Part 24 (1/2)

”Surely you know, dear. You are not as young as you once were. Your eyes are weak, and your hearing is a little dulled, and----”

Frances threw out her hand eagerly. ”You think I am growing old! It is only my eyes and ears that are wearing out. _I_ am not deaf nor blind,” she said earnestly. ”_I_ am not old. I find more fun and flavor in life now than I did at sixteen. If I live to be seventy, or a hundred, I shall be the same Frances Waldeaux still.”

Clara gave an annoyed shrug. ”But really, _I_ make the thought of death my constant companion. And you are older than I.”

”'After the busy day Comes the calm sleep of night,'”

she quoted, with a sententious sigh.

”Calm and sleep do not appear to me to be the highest conditions of life. No! I will not be set aside, even when I am dead, like a burned-out candle!” The indignant tears stood in her eyes. ”Why, even in that other world I shall not be a barren stock, thank G.o.d! I have given a family to mankind. To watch a long line of your descendants at work, to see in them your own thoughts and your own soul reaching out, live powers through all eternity--I often think of it. That will be--not calm nor sleep.”

Miss Vance touched Mrs. Waldeaux's arm affectionately. ”What a queer idea, Frances. Well, I never argue, you know. Drop in the harness, if you choose. Let us go in now. It is chilly.”

The older woman looked after her, and smiled good-humoredly. After a moment she raised her hand, examining it attentively. Her hand had been very beautiful in shape, white and dimpled, and she had been vain enough to wear fine rings. Now it was yellow and wrinkled. The great emerald looked like a bit of gla.s.s upon it.

”Yes, I see,” she said, with a miserable little laugh, and then stood looking out into the far distance. ”But _I_ am not growing old.” She spoke aloud, as if to one who stood apart with her and could understand. ”Even out in that other world I shall not be only a mother. I shall be me. ME!” touching her breast. ”After a million of years--it will still be me.”

There stirred within the lean body and rheumatic limbs depths of unused power, of thought, of love and pa.s.sion, and, deeper than all, awful possibilities of change.

”I have it in me still to be worse than a murderer,” she thought, with whitening face.

She stood a long time, alone. A strange content and light came slowly into her face. ”Come what will, I shall never be left to myself again,” she said at last, speaking to a Friend whom she had found long ago.

Then she went in search of the boy. ”Come, Jack,” she said cheerfully, ”there are busy days before us.”

George and Lucy that evening reached Dover, prettiest of American towns. They strolled down the shaded street out into a quiet country lane. Lucy sat down upon a fallen tree, and George threw himself upon the gra.s.s beside her.

”To-morrow we shall be at home,” she said, pus.h.i.+ng his hair back. ”Do you know that your profile is absolutely Greek?” Her eyes half closed critically. ”Yes, we shall be at home about eleven o'clock. I wrote to Stephen to order all the dishes that you like for luncheon. Your mother and Jack are coming. It will be such a gay, happy day!”

He took her hand. He would tell her now. It would not distress her.

The money weighed for nothing in her life. He was her world; he knew that.