Chapter 143 (1/2)

”I said, I will never try to be brave again!”

Although, the original intention of her words is not so.

But anyway, it's still Luo Yifan's birthday. Some words should be kept for later.

”I must have drunk too much. I feel dizzy. I'll sleep for a while...”

Afraid of Luo Yifan to say anything more, Yue Tong simply leans her head on the back of the chair, closes her eyes and pretends to be drunk.

Luo Yifan took a deep look at her, sighed in his heart, and drove the car away from his parking lot.

Along the way, Letong didn't sleep. In her mind, Luo Yifan's behavior today and the helpless look just now are constantly surging up.

Luo Yifan should be a very patient person. In nearly six years, from her 18 years old to her nearly 24 years old, he has never done or said anything beyond the boundary.

Long ago, she thought that he had already given up.

But it turns out that he is not dead hearted, just waiting for a suitable time.

She didn't know how he would have picked out his feelings for her without Zhang Yi. However, judging from his performance today, he should not be able to hide for long.

”Tong Tong, I like you!”

Just when Letong closes her eyes and pretends to sleep, but her heart swings, suddenly comes Luo Yifan's voice.

The low magnetic sound, set off by the whine of the car engine, seems a little ethereal, some unreal.

Letong hesitates, whether to open her eyes or not, continue to pretend to be drunk and sleep.

But I heard Luo Yifan say, ”I know you're not drunk, but you'd better keep your eyes closed and listen quietly, so as not to embarrass us. I should have said that I like you, but I haven't said it all the time. It's not because my feelings are not deep enough, but just the opposite... ”

Luo Yi fandun for a moment, seems to be organizing the language.

Letong obediently closed her eyes, because, as Luo Yifan said, at this time let her open her eyes, she really don't know what eyes to look at him, also don't know what words to respond to him.

”When I met you, you were only 18 years old. I was 22 years old. You had the innocence of an 18-year-old girl, but you had the delicate sensibility and steadiness that yuan'er didn't have. Maybe it was because you and yuan'er, whom I knew most, were two completely different people. The qualities that attracted yuan'er in you also attracted me deeply. I believe you already knew what I thought of you at that time. Just when I wanted to express myself to you, you suddenly disappeared. Even yuan'er didn't know where you went. Later, I learned from Professor Liu that your mother was ill and you had to leave school to take care of her. ”

These past events, Letong has been reluctant to think about, although, only five or six years ago, but in Letong's view, it seems like a world away.

Once upon a time, when she thought of the day when she would never see the dawn, people would fall into inexplicable anxiety, loss and great fear, struggling in the thought of self loathing and spitting.

Even now, she still can't get away from the huge net, and recently, the feeling that makes her suffocate is stronger and more frequent than before.

She knew that in this life, she would live with this pain, but she deserved it!

”Your mother's illness must have made you suffer a lot. After you come back, your whole life has changed.”

Luo Yifan's words are floating in her ears, but Letong's heart seems to be hollowed out by those past moments she doesn't want to recall.

She knew that she should not blame herself. Under the circumstances, she had no choice.

But she couldn't help blaming herself.

Especially recently, too much touching has made her strongly repressed self reproach. The seedling of self reproach has grown into a towering tree as if it had been fertilized and seen the sunshine. It is pressing on her heart and she is about to suffocate.

”Yifan...”

Letong suddenly opens her eyes and looks at Luo Yifan, who seems to be concentrating on driving, but in fact is also in pain.

”Huh?”