Volume Ii Part 2 (2/2)
His face was in shadow, but there was that in his voice which startled the old man with a foreboding of coming trouble. He leaned forward, peering anxiously into the darkness. 'Eh? what's that, lad, what's that you're saying?'
'You say there is one thing you wish to speak to me about before--before I can be affianced to Italia. I ask you what it is.'
'Nay, my Dino, I said nought about being affianced, if that's what's troubling you. Not but what I could easily find another husband for her; there's Maso, now; as honest a lad as ever hauled at a rope, and a good bit o' money too, all in the bank. But what does that matter?
I've never promised her to you; but it would be but a poor sort o'
friends.h.i.+p that only depended upon words. I've done more than give you my promise, lad; I've trusted you, I have.'
'Good G.o.d!' said Dino, under his breath, looking up with blank eyes at the clear starlit sky above him.
'There's no need for many words to settle it.' He hesitated; and then went on with sudden fluency as if the long meditated speech were forcing its own way out. 'See here, lad. It's not so much more than a week since you lost your place because o' that infernal tomfoolery of a procession. I'm not casting it up at you, my boy; not I. But there 'tis; you made a mistake. It might have been a worse one, for you meant no harm, and as things go it's all turned out for the best. I wouldn't have cared to marry my little girl to a writing fellow, and you've got the make of a sailor in you, lad; I always said it. When G.o.d Almighty shuts one door in an honest man's face, if you look about you you'll see He's opened another. But it might ha' turned out different.'
He lowered his voice, and added: 'I don't blame you, but I've kept my ears open, and there are things said about you that I don't like; I don't like. When a man lets his net down to the bottom he's sure to catch mud. I saw your father do it. _He_ called himself a republican too. You must give it up, my Dino.'
'I can't do that,' said Dino, in a very low voice.
The words implied so much to himself that he could scarcely believe in the reality of things--he felt involved in the fantastic irony of a dream--when Drea burst out laughing, good-naturedly.
'Why, lad, you don't understand me? Where are your wits? I am speaking Italian, _mi pare_. It isn't to oblige me I want you to give up that confounded club of yours, and all the nonsense that goes with it. It's so that you can marry Italia. Why, lad, one would think that I was torturing you instead of telling you how to marry your sweetheart. _You_ one o' those d.a.m.ned radical rogues, my Dino, the little chap I taught how to handle an oar? Come, come, lad, drop the nonsense. It's being shut up between four walls that put it into you, I'll go bail. Politics! Lord bless you! a capful o' wind will soon blow 'em out of you. They're like weevils in a biscuit, they eat all the good; you can't get rid o' them too quickly.'
'Drea, it is you who will not understand. You are unjust; you have always been unjust to my father. But his ideas are mine. I will not----' he stopped, with a horrible sense of sinking at his heart.
What were these ideas to which he professed himself so willing to sacrifice all the rest? But it was imperatively necessary to make Drea understand the situation. 'I cannot give up my--my convictions. For no reason in the world. Not even to marry Italia.'
There was an instant of terrible silence.
'Are you mad, boy?' demanded Drea, in a sort of subdued growl.
'I am not mad,' Dino answered.
It was a relief to look forward to an explosion of the old man's anger; anything--anything rather than that tone of affectionate trust.
'I am not mad. I don't know why I'm not. I'm unhappy enough for that, or for anything else,' he said, wearily.
'Unhappy----!'
The old man checked himself, breathing hard.
One of the last vendors of cakes and sweetmeats had gone, leaving his torch of tarred stick to flare itself away in the empty piazza. Drea sat rigid, his eyes fixed upon that spot of light. But he was too deeply moved to keep quiet: the old habit of affection was strong upon him; it was stronger than his pride. 'I would not have believed it of you, Dino. But you'll think better of it, lad; you'll think better of it. One thinks that one has only to pick and choose in life when one is young. When a boat is running straight before the wind any fool can steer her. Later on you begin to find out that things have their own consequences; you might as well ask for a fish without its bones as for a life without trouble. I didn't expect this, though. If it were anybody but you, lad; you that I've knowed from a boy.'
'I--I can't stand this,' said Dino, huskily.
He got up to his feet and walked away a few paces. The old man followed him.
'Lad!----'
He laid his heavy hand upon Dino's shoulder. ''Tis easier to make wounds than to heal 'em. I don't want to be hard on you, G.o.d knows.
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