Part 37 (1/2)

But don't torture yourself about it, my darling. It's over now; it's past--no, it's present, and it will always be, forever, the dearest and best thing in life Lydia, do you believe that I love you?”

”Oh, I must!”

”And don't you believe that I'm telling you the truth when I say that I wouldn't, for all the world can give or take, change anything that's been?”

”Yes, I do believe you. Oh, I haven't said at all what I wanted to say!

There was a great deal that I ought to say. I can't seem to recollect it.”

He smiled to see her grieving at this recreance of her memory to her conscience. ”Well, you shall have a whole lifetime to recall it in.”

”No, I must try to speak now. And you must tell me the truth now,--no matter what it costs either of us.” She laid her hands upon his extended arms, and grasped them intensely. ”There's something else. I want to ask you what _you_ thought when you found me alone on that s.h.i.+p with all of you.” If she had stopped at this point, Staniford's cause might have been lost, but she went on: ”I want to know whether you were ever ashamed of me, or despised me for it; whether you ever felt that because I was helpless and friendless there, you had the right to think less of me than if you had first met me here in this house.”

It was still a terrible question, but it offered a loop-hole of escape, which Staniford was swift to seize. Let those who will justify the answer with which he smiled into her solemn eyes: ”I will leave you to say.” A generous uncandor like this goes as far with a magnanimous and serious-hearted woman as perhaps anything else.

”Oh, I knew it, I knew it!” cried Lydia. And then, as he caught her to him at last, ”Oh--oh--are you _sure_ it's right?”

”I have no doubt of it,” answered Staniford. Nor had he any question of the strategy through which he had triumphed in this crucial test. He may have thought that there were always explanations that had to be made afterwards, or he may have believed that he had expiated in what he had done and suffered for her any slight which he had felt; possibly, he considered that she had asked more than she had a right to do. It is certain that he said with every appearance of sincerity, ”It began the moment I saw you on the wharf, there, and when I came to know my mind I kept it from you only till I could tell you here. But now I wish I hadn't! Life is too short for such a week as this.”

”No,” said Lydia, ”you acted for the best, and you are--good.”

”I'll keep that praise till I've earned it,” answered Staniford.

XXVII.

In the Campo Santi Apostoli at Venice there stands, a little apart from the church of that name, a chapel which has been for many years the place of wors.h.i.+p for the Lutheran congregation. It was in this church that Staniford and Lydia were married six weeks later, before the altar under t.i.tian's beautiful picture of Christ breaking bread.

The wedding was private, but it was not quite a family affair. Miss Hibbard had come down with her mother from Dresden, to complete Dunham's cure, and she was there with him perfectly recovered; he was not quite content, of course, that the marriage should not take place in the English chapel, but he was largely consoled by the candles burning on the altar. The Aroostook had been delayed by repairs which were found necessary at Trieste, and Captain Jenness was able to come over and represent the s.h.i.+p at the wedding ceremony, and at the lunch which followed. He reserved till the moment of parting a supreme expression of good-will. When he had got a hand of Lydia's and one of Staniford's in each of his, with his wrists crossed, he said, ”Now, I ain't one to tack round, and stand off and on a great deal, but what I want to say is just this: the Aroostook sails next week, and if you two are a mind to go back in her, the s.h.i.+p's yours, as I said to Miss Blood, here,--I mean Mis' Staniford; well, I _hain't_ had much time to get used to it!--when she first come aboard there at Boston. I don't mean any pay; I want you to go back as my guests. You can use the cabin for your parlor; and I promise you I won't take any other pa.s.sengers _this_ time. I declare,”

said Captain Jenness, lowering his voice, and now referring to Hicks for the first time since the day of his escapade, ”I did feel dreadful about that fellow!”

”Oh, never mind,” replied Staniford. ”If it hadn't been for Hicks perhaps I mightn't have been here.” He exchanged glances with his wife, that showed they had talked all that matter over.

The captain grew confidential. ”Mr. Mason told me he saw you lending that chap money. I hope he didn't give you the slip?”

”No; it came to me here at Blumenthals' the other day.”

”Well, that's right! It all worked together for good, as you say. Now you come!”

”What do you say, my dear?” asked Staniford, on whom the poetic fitness of the captain's proposal had wrought.

Women are never blinded by romance, however much they like it in the abstract. ”It's coming winter. Do you think you wouldn't be seasick?”

returned the bride of an hour, with the practical wisdom of a matron.

Staniford laughed. ”She's right, captain. I'm no sailor. I'll get home by the all-rail route as far as I can.”