Part 56 (2/2)
Malaq staring up at him, apparently unperturbed to find him standing on a bench in his garden. Delivering his lecture on breeding wildcats in the dry tone he always used during those first days. It was only later that either of them risked speaking from the heart.
”It was the fur,” he said wearily. ”Or the body. I forget. Soft body. Sharp claws. Like the lady.” The Khonsel just stared at him. Had he spoken the tribal tongue? ”Soft body,” he repeated. ”And-”
”Sharp claws. I heard.” Both the Khonsel's expression and voice were noncommittal. ”And did Malaq tell you about Davell, too?”
Keirith closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall. ”No.”
”You've never heard the name?”
”No!”
”Or the name of Malaq's wife?”
”Priests cannot marry.”
”Before that. When he fought with me. She was one of the Tree People.”
Keirith opened his eyes. Perhaps the Khonsel thought he would be shocked by the revelation, but he was beyond shock. Malaq had loved a woman of the tribes. It explained his facility with the language, his knowledge of the legends, his eagerness to find similarities between their peoples. She must have died. Malaq would never have left her. His wife died, and Malaq became a priest. It all made sense now.
”Malaq had a wife,” he murmured to himself.
”And a son.”
He was not beyond shock after all. ”Malaq has a son?”
”Had. Davell is dead.”
A strange undertone of excitement lurked in the Khonsel's voice. Keirith waited for him to continue, but the man just watched him.
”How did he die?”
It must have been the question the Khonsel desired. At any rate, he smiled. ”He was killed in battle. When he was fourteen.”
His age. Davell had been his age when he died.
”I thought it would kill Malaq, losing him so young.”
Keirith saw again the terrible grief that had contorted his father's face at the temple of Zhe and tried to imagine such emotion twisting Malaq's smooth features.
”He was tall for his age. Stubborn like Malaq. They b.u.t.ted heads more than once.”
His mam's voice, scolding, ”Broody like your father. And stubborn as a rock.”
”Had his mother's coloring, though. The dark blue eyes.”
The same color as his.
”And the hair, of course.”
The words hung there until Keirith forced himself to ask, ”The hair?”
”Auburn.” The Khonsel's smile widened. ”A deep, rich auburn.”
The same age. The same eyes. The same hair.
It wasn't him. It had never been him. From the first moment, Malaq had only seen the son he had lost.
He wasn't aware the Khonsel had stepped back until he felt himself sliding down the wall. He pulled his knees up to his chest. His father had warned him that Malaq was using him; he'd believed it himself during the early days of his captivity. He'd tried so hard to push Malaq away, to keep him at a distance. But Malaq wouldn't let him go. And in the face of that persistence-and his own desperate need to trust someone-he had let down his guard. That had been his mistake, allowing himself to feel genuine affection for the man and deceiving himself into believing that the affection was returned.
Malaq laughing with him in the excitement of sharing knowledge and power. Malaq spooning broth into his mouth, scolding him for making a mess. Malaq holding him in his arms while he crouched on the floor, gentle fingers stroking his hair, gentle voice a.s.suring him that he had done the right thing by sending his father away.
Nay, that was real. Malaq had held him, him, comforted comforted him, him, not some replica of his son. not some replica of his son.
”I don't care.”
”What?”
His head jerked up. He blinked furiously to clear his vision. ”I said . . .” He cursed and switched to Zherosi. ”It does not matter. Malaq is dead. I never . . .” d.a.m.n his voice for breaking. ”I do not care about him. Not now, not ever. Do you hear me?”
”If you don't lower your voice, the whole palace will hear you.”
He launched himself at the man, hating him for his mockery, his satisfaction, his supreme self-possession. The Khonsel caught him easily and held him as he struggled. And when he finally stopped struggling, the Khonsel sat him down on the sleeping shelf and watched with that same satisfied expression as he wiped his face with the back of his hand.
”Are you through?”
”Yes.”
”Good. Geriv!”
Geriv was there in a moment; he must have heard everything.
”Bring us some food. And wine. And while we're waiting, boy, you tell me everything you remember from the moment you started herding the adders to the temple.”
”Leave me alone.” Then the words sank in. He raised his head to find the Khonsel waiting patiently for understanding to dawn. ”You believe me? But why?” He could feel his face growing warm. ”Because I acted like a fool. About Malaq's son.”
”Mostly. The bit about Niqia helped, too.” The Khonsel leaned back against the wall and folded his arms across his chest. ”There were other things, of course. You expected to find hair on your head. You were concerned about your father. And you still gnaw your thumb when you're nervous.”
”You knew who I was? When you came in?”
”Sit down. I questioned your father. After he calmed down. A strong man, your father. Took four men to pull him off the Zheron. Off you. Cursing and shouting and calling me a fool for not listening. The girl-what's her name?”
”Hircha,” he murmured.
”She translated. And filled in a few of the missing pieces. But they couldn't know who'd won the battle any more than I did when I came in. Xevhan was clever enough to pretend to be you. But even he couldn't muster tears for Malaq.”
Unable to face the penetrating stare, Keirith fastened his gaze on the floor. The wilted sprays of bitterheart were the color of dried blood. He closed his eyes and saw Malaq offering him the scarlet blossoms. A gift of flowers to celebrate the Ripening. A gift he must have given his wife and his son when they celebrated the festival with him.
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