Part 1 (2/2)
Wilderness was not something I actually believed in four months ago, sitting in our London flat, the rain spitting against the windows. When Richard called me over to his computer and showed me the Botswana safari he wanted to book for our holiday, I saw photos of lions and hippos, rhinos and leopards, the same familiar animals you can find in zoos and game parks. That's what I imagined, a giant game park with comfortable lodges and roads. At a minimum, roads. According to the website, there'd be ”bush camping” involved, but I pictured lovely big tents with showers and flush toilets. I didn't think I'd be paying for the privilege of squatting in the bushes.
Richard doesn't mind roughing it in the least. He's high on Africa, higher than Mount Kilimanjaro, his camera constantly clicking away as we drive. In the seat behind us, Mr. Matsunaga's camera matches Richard's, click for click, but with a longer lens. Richard won't admit it, but he has lens envy, and when we get back to London he'll probably go straight online to price Mr. Matsunaga's gear. This is the way modern men do battle, not with spear and sword, but with credit cards. My platinum beats your gold. Poor Elliot with his unis.e.x Minolta is left in the dust, but I don't think he minds, because once again he's snuggled in the last row with Vivian and Sylvia. I glance back at the three of them and catch a glimpse of Mrs. Matsunaga's resolute face. She's another good sport. I'm sure that s.h.i.+tting in the bushes wasn't her idea of a great holiday, either.
”Lions! Lions!” shouts Richard. ”Over there!”
Cameras click faster as we pull so close I can see black flies clinging to the flank of the male lion. Nearby are three females, lolling in the shade of a leadwood tree. Suddenly there's an outburst of j.a.panese behind me, and I turn to see that Mr. Matsunaga has leaped to his feet. His wife hangs on to the back of his safari jacket, desperate to stop him from leaping out of the truck for a better photo.
”Sit. Down!” Johnny booms out in a voice that no one, man or beast, could possibly ignore. ”Now!”
Instantly Mr. Matsunaga drops back into his seat. Even the lions seem startled, and they all stare at the mechanical monster with eighteen pairs of arms.
”Remember what I told you, Isao?” scolds Johnny. ”If you step out of this truck, you're dead.”
”I get excited. I forget,” murmurs Mr. Matsunaga, apologetically bowing his head.
”Look, I'm only trying to keep you safe.” Johnny releases a deep breath and says quietly: ”I'm sorry for shouting. But last year, a colleague was on a game drive with two clients. Before he could stop them, they both jumped out of the truck to take photos. The lions had them in a flash.”
”You mean-they were killed?” says Elliot.
”That's what lions are programmed to do, Elliot. So please, enjoy the view, but from inside the truck, hey?” Johnny gives a laugh to defuse the tension, but we're all still cowed, a group of misbehaving children who've just been disciplined. The camera clicks are halfhearted now, photos taken to cover our discomfort. We're all shocked by how hard Johnny came down on Mr. Matsunaga. I stare at Johnny's back, which looms right in front of me, and the muscles of his neck stick out like thick vines. He starts the engine again. We leave the lions and drive on, to our next campsite.
AT SUNSET, THE LIQUOR comes out. After the five tents are pitched and the campfire is lit, Clarence the tracker opens the aluminum c.o.c.ktail case that has bounced in the back of the truck all day, and sets out the bottles of gin and whiskey, vodka and Amarula. The last I've grown particularly fond of, a sweet cream liqueur made from the African marula tree. It tastes like a thousand boozy calories of coffee and chocolate, like something a child would sneak a sip of when his mother's back is turned. Clarence winks at me as he hands me my gla.s.s, as if I'm the naughty child of the bunch because everyone else sips grown-up drinks like warm gin and tonic or whiskey, neat. This is the part of the day when I think, Yes, it's good to be in Africa. When the day's discomforts and the bugs and the tension between me and Richard all dissolve in a pleasant, tipsy haze and I can settle into a camp chair and watch the sun go down. As Clarence prepares a simple evening meal of meat stew and bread and fruit, Johnny strings up the perimeter wire, hung with little bells to alert us should anything wander into camp. I notice Johnny's silhouette suddenly go still against the sunset's glow, and he raises his head as if he's sniffing the air, taking in a thousand scents that I'm not even aware of. He's like another bush creature, so at home in this wild place that I almost expect him to open his mouth and roar like a lion.
I turn to Clarence, who's stirring the pot of bubbling stew. ”How long have you worked with Johnny?” I ask.
”With Johnny? First time.”
”You've never been his tracker before?”
Clarence briskly shakes pepper into the stew. ”My cousin is Johnny's tracker. But this week Abraham is in his village for a funeral. He asked me to take his place.”
”And what did Abraham say about Johnny?”
Clarence grins, his white teeth gleaming in the twilight. ”Oh, my cousin tells many stories about him. Many stories. He thinks Johnny should have been born Shangaan, because he's just like us. But with a white face.”
”Shangaan? Is that your tribe?”
He nods. ”We come from Limpopo Province. In South Africa.”
”Is that the language I hear you two speaking sometimes?”
He gives a guilty laugh. ”When we don't want you to know what we say.”
I imagine that none of it is flattering. I look at the others seated around the campfire. Mr. and Mrs. Matsunaga are diligently reviewing the day's photos on his camera. Vivian and Sylvia lounge in their low-cut tank tops, oozing pheromones that make poor, awkward Elliot grovel for attention as usual. Are you gals chilly? Can I get your sweaters? How about another gin and tonic?
Richard emerges from our tent with a fresh s.h.i.+rt. There's an empty chair waiting for him beside me, but he walks right past it. He sits down next to Vivian instead, and proceeds to dial up the charm. How are you enjoying our safari? Do you ever make it to London? I'd be happy to send you and Sylvia autographed copies of Blackjack when it's published.
Of course they all now know who he is. Within the first hour of meeting everyone, Richard subtly slipped in the fact that he is thriller writer Richard Renwick, creator of MI5 hero Jackman Tripp. Unfortunately none of them had ever heard of Richard or his hero, which led to a p.r.i.c.kly first day on safari. But now he's back in form, doing what he does best: charming his audience. Laying it on too thick, I think. Far too thick. But if I complain about it later, I know exactly what he'll say. It's what writers have to do, Millie. We have to be sociable and bring in new readers. Funny how Richard never wastes his time being sociable with grandmotherly types, only with young, preferably pretty girls. I remember how he'd turned that same charm on me four years ago, when he'd signed copies of Kill Option at the bookshop where I work. When Richard's on his game, he's impossible to resist, and now I see him looking at Vivian in a way he hasn't looked at me in years. He slips a Gauloise between his lips and tilts forward to cup the flame from his sterling-silver lighter, the way his hero Jackman Tripp would, with masculine panache.
The empty chair next to me feels like a black hole, sucking all the joy out of my mood. I'm ready to get up and go back to my tent when suddenly Johnny settles into that chair beside me. He doesn't say anything, just scans the group as if taking our measure. I think he is always taking our measure, and I wonder what he sees when he looks at me. Am I like all the other resigned wives and girlfriends who've been dragged into the bush to humor the safari fantasies of their men?
His gaze rattles me, and I'm compelled to fill the silence. ”Do those bells on the perimeter wire actually work?” I ask. ”Or are they just there to make us feel safer?”
”They serve as a first alert.”
”I didn't hear them last night, when the leopard came into camp.”
”I did.” He leans forward, tosses more wood on the fire. ”We'll probably hear those bells again tonight.”
”You think there are more leopards lurking about?”
”Hyenas this time.” He points at the darkness looming beyond our firelit circle. ”There's about half a dozen of them watching us right now.”
”What?” I peer into the night. Only then do I spot the reflected gleam of eyes staring back.
”They're patient. Waiting to see if there's a meal to be scavenged. Walk out there alone, and they'll make you their meal.” He shrugs. ”Which is why you hired me.”
”To keep us from ending up as dinner.”
”I wouldn't get paid if I lost too many clients.”
”How many is too many?”
”You'd only be the third.”
”That's a joke, right?”
He smiles. Though he's about the same age as Richard, a lifetime in the African sun has etched lines around Johnny's eyes. He lays a rea.s.suring hand on my arm, which startles me because he's not a man who offers unnecessary touches. ”Yes, it's a joke. I've never lost a client.”
”I find it hard to tell when you're serious.”
”When I'm serious, you'll know it.” He turns to Clarence, who's just said something to him in Shangaan. ”Supper's ready.”
I glance at Richard, to see if he's noticed Johnny talking to me, Johnny's hand on my arm. But Richard's so focused on Vivian that I might as well be invisible.
”IT'S WHAT WRITERS HAVE to do,” Richard predictably says as we lie in our tents that night. ”I'm only bringing in new readers.” We speak in whispers, because the canvas is thin, the tents close together. ”Besides, I feel a little protective. They're on their own, just two girls out in the bush. Rather adventurous when they're only twenty-something, don't you think? You have to admire them for that.”
”Elliot obviously admires them,” I observe.
”Elliot would admire anything with two X chromosomes.”
”So they're not exactly on their own. He signed on to the trip to keep them company.”
”And G.o.d, that must get tiresome for them. Having him hanging around all the time, making cow eyes.”
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