Chapter 269 - A Letter Luo Xia Left For Her Daughter (1/2)

Had she already engaged?

Mo Xuetong froze on the spot. Whether in her previous life or this life, she had never thought that she would be someone that would set a marriage beforehand. If her marriage had already been set, then who was the other person? Why did he set her for marriage and yet not make a single move? In her previous life, her father forbidden her to marry into the Duke’s manor, but because she was so determined to do it anyway, she let the cat out of the bag eventually.

If she had a marriage set up for her, her father would use it to stop her from marrying Sima Lingyun. In that case, her father did not mention it, which meant that he did not know anything about it! But how could something like this happen?

What was happening? Her mother promised her marriage to someone else, yet she did not inform her father!

She had never thought that such a thing could happen. If it was real, then why did her mother have to do that! What exactly was she hiding? Why did she hide it from her father? She even had to make a decision on her own for her daughter’s once-in-a-lifetime event.

However, subconsciously, Mo Xuetong had a hunch that this was real! Her hand, which rested at the corner of the table, tapped against it twice involuntarily. At that moment, her heart was fl.u.s.tered.

“Miss, can I come in?” Nanny Ming’s slightly trembling voice came from the door.

“Miss…”Mo Yu also heard Nanny Ming’s voice, and she looked at Mo Xuetong.

Mo Xuetong heaved a long sigh and controlled her palpitations. She closed her eyes and said, “Let Nanny Ming in.”

Mo Yu responded and went out. Soon, Nanny Ming came in.

“Miss, please forgive your old servant. I did not want to lie to you intentionally, but Madam…Madam….” Upon entering the door, Nanny Ming fell to the ground on her knees in front of Mo Xuetong’s bed. Her old tears started flowing, and she instantly burst into silent tears.

Mo Xuetong opened her eyes. Her vision had become clear and calm again as if the fear she experienced earlier was just a layer of smoke. Once the smoke pa.s.ses, blue water still met the sky.

She replied coldly, “Please rise, Nanny Ming. You are an elder who stays by Mother’s side, and you also nursed her. I cannot have you kneeling in front of me. Mo Lan, why aren’t you helping Nanny Ming up?” She politely ordered Mo Lan, who had followed Nanny Ming into the room, to help Nanny Ming up. However, this just made their relations.h.i.+p even more alienated.

Mo Lan stepped forward to help Nanny Ming up, yet she refused to get up. “Miss, if you are not willing to forgive your old servant, then I shall kneel here until I die and never get up! I’m truly sorry for you!”

“Nanny, what are you doing? Miss did not say that she does not forgive you. Ever since we lost Madam, Miss had no one that doted her. She thought that you’re the one that loved her the most and had never treated you as an outsider. Even when the Qin family had to live in someone else’s house, Miss always thought of you when there was good food or good things to use. She treated you as a real elder, yet you always…” Mo Lan tried to pull Nanny Ming up and said between tears.

They had gone through that period when they were abandoned at Cloud City together. Mo Xuetong was an orphan, and no one paid attention to her. She wanted to go back to the old house at Cloud City, yet it was not that simple. Once, Old Madam Qin gave her some osmanthus cake, and she thought about how Nanny Ming liked to eat it in the past and sent someone to deliver it to her.

The one who was given this task was Mo Lan. She was afraid of being caught by the Yu family, who would then use this or that reason to make their lives difficult, so she deliberately hid it in her inner-wear. When she arrived at the old house in Mo Manor, she had scalded her body. Even so, she could still take out the cake with a smile on her face and gave it to Nanny Ming.

It was as if that scene was right before her eyes now. That relations.h.i.+p was formed based on absolute trust. Yet today, it caused Mo Xuetong to feel the sorrow and coldness of being betrayed. That feeling of being betrayed by your family caused the few of them to feel a sinking desolation in their hearts.

Thinking of all these, Nanny Ming cried so much that even her nose was running. She pushed away Mo Lan’s hands and stretched out her trembling hand to tug on Mo Xuetong’s draping clothe. “Miss, it’s not that I don’t know better, nor is it because I don’t dote on you, but Madam gave me an order. She said that if you do not know, then I shouldn’t let you into this dirty mess. I need to ensure that you can live this life safely and peacefully.”

It was as if Madam’s hopeful gaze was right before her eyes. She was thinking about it. Nanny Ming’s heart ached so much that she could not suppress it!

To keep her safe throughout this life. The tears that were hiding at the bottom of Mo Xuetong’s eyes could not stay still anymore. In her previous life, she indeed knew nothing. She seemed to have been protected well, yet she ended up dying in her husband’s hands, the one closest to her. She was also lied to by her ‘good’ elder sister, whom she trusted the most. A bowl of poison medicine seemed to be not enough. There were also burning flames. She died a torturous death.

When the poison eroded her organs, when the flames tore her skin, it only left her with a hatred so profound as if it came from h.e.l.l. The hatred burned…Starting this life, to not repeat the same mistakes, each step she took was painful. She wanted to take revenge for herself and her Mother, yet eventually, she realized that she had personally brought all these troubles upon herself…

Peace throughout this life, this was the peace her Mother wanted to give her!

The tears that contained an inexplicable sorrow and fell onto the satin quilt in front of her. Her heart was in tremendous pain as if she could not breathe. She thought that after her meticulous planning, she would not have to suffer a betrayal again in this life. But in the end, she still could not escape from this circle. She had never thought that her mother had been lying to her all these while. Her previous life had been lied to by ‘peace’!”

“How did Mother die?” Mo Xuetong suppressed her whimper at her throat. Her throat was sore and she seemed to be unable to breathe through it. Yet she still expressed her idea clearly. In her previous lifetime, she had died for an unclear reason. In this lifetime, she hoped that even if she were to die, she must know the reason why. She really did not want those superficial ‘peace’.

“Madam was really poisoned by Auntie Fang. That poison had no antidote.” Seeing Mo Xuetong lower her heard and cry, Nanny Ming’s heart pained even more. She took out a letter from her embrace and pa.s.sed it to her. She said between tears, “Madam said that if one day Miss was to notice something, I must pa.s.s this letter to you. Otherwise, I will have t destroy it.”

No antidote? Mo Xuetong bit onto her lower lip, hiding the fragility in the bottom of her eyes. She felt as if a burning flame and wrenching pain were co-existing in her heart. It was scorching her so severely that it felt like it was going to burst. That kind of hatred, that kind of deep-rooted hatred of two lifetimes existed in this life. That innocent and cute Mo Xuetong had died a long time ago, leaving behind a soul full of hate, extreme sorrow, and anger…

“Why didn’t you look for a doctor?” She heard her loud voice. It sounded coa.r.s.e and piercing, like sand that was burnt by fire.

“That poison had no cure. When Madam found out, there was not much time left. She was afraid of troubling you and old sir, so she deliberately made me not tell him. She did not wish for riches, but only wished that Miss will grow up safe and sound. But Madam did not expect Auntie Fang’s poison to be strong malicious. Before she could make arrangements for everything, she pa.s.sed suddenly.”