Part 52 (1/2)

”She'll go away again, and I shall have said nothing,” he thought. ”It can't never be, for she's too young and nice for me.” And then, as is often the case, the opportunity came, and, to his own astonishment, William Forth Burge said, simply and honestly, all that was in his heart leaving him wondering, in spite of his pain, that he had spoken so truthfully and well.

”You have always been so kind, Mr Burge,” began Hazel, ”that I shrink from letting you think I impose upon your good nature; but one of my girls is down with a very serious illness, and I have come to ask you to help her poor mother in her time of trial.”

”Help her? Why, of course,” he cried, leaving his chair and crossing to take Hazel's hands. ”Is there anything I wouldn't do if you asked me, Miss Thorne? My dear, don't think I'm purse-proud--because I tell you I'm a rich man; for I only say it so as you may know there's plenty to do good with; and if you'll come to me, my dear, and let it be yours or ours, or whatever you like to call it--there it is. You shall do as you like, and I'll try, and I know Betsey will, to make you as happy as we can.”

”Mr Burge!” cried Hazel piteously as she rose to her feet.

”Just a minute,” he pleaded. ”It isn't nothing new. It's been growing ever since you come down here. Don't be offended with me. I know I'm twice as old as you, and more, and I'm very ordinary; but that don't keep me from loving you very, very dear.”

”Don't--pray don't say any more, Mr Burge,” cried Hazel appealingly.

”I--I cannot bear it.”

”No, no; don't go yet, my dear,” he cried. ”If you only knew what a job it has been to work myself up to say this, you wouldn't be so hard as to stop me.”

”Hard! Pray don't call it hard, Mr Burge. I grieve to stop you, for you have been so truly kind to me ever since I came.”

”Well, that isn't saying much; my dear. Betsey and me was kind--I say that ain't right, is it? I know now--Betsey and I was kind because we always liked you, and I thought it would be so nice if some day or other you could think me good enough to be your husband.”

”Dear Mr Burge, you cut me to the heart, for I seem as if I were so ungrateful to you after all that you have done.”

”Oh, no!” he said quickly; ”you're not ungrateful. You're too pretty and good to do anything unkind.”

”Mr Burge!”

”You see, it is like this, my dear. I'm not much of a fellow; I never was.”

”You have been the truest and kindest of friends, Mr Burge; and I esteem you very much.”

”No! Do you, though?” he cried, brightening up and smiling. ”Well, that does me good. I like to hear you say that, because I know you wouldn't say anything that was not true.”

”Indeed, I would not Mr Burge,” said Hazel, laying her hand upon his arm; and he took it quietly, and held it between both of his.

”All the same, though,” he went on dolefully, ”I am not much of a fellow, though I've been a very lucky one. I never used to think anything about the gals--the ladies, and they never took no notice of me, and I went on making money quite fast. I used to think of how prime it would be to have a grand house and gardeners down here at Plumton, and how Betsey would enjoy it; and then what a happy time I should have; but somehow it hasn't turned out so well as I thought it would. You see, I've been a butcher--not a killing butcher, you know, but a selling butcher; and though the gentry's very kind and patronising, and make speeches and no end of fuss about everything I do or say, I know all the time that they think I'm a tradesman, and always will be, no matter how rich I am.”

”But I'm sure people esteem you very much, Mr Burge.”

”No,” he said, shaking his head sadly, ”they don't. It's the money they think of. You esteem me, my dear, because you've just told me so, and nothing but the truth never came out of those pretty little lips. They don't think much of me. Why should they, seeing what a common-looking sort of fellow I am? No: don't shake your head, because you know it as well as I do. I ain't a gentleman, and if I'd twenty million times as much money it wouldn't make a gentleman of me.”

”And I say you are a gentleman, Mr Burge--a true, honest, nature's gentleman, such as no birth, position, or appearance could make.”

”No, no, no, my dear,” he said sadly; ”I'm only a common man, who has been lucky and grown rich--that's all.”

”I say that you are a true gentleman, Mr Burge,” she cried again, ”and that you are showing it by your tender respect and consideration for a poor, helpless, friendless girl.”

”No: that you ain't, my dear,” he cried with spirit; ”not friendless; for as long as G.o.d lets William Forth Burge breathe on this earth, with money or without money, you've got a friend as'll never forsake you, or say an unkind--lor', just as if one could say an unkind word to you; I couldn't even give you an unkind look. Why, I don't, even now, when what you've said has cut me to the heart.”

”I couldn't--I couldn't help it, Mr Burge,” she cried.

”I suppose you couldn't, my dear; but if you could have said _yes_ to me, and been my little wife--it isn't money as I care to talk about to you--but the way in which I'd reglar downright wors.h.i.+p you, and care for them as belongs to you, and the way in which you should do everything you liked, and have what you liked--There, I get lost with trying to think about it,” he said dolefully, ”and I go all awkward over my grammar, as you, being a schoolmistress, must see, and make myself worse and worse in your eyes, and ten times more common than ever.”