Part 7 (1/2)
”A big f.u.c.kin' a.s.shole, that's who.”
The artery on his temple was prominent, pulsing. He leaned into me, and I realized only then how wildly drunk he was.
”He says, you think you can do my job better than me? And I said, yeah, I do. So he tells me to get the f.u.c.k out of his office. He doesn't care if fifteen people are waiting for the f.u.c.king Care Flight. He's got his own a.s.s to cover, the f.u.c.king jerkoff. I say enough talk, just do it.” His voice was rising now, almost to a soft yell. ”Just DO IT, I tell him. I was ready to tear his f.u.c.king HEAD off.” The artery was really popping now. People around us turned to see what the commotion was. Was he going to take a swing at me? Would his blood vessel explode first?
”Are you hearing what I'm saying?”
”Yes,” I said softly.
”I'm sorry, am I disturbing you?”
”No, you're not. Not at all.”
He stared at me then like I'd just told him to go f.u.c.k himself.
”Look, can I get you a drink?” I asked, pulling away a little.
”You think I can't afford my own drinks?”
”No . . . I didn't say that. I was just trying to be friendly.”
”You some f.u.c.king queer?” he said.
At that point, it became clear that I wasn't going to win. More people were looking at us, but they hadn't yet circled us into that timeless point of no return. Bet this was going over great with the boys behind the mirror. Were they munching on popcorn and placing bets?
I backed away and hoped the drunker, more oblivious partiers would fill in between us a bit. He took a couple of lurching steps toward me, then stumbled and caught himself on a surprised man. I took that moment to turn and walk as fast as I could, as indirectly as I could, toward the other end of the room. I was feeling more sober by the second. The room was still packed, which was good. I prayed that Derrick's friend was so drunk that his rage had already found a new target. Maybe a coatrack or a bar stool.
I came out the other end of the thriving, rowdy crowd, back to the far corner where I'd started. It was still a quiet little enclave, and I stood against the wall and tried to think of ways the night could have gone worse. I felt someone looking at me. The tables around me were empty, except for an old, lonely-looking man sitting by himself. He was staring at me with inquisitive eyes under folds of pearly skin. He had a bad reddish toupee. He didn't look away when I saw him. He held my gaze, and finally I went over and sat down at his table.
”Having fun?” he asked pleasantly.
”Not really.”
He smiled.
”Me neither. I don't like parties.”
”That makes two of us.”
He chuckled, and then we sat quietly for a while.
”Are you a student?” he asked, after a bit.
”I am. I'm a law student.”
”Oh,” he said, as if he had guessed as much. ”So, tell me, why law?”
”That's easy,” I said. ”My grandfather.”
”A lawyer?”
I nodded.
”And you're close?”
”We were.”
”Oh.” He studied my face. ”He pa.s.sed?”
”Last year.”
”I'm sorry. What was he like?”
I smiled.
”Tall. Really tall. He scared the h.e.l.l out of people, he could seem really serious, but he was a teddy bear. He had this smile that was mostly in his eyes. Kids loved him. The first time I saw his wedding picture, I couldn't believe it. He and my grandmother looked like movie stars. He was that handsome. People were drawn to him. He was shy, but people always came up to him. It's hard to explain.
”When I was a kid, I used to sit in a chair behind his desk and watch him talk to clients. He knew how to talk to people. He could joke with them, get them to open up. When people were upset, he could talk them through it. He was always calm. His eyes told you everything was going to be okay.”
”I bet he was excited you were going to law school.”
”I remember when he was sick . . .” I was startled to feel my eyes welling a little. I tried to swallow it down. ”He said to me, 'I'm sorry I won't be around to help you.'”
”What did you say?”
”I told him . . .” I paused, pinched my nose, and closed my eyes. ”I told him he already taught me everything I knew about being a good person.” Why was I losing it in front of this guy? Why did I have so many drinks? ”I told him I remembered a time we went to a football game. This small man in a bow tie took our tickets. And my grandpa said to him, 'I know you. You've worked here a long time, haven't you?' The man said yes. My grandpa said, 'You used to stand over there, but now you stand over here.' You have to understand, this is the guy who tore the tickets. Hundreds of people pa.s.sed him every day and didn't say a word. I saw it in that guy's eyes. It meant something. My grandpa was telling that man he mattered. That's the kind of person he was.”
I didn't know what else to say.
The man considered me for a minute. Then he looked behind me and said, ”I think your ride is here, Mr. Davis.”
I turned around. Behind me was the man from the house, Mr. Bones, still wearing his jacket and open-collared s.h.i.+rt. He put his arm on my shoulder and said, ”Time to go.”
I stood, but I turned back to the old man.
”How did you know my name?” I asked him.
”I know everything about you, Mr. Davis.”
I felt a chill pa.s.s through me, a s.h.i.+ver.
”I know where you live. I know what you do. I just wonder . . .” He said this last part quietly, almost to himself. He looked down at his hands on the table, as if I were already gone.
”Wonder what?” I asked him.
Mr. Bones was tugging on my arm now. He had the blindfold in his other hand. He was unrolling it to put it on me.