Part 19 (1/2)
As she spoke, she led him into the other room.
”There,” she proceeded, ”there is our dearest and our best--food--oh, I am hungry, too; but I don't care for that--sure the mother's love is stronger than hunger or want either: but there she is, that was wanst our pride and our delight, an' what is she now? She needn't cry now, the poor heartbroken child; she needn't cry now; all her sorrow, and all her shame, and all her sin is over. She'll hang her head no more, nor her pale cheek won't get crimson at the sight of any one that knew her before her fall; but for all her sin in that one act, did her heart ever fail to you or me? Was there ever such love an' care, an' respect, as she paid us? an' we wouldn't tell her that we forgave her; we wor too hardhearted for that, an' too wicked to say that one word that she longed for so much--oh an' she our only one--but now--daughter of our hearts--now we forgive you when it's too late--for, Brian, there they are! there they lie in their last sleep--the sleep that they will never waken from! an' it's well for them, for they'll waken no more to care an' throuble, and shame! There they lie! see how quiet an' calm they both lie there, the poor broken branch, an' the little withered flower!”
The old man's search for food in the kitchen had given to the neighbors the first intimation of their actual distress, and in a few minutes it was discovered that there was not a mouthful of anything in the house, nor had they tasted a single morsel since the morning before, when they took a little gruel which their daughter made for them. In a moment, with all possible speed, the poor creatures about them either went or sent for sustenance, and in many a case, almost the last morsel was shared with them, and brought, though scanty and humble, to their immediate a.s.sistance. In this respect there is not in the world any people so generous and kind to their fellow-creatures as the Irish, or whose sympathies are so deep and tender, especially in periods of sickness, want, or death. It is not the tear alone they are willing to bestow--oh no--whatever can be done, whatever aid can be given, whatever kindness rendered, or consolation offered, even to the last poor s.h.i.+lling, or, ”the very bit out of the mouth,” as they say themselves, will be given with a good will, and a sincerity that might in vain be looked for elsewhere. But alas! they know what it is to want this consolation and a.s.sistance themselves, and hence their prompt.i.tude and anxiety to render them to others. The old man, touched a little by the affecting language of his wife, began to lose the dull stony look we have described, and his eyes turned upon those who were about him with something like meaning, although at that moment it could scarcely be called so.
”Am I dhramin'?” he asked. ”Is this a dhrame? What brings the people all about us? Where's Alick from us--an' stay--where's her that I loved best, in spite of her folly? Where's Peggy from me--there's something wrong wid me--and yet she's not here to take care o' me?”
”Brian, dear,” said a poor famished-looking woman approaching him, ”she's in a betther place, poor thing.”
”Go long out o' that,” he replied, ”and don't put your hands on me. It's Peggy's hands I want to have about me, an' her voice. Where's Peggy's voice, I say? 'Father, forgive me,' she said, 'forgive me, father, or I'll never be happy more;' but I wouldn't forgive her, although my heart did at the same time; still I didn't say the word: bring her here,” he added, ”tell her I'm ready now to forgive her all; for she, it's she that was the forgivin' creature herself; tell her I'm ready now to forgive her all, an' to give her my blessin' wanst more.”
It was utterly impossible to hear this language from the stunned and heart-broken father, and to contemplate the fair and lifeless form of the unhappy young creature as she lay stretched before him in the peaceful stillness of death, without being moved even to tears. There were, indeed, few dry eyes in the house as he spoke.
”Oh, Brian dear,” said her weeping mother, ”we helped ourselves to break her heart, as well as the rest. We wouldn't forgive her; we wouldn't say the word, although her heart was breakin' bekaise we did not. Oh, Peggy,” she commenced in Irish, ”oh, our daughter--girl of the one fault! the kind, the affectionate, and the dutiful child, to what corner of the world will your father an' myself turn now that you're gone from us? You asked us often an' often to forgive you, an' we would not.
You said you were sorry, in the sight of G.o.d an' of man, for your fault--that your heart was sore, an' that you felt our forgiveness would bring you consolation; but we would not. Ould man,” she exclaimed abruptly, turning to her husband, ”why didn't you forgive our only daughter? Why, I say, didn't you forgive her her one fault--you wicked ould man, why didn't you forgive her?”
”Oh, Kathleen, I'll die,” he replied, mournfully, ”I'll die if I don't get something to ait. Is there no food? Didn't Peggy go to thry Darby Skinadre, an' she hoped, she said, that she'd bring us relief; an' so she went upon our promise to forgive her when she'd come back wid it.”
”I wish, indeed, I had a drop o' gruel or something myself,” replied his wife, now reminded of her famished state by his words.
At this moment, however, relief, so far as food was concerned, did come. The compa.s.sionate neighbors began, one by one, to return each with whatever could be spared from their own necessities, so that in the course of a little time this desolate old couple were supplied with provisions sufficient to meet the demands of a week or fortnight.
It is not our intention to describe, or rather to attempt to describe, the sorrow of Brian Murtagh and his wife, as soon as a moderate meal of food had awakened them, as it were, from the heavy and stupid frenzy into which the shock of their unhappy daughter's death, joined to the pangs of famine, had thrown them. It may be sufficient to say, that their grief was wild, disconsolate, and hopeless. She was the only daughter they had ever had: and when they looked back upon the gentle and unfortunate girl's many virtues, and reflected that they had, up to her death, despite her earnest entreaties, withheld from her their pardon for her transgression, they felt, mingled with their affliction at her loss, such an oppressive agony of remorse as no language could describe.
Many of the neighbors now proposed the performance of a ceremony, which is frequently deemed necessary in cases of frailty similar to that of poor Peggy Murtagh:--a ceremony which, in the instance before us, was one of equal pathos and beauty. It consisted of a number of these humble, but pious and well-disposed people joining in what is termed the Litany of the Blessed Virgin, which was an earnest solicitation of mercy, through her intercession with her Son, for the errors, frailties, and sins of the departed; and, indeed, when her youth and beauty, and her artlessness and freedom from guile, were taken into consideration, in connection with her unexpected death, it must be admitted that this act of devotion was as affecting as it was mournful and solemn. When they came to the words, ”Mother most pure, Mother most chaste, Mother undefiled, Mother most loving, pray for her!”--and again to those, ”Morning Star, Health of the Weak, Refuge of Sinners, Comfortress of the Afflicted, pray for her!”--their voices faltered, became broken, and, with scarcely a single exception, they melted into tears. And it was a beautiful thing to witness these miserable and half-famished creatures, shrunk and pinched with hunger and want, laboring, many of them, with incipient illness, and several only just recovered from it, forgetting their own distress and afflictions, and rendering all the aid and consolation in their power to those who stood in more need of it than themselves. When these affecting prayers for the dead had been concluded, a noise was heard at the door, and a voice which in a moment hushed them into silence and awe. The voice was that of him whom the departed girl had loved with such fatal tenderness.
”In the name of G.o.d,” exclaimed one of them, ”let some of you keep that unfortunate boy out; the sight of him will kill the ould couple.” The woman who spoke, however, had hardly concluded, when Thomas Dalton entered the room, panting, pale, tottering through weakness, and almost frantic with sorrow and remorse. On looking at the unhappy sight before him, he paused and wiped his brow, which was moistened by excitement and over-exertion.
There was now the silence of death in the room so deep, that the shooting of a spark from one of the death-candles was heard by every one present, an incident which, small as it was, deepened the melancholy interest of the moment.
”An' that's it,” he at last exclaimed, in a voice which, though weak, quivered with excess of agony--”that's it, Peggy dear--that's what your love for me has brought you to! An' now it's too late, I can't help you now, Peggy dear. I can't bid you hould your, modest face up, as the darlin' wife of him who loved you betther than all this world besides, but that left you, for all that a stained name an' a broken heart! Ay!
an' there's what your love for me brought you to! What can I do now for you, Peggy dear? All my little plans for us both--all that I dreamt of an' hoped to come to pa.s.s, where are they now, Peggy dear? And it wasn't I, Peggy, it was poverty--oh you know how I loved you!--it was the downcome we got--it was d.i.c.k-o'-the-Grange, that oppressed us--that ruined us--that put us out without house or home--it was he, and it was my father--my father that they say has blood on his hand, an' I don't doubt it, or he wouldn't act the part he did--it was he, too that prevented me from doin' what my heart encouraged me to do for you! O blessed G.o.d,” he exclaimed, ”what will become of me! when I think of the long, sorrowful, implorin' look she used to give me. I'll go mad!--I'll go mad!--I've killed her--I've murdhered her, an' there's no one to take me up an' punish me for it! An' when I was ill, Peggy dear, when I had time to think on my sick bed of all your love and all your sorrow and distress and shame on my account, I thought I'd never see you in time to tell you what I was to do, an' to give consolation to your breakin'
heart; but all that's now over; you are gone from me, an' like the lovin' crathur you ever wor, you brought your baby along wid you! An'
when I think of it--oh G.o.d, when I think of it, before your shame, my heart's delight, how your eye felt proud out of me, an' how it smiled when it rested on me. Oh, little you thought I'd hould back to do you justice--me that you doted on--an' yet it was I that sullied you--I! me!
Here,” he shouted--”here, is there no one to saize a murdherer!--no one to bring him to justice!”
Those present now gathered about him, and attempted as best they might, to soothe and pacify him; but in vain.
”Oh,” he proceeded, ”if she was only able to upbraid me--but what am I sayin'--upbraid! Oh, never, never was her harsh word heard--oh, nothing ever to me but that long look of sorrow--that long look of sorrow, that will either drive me mad, or lave me a broken heart! That's the look that'll always, always be before me, an' that, 'till death's day, will keep me from ever bein' a happy man.”
He now became exhausted, and received a drink of water, after which he wildly kissed her lips, and bathed her inanimate face, as well as those of their infant, with tears.
”Now,” said he, at length; ”now, Peggy dear, listen--so may G.o.d never prosper me, if I don't work bitther vengeance on them that along wid myself, was the means of bringin' you to this--d.i.c.k-o'-the-Grange, an'
Darby Skinadre, for if Darby had given you what you wanted, you might be yet a livin' woman. As for myself, I care not what becomes of me; you are gone, our child is gone, and now I have nothing in this world that I'll ever care for; there's nothing in it that I'll ever love again.”