Part 10 (1/2)
Laura took one and nibbled.
Penelope watched closely, cutting the warmth of the moment with a little discomfort. ”I was on the volleyball team at East Cherokee High when there were so few girls' volleyball teams. I was a freshman on varsity. Very impressive. I had a spike, which was unheard of on the girls' team.” She rooted around in her slip of a bag and came up with a little vial with an eyedropper.
”I tried out for volleyball at Dalton. I was too short.”
”Ah, Dalton. That explains the erudition of your line.”
Laura's cheeks tingled, and she wished she could ice them down.
Penelope squeezed some liquid into her tea. ”Vitamin D concentrate. Would you like some?”
”No, thank you.”
Penelope dropped the bottle back in her bag. ”My mom made me an extra jelly sandwich on practice days. We were good. Very good. We went to the regional champions.h.i.+p in Chicago. My dad drove me up there in my uncle's pickup. He complained about closing the store and the cost of the gas the whole way.” Penelope sipped her tea, as if for effect, smiling a little.
”Did you win?” Laura asked.
”I don't remember. It didn't really matter. There was a scout there named Dianne Gorbent. Not a volleyball scout or a college scout. Oh, no. A scout for tall girls. And where better to find thin, tall white girls than a volleyball tournament? No one ever underestimated Dianne and lived to tell about it. She approached my father after the game, telling him about all the money a girl like me could make in New York. Of course, we were relatively... well, I want to say, we lived in the back of my father's drugstore. And imagine, my mother wouldn't have to make any extra jelly sandwiches. My father said he would miss me on the ride home. Who would listen about the evils of OPEC if I wasn't there? He wasn't the crying kind. But you could tell he was proud I was making something off my looks. Before I left, and got on a plane, of all things, he said he expected the next time I came home, I'd be with a man of my own. His words were, 'Someone richer than your old man.' This being the scope of what a woman could achieve in Kentucky in the 1970s.
”I got to New York with a duffel bag full of gym shorts and sports bras, and Dianne took me shopping.” She sighed. ”Those days. It was like a dream. Like a movie. I lived in a guest apartment off Central Park. She fed me like I have never been fed before. Three hot meals a day. If I could, for one minute, recapture the feeling of constant grat.i.tude and happiness I felt for that first week. Over the simplest things, too. I didn't have any ch.o.r.es. I didn't have to take care of my brothers or sweep the store. She took me to Donna Carnegie's party on Fifth Avenue, with some of the most sophisticated people I have ever seen. Are you sure you're not related? I see a little resemblance.”
”I never looked into it.”
”You should. Anyway. I hadn't even gone on a call, and I knew I had found my purpose, at fifteen years old. Those were the best weeks of my life. Dianne let me call home, which was very expensive at the time, and I told my parents not to worry, everything was great. My sister said everyone at school was simply green with envy.”
In the twenty minutes Laura had been there, the sun had crested its apex and started down toward the horizon line, lengthening shadows and warming the world with yellowish light. She wondered if Ruby had ever made it to the showroom, if Rowena had looked haggard for her other jobs, and if Chase had sent his selects. She didn't really want to hear the rest of Penelope's story. There was nowhere to go but downhill.
”Ms. Sidewinder, I-”
”I went on my first shoot on a Monday, absolutely high from the weekend. I came out, as it were, and Dianne said she was already getting bookings. She couldn't make that shoot, and she said it was simply to have some photos to show. His name was Franco. He was relatively well known, she said, and she didn't have to go with me. I never knew if she knew what he would do. But that doesn't matter now.”
”I think I get it.” Laura didn't want to hear another word.
”It was in this studio downtown, before downtown was what it is today. I can't tell you how many rats I stepped over. But I thought, 'Ah, this is the high and the low. I'll see everything and do everything,' and it added to my happiness. Well. He couldn't have been more average. Short and scruffy. I did my makeup and went into the lights. And he adjusts the camera, takes a few shots, and tells me I look great. And I believe him. And then, looking through the camera lens, he says, 'Have you ever sucked a man's lollipop before?'”
Laura almost choked on her cookie.
”Exactly,” Penelope said. ”When I reacted, he snapped a picture, and then he said, 'You realize, before you leave here today, you're going to suck my lollipop.' And he's click-clicking pictures, and I think I must have misheard him, but he says, 'You like sucking lollipops,' and I say, 'No, thank you.' But he ignores me. And he's saying the filthiest things I won't even repeat. And right before I start crying, he takes the last picture and says, 'What am I telling Dianne when you leave?'” She sipped her tea and placed the cup on the table. ”Laura, I knew I was going to have to do it.”
”No.”
”What was I supposed to do? How was I supposed to go home to Kentucky? With what in my bag? Shame? Failure? And what would I do? Play volleyball for varsity, marry some man from my cla.s.s, and have children? No. I wasn't from there anymore. I'd changed in that week. Not enough to have a friend to turn to and certainly not enough to refuse him. All I had to do was get through it.”
”I'm so sorry.”
”When I got back to the apartment, I was going to tell Dianne, at least to ask her if this was normal. But as soon as I got in, she sat me down and said she didn't realize how little I'd eaten at home. The rich food of the past week had gone straight to my gut, and I was going to have to cut down. After she told me that, I couldn't tell her what I'd done. What if it was the wrong thing? What use was I then? I would be a wh.o.r.e, and a fat one at that. On the bus back to the Midwest with nothing to show for it. I started making sure I ate well at dinner parties and puked thoroughly afterward.”
Laura felt a little sick, and it must have shown because Penelope, who had already been warm and inviting, softened even further. ”Plenty of women have gone through worse, and plenty of models, I daresay. I came from the Midwest; some of them come from countries I wouldn't even want to talk about. No citizens.h.i.+p and no one to protect them. No birth certificate with their legal age. Their pa.s.sports are fake. It's terrible. We can't even track half of them down. Which is why it's so important for designers to be on board.”
Laura had walked into the meeting ready to talk about Dymphna's pre-adolescent cheeks and p.u.b.escent att.i.tude. She was going to say she had a funny feeling about that girl, but after hearing Penelope's story, she decided to say something else entirely. ”Rowena Churchill. I was at a shoot with her this morning, and... G.o.d, I'm realizing there's no way I can prove this. She couldn't walk in the heels. She seemed so young. She was looking at Chase like he was a celebrity.”
Penelope leaned forward like a reporter getting the big scoop. ”She's from northern California, I believe. Sequoia country. Did she say anything, maybe about school?”
”She said she never took geometry.”
Penelope's eyes looked far away, as if she were gazing inside herself. ”Tenth grade. In my era, that was tenth grade.”
”How old is that?”
Penelope just said, ”Roquelle can be careless.”
Laura was about to answer in the affirmative when she heard a gasp behind her. Then a swallowed giggle and she had to turn. Rolf stood there with a girl in an equestrian-printed pink georgette scarf. When he recognized her, he raised his eyebrows. Laura recognized the clothing. He wore a brown leather jacket. They were the two who had almost knocked her over on the way to the stairs.
”Laura Carnegie.” Rolf nodded at her. His breath was so unnaturally minty fresh, even from a more-than-adequate distance, that Laura flinched a little.
The pink georgette girl with the meatball-sized brown eyes turned to Penelope. ”I am such a fan of yours.” Her Euro-accent was so thick, she was hard to understand.
”Frau Sidewinder,” Rolf said, using the German formal, which Penelope seemed to appreciate and understand. Apparently, they knew each other, like typical rich people, traveling in circles. ”This young lady eats, sleeps, and breathes modeling. Her name is-”
”How nice,” Penelope said. She looked at the girl, but again did the thing where she was actually looking deeply inside herself. It was disconcerting. ”I haven't modeled since you were about four years old.”
Laura changed the subject to something she considered safe. ”Did you get your sister's bag from the cops?”
”They won't release it.”
”You just have to wait.”
”These American cops-”
She had no idea what he was going to say, but was sure she didn't want to hear it, so she interrupted with, ”I'm sure in Germany they're p.u.s.s.ycats.”
Penelope snapped out of her middle-distance reverie and patted the seat next to her. ”Sit here, young lady, and let's talk about modeling.”
”Maybe next time,” Rolf said. ”We were just leaving.”
But the girl with the meatball eyes squirmed out of his arms and sat next to Penelope with childlike delight.
Rolf took the seat next to Laura. ”Your sister is all over the news. They think she did Thomasina in. I want to tell you, I don't think it's true.”
She didn't want to give him one word he could use against either of them. She suddenly felt she was in the wrong place, at the wrong time, with people who wanted to hurt her.
”I have to go,” Laura said. ”It was nice talking to you.” She shook Penelope's hand and nodded to Rolf and Meatball Eyes.
As she was leaving, Penelope called out, ”To be continued.”
Roquelle is careless.