Part 20 (1/2)
Miss Balfour gently flicked her divided skirt with a riding-whip, considering whether she might be said to know him well. ”Yes, I think I do,” she ventured.
”Mrs. Mott says you and he are great friends, that you seem very fond of each other.”
”Goodness me! I hope I don't seem fond of him. I don't think 'fond' is exactly the word, anyway, though we are good friends.” Quickly, keenly, her covert glance swept Aline; then, withdrawing her eyes, she flung her little bomb. ”I suppose we may be said to appreciate each other. At any rate, we are engaged.”
Mrs. Harley's pony came to an abrupt halt. ”I thought I had dropped my whip,” she explained, in a low voice not quite true.
Virginia, though she executed an elaborate survey of the scenery, could not help noticing that the color had washed from her friend's face. ”I love this Western country--its big sweep of plains, of low, rolling hills, with a background of mountains. One can see how it gets into a man's blood so that the East seems insipid ever afterward,” discoursed Miss Balfour.
A question trembled on Aline's blanched lips.
”Say it,” permitted Virginia.
”Do you mean that you are engaged to him--that you are going to marry Mr. Ridgway--without caring for him?”
”I don't mean that at all. I like him immensely.”
”But--do you love him?” It was almost a cry--these low words wrung from the tortured heart.
”No fair,” warned her friend smilingly.
Aline rode in silence, her stricken face full of trouble. How could she, from her gla.s.s house, throw stones at a loveless marriage? But this was different from her own case! n.o.body was worthy to marry her hero without giving the best a woman had to give. If she were a girl--a sudden tide of color swept her face; a wild, delirious tingle of joy flooded her veins--oh, if she were a girl, what a wealth of love could she give him! Clarity of vision had come to her in a blinding flash.
Untutored of life, the knowledge of its meaning had struck home of the suddenest. She knew her heart now that it was too late; knew that she could never be indifferent to what concerned Waring Ridgway.
Aline caught at the courage behind her childishness, and accomplished her congratulations ”You will be happy, I am sure. He is good.”
”Goodness does not impress me as his most outstanding quality,” smiled Miss Balfour.
”No, one never feels it emphasized. He is too free of selfishness to make much of his goodness. But one can't help feeling it in everything he does and says.”
”Does Mr. Harley agree with you? Does he feel it?”
”I don't think Mr. Harley understands him. I can't help thinking that he is prejudiced.” She was becoming mistress of her voice and color again.
”And you are not?”
”Perhaps I am. In my thought of him he would still be good, even if he had done all the bad things his enemies accuse him of.”
Virginia gave her up. This idealized interpretation of her betrothed was not the one she had, but for Aline it might be the true one. At least, she could not disparage him very consistently under the circ.u.mstances.
”Isn't there a philosophy current that we find in people what we look for in them? Perhaps that is why you and Mr. Harley read in Mr. Ridgway men so diverse as you do. It is not impossible you are both right and both wrong. Heaven knows, I suppose. At least, we poor mortals fog around enough when we sit in judgment.” And Virginia shrugged the matter from her careless shoulders.
But Aline seemed to have a difficulty in getting away from the subject.
”And you--what do you read?” she asked timidly.
”Sometimes one thing and sometimes another. To-day I see him as a living refutation of all the copy-book rules to success. He shatters the maxims with a touch-and-go manner that is fascinating in its immorality. A gambler, a plunger, an adventurer, he wins when a careful, honest business man would fail to a certainty.”
Aline was amazed. ”You misjudge him. I am sure you do. But if you think this of him why--”
”Why do I marry him? I have asked myself that a hundred times, my dear.