this. He had been told by the first doctor in London that his wife's heart would fail at the slightest shock. He had a horror of accelerating her end, and yet his own existence had become unendurable to him. How could he end himself without injuring her?

”You know now the course that he took. He wrote the letter which she received. There was nothing in it which was not literally true. When he spoke of seeing her again so soon, he was referring to her own approaching death, which he had been a.s.sured could not be delayed more than a very few months. So convinced was he of this, that he only left two letters to be forwarded at intervals after his death. She lived five years, and I had no letters to send.

”He left another letter with me to be sent to you, sir, upon the occasion of the death of your mother. I posted all these in Paris to sustain the idea of his being abroad. It was his wish that I should say nothing, and I have said nothing. I have been a faithful servant. Seven years after his death, he thought no doubt that the shock to the feelings of his surviving friends Would be lessened. He was always considerate for others.”

There was a silence for some time. It was broken by young Stanniford.

”I cannot blame you, Perceval. You have spared my mother a shock, which would certainly have broken her heart. What is that paper?”

”It is what your father was writing, sir. Shall I read it to you?”

”Do so.”