Part 20 (1/2)
”Oh, right,” she scoffed, hoping he wouldn't notice the hoa.r.s.e note to her voice. ”And you're Safety Sam.”
He shrugged. ”More so than Gage, anyway. He was the one always issuing challenges.”
She glanced over, surprised and a little gratified. It looked as if he might actually open up. ”Challenges like what?”
”When we were young it was typical kid stuff. Who could hold a handstand the longest. Which one of us could catch the first lizard. Who could eat the most Oreo cookie middles.”
Jane sniffed. ”This is what makes males unfathomable to me. Clearly the chocolate wafers are the only reason an Oreo's worth eating.”
He tossed her a smile that made her heart stumble. She gave it a moment to stabilize, then prodded him again. ”So if Gage was always the challenger, who was usually the winner?”
His smile died. ”Gage...Gage would do just about anything to win, and he usually did, except for the day I dared him to race those stupid motorcycles.”
”Because...?”
He sent her a wry glance. ”It was one of the few things I was better at.”
”So what happened?” she asked, her tone neutral.
”We were visiting the mountains. There was a trail that led away from the house, that ran for, I don't know-three or four miles? Off we went.”
”With you in the lead?”
”Oh, yeah. Adrenaline was pumping through my blood and I was running as fast and hot as that d.a.m.n bike. I felt like a million bucks when I got to the turnaround point without a sign of Gage behind me. But then I went cold, my twin-sense telling me something bad had happened.”
Jane felt her mouth go dry. Griffin seemed lost in thought, his gaze trained out the winds.h.i.+eld but his focus clearly on the past. ”But your brother's all right,” she heard herself say. Of course he was all right.
”I turned around, revving the bike even faster. Gage was about a mile back, his own bike on the ground. He was struggling to get it righted. That's when I saw that his chest was bleeding. He'd lost control and run into a tree. The sharp end of a broken limb had stabbed him in the chest.”
Oh, G.o.d. She could see it. She heard the echo of fear in Griffin's voice.
”I got him on the back of my seat. He didn't seem to notice anything was wrong, but I screamed at him to wrap his arms around my waist. I threw one arm behind me to make sure he didn't fall. It seemed to take hours to get back to the house, and the whole time I felt his blood pumping in spurts against my back. And I kept thinking, I goaded him to do this. I'm going to have to tell our parents it's my fault he's dead. I've killed my twin.”
”You didn't goad-”
”But I did. He hadn't wanted to race, but I called him every name one brother will call another until he got mad enough to go along.” Griffin ran his hand over his hair again, and his voice was so quiet she thought he was talking to himself and not to her. ”I'm the older brother. It's up to me to keep everybody safe.”
She didn't like the dark note in his voice. This was supposed to be her happy day! But she appreciated the insight into his personality. He felt so responsible for people. ”That must have been scary,” she said. ”Was the recovery difficult?”
”Sometimes I think it was harder for me than him. He took full advantage of my guilt. The video-game challenges I lost!” And then he grinned.
It was as if that white smile had the power to break up the traffic as well as the tension in the car. They started moving again, and she flipped on the radio and found a station dedicated to surf music from the 1960s. ”Little Deuce Coupe” and ”Surfer Girl.” n.o.body could be unhappy hearing those songs. They were the perfect antidote to any lingering down mood.
In a few minutes she caught him tapping out the beat on the steering wheel. He saw her looking at him and smiling about that. ”What?” he asked.
As if she'd point out he was humming. ”Just thinking about how well we'd share a package of cookies,” she said, determined to keep things light. ”I'd take all the crispy wafers-”
”Leaving me the sweet creamy centers,” he finished, capping it off with a leering wiggle of his eyebrows. ”You know how good I am with those.”
She whacked him on the shoulder, pretending outrage when she was actually delighted by the teasing turn of the conversation. They were almost back at Beach House No. 9, and they'd managed to sidestep all the potential land mines left by their interlude between the sheets the night before.
The car tires crunched over the sh.e.l.ls, and Jane unrolled her window to take in the scent of the cove, all warm summer day spiced with salt and balanced by the tang of the eucalyptus trees. A shaft of sunlight hit her straight in the eyes, and she closed them, breathing deep of the magic. In the distance the waves threw themselves onto the sh.o.r.e, no holding back.
He pulled into the driveway at the rear of the house. As they stepped from the car, Private came racing from Tess's place, where he'd had a sleepover with her kids. He ran to Griffin first, carrying a well-bitten Frisbee. But he paused for only a short head rub before he rushed to Jane.
Her mood only rose higher. The plastic toy was more than a little slimy, and Griffin snickered at her lame excuse for a toss, but who wouldn't be charmed by the canine's exuberant greeting? ”Good dog,” she said as Private raced back.
She might have even skipped a little. Good day.
”Hey, can you get that manila envelope?” Griffin asked. ”I'll bring in the bags.”
She held the bulky thing in two hands as she followed him into the cottage. The memory of her first visit rose in her mind as she scuffed her feet on the welcome mat that advised the visitor to abandon hope. Take that, she thought, sc.r.a.ping her soles against the words All Ye Who Enter Here a second time for good measure.
He carried their bags toward the bedrooms. Jane headed for the office. The lousy Frisbee toss should have been forewarning, but she didn't think of it as she paused in the doorway to lob the envelope at the desk. It slid straight across the unenc.u.mbered surface to fall to the floor, some of the contents spilling.
Grumbling to herself, she crossed the sisal area rug. Everything had landed upside down. She crouched to gather a sheaf of papers. Underneath them was a dozen photographs. Their subject matter caught her off guard, her hand going lax so the pictures scattered across the floor in an array of images.
A shadow loomed in the doorway. Griffin stood there, with Private at his side. She glanced toward him as his gaze trained on the glossy paper. All expression on his handsome face was wiped clean and his fingers curled in the dog's dark fur.
”Erica and I had been embedded about six months when they sent a photographer,” he said. His expression remained closed off, but his voice was matter-of-fact. ”Believe it or not, we'd had a chance to clean up when those were snapped. Still look a little worse for wear.”
Jane gazed back at the photos. Some were posed, some were candid. In each, Griffin and his colleague were front and center. You couldn't miss the effects of their half a year at war. They were both thinner than the ”On Our Way” image. Their clothes were ragged.
One shot pictured Griffin from behind. He stood on the edge of a ravine, his arm around Erica's shoulders. Her face was turned in profile, her expression clearly one of...
Love.
There was no doubt in Jane's mind that the woman reporter had been in love with Griffin. Glancing at him now, taking in his tense pose and rigid expression, she realized he must have reciprocated her feelings. Jane didn't know why she hadn't come to this conclusion before...it made perfect sense. Two intelligent, good-looking people with common interests and a common goal. Add to that the intense atmosphere of war, and falling in love seemed inevitable. Ernest Hemingway was famous for a novel with similar elements.
From the beginning, Jane had known Griffin's memoir would include stories of people he'd lived and breathed beside. Some who had been wounded. Some who had died. From the beginning, Jane had known the project would be difficult for him.
A chill washed over her skin as all her happy mood dissipated. She didn't want to think it had anything to do with this new revelation regarding Griffin's heart. They didn't have feelings for each other, after all. They'd been clear about the boundaries. It must be that the fog was returning to the beach early.
But as the room went darker, for the first time Jane was forced to recognize that-even without any particular attachment to Griffin-his project might also be tough on her.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN.
AFTER THAT INTERLUDE in the pop-up tent, David had hoped that he and Tess had reached a turning point. The point where she turned around and moved back home. But she'd remained at Crescent Cove, and he remained stymied.
It seemed apropos that he was once again slowed by sand filling his shoes as he trudged behind Duncan and Oliver on their way to the beach bungalow. Soccer practice had finished early, but the boys were still red-faced, and their hair was sweaty around the edges. Racing toward the surf, they shed s.h.i.+rts, shoes, long socks and s.h.i.+n guards. ”No going into the water unless your mom is watching,” he cautioned them, bending down to swipe up the discards.
Ahead was the patch of sand where he'd pitched the tent. She'd busted him that night. First, by discovering him on his secret mission. Then she'd shattered his vow to keep distant with her talk about sleeping with someone else. But he'd thought the resulting fiery act might have put some points on his side of the scoreboard. She couldn't deny how good they were together in bed, and he'd hoped that reminder might bring her home to him.
Of course, in the preceding months, he hadn't been available between the sheets, either. But that he could change, he decided. Men separated lovemaking from emotion all the time. His pace picked up as he approached No. 8 with new hope. He'd find them some privacy. He'd promise regular s.e.x. Would that get her home by nightfall?
But privacy wasn't an immediate option. As he neared the house from the rear, he caught sight of three pairs of feminine legs propped on the porch railing. The boys, now dressed only in nylon sports shorts, were tussling in the sand at the bottom of the steps, distracted from their initial plan for a wade in the ocean by a rubber ball they both wanted to claim. Just out of sight of his wife and the others, David paused, listening to the women's conversation.