Part 2 (1/2)

”It is always the quick deaths with you,” she said. ”And I suppose you want me to remove everything else, after that?”

”Yes,” he said.

”You really are peculiar,” said the witch. ”I can't imagine why you think death is preferable to the company of your brothers.”

The witch was not quite as all-knowing as she imagined herself to be. Charlie imagined punching his thumbs through her bright glittering eyes and then eating them like sugarplums. He said, ”It's not the company of my brothers I'm trying to get away from.”

”Clever,” said the witch, and shoved the knife into his bone-plated chest. She missed his heart on purpose, which required hacking at him for some time before she got it right. Blood spattered her face and dress. Charlie's brothers watched.

Charlie, dying, hoped the witch's guest arrived before she had time to change.

The line between life and death was a thin one for a gargoyle, and Charlie, though he had never found much occasion before his captivity to walk it, found that he had some talent navigating the world beyond his body. He could see things about people-private, unconscious things. As a dream, a disembodied soul, almost nothing was hidden. He could peer into hearts and heads, and while he was not so nosy as to pry deep into places he did not belong, being able to explore the world as a ghost did alleviate the suffering he left behind. If only for a little while.

And the witch was totally clueless, which made the experience all the sweeter-and more-because death was also a good opportunity to explore possible avenues of escape for himself and his brothers. Charlie did not know what kind of spell the witch had put them under, only that someone, somewhere, must be familiar with it, or know what could be done to break it. Haunting the witch for that information was impossible, even dangerous. The s.h.i.+elds around her thoughts were simply too tight, and Charlie feared pus.h.i.+ng-that somehow she would sense him, recognize him, even, and the game would be up. Then there would be no more death. No more escape into the world.

Emma changed everything. Not, perhaps, Charlie's approach to the witch, but his approach to everything else in his life, which suddenly seemed burdened down with unnecessary secrets, the hands of the past reaching out to hold him down. He was not human, and though he had masqueraded as one for years and years, helping this child, even as a ghost, demanded that he give up some of that hard-earned anonymity, the illusion of separation between himself and others, the world and his personal, singular I. Never mind that Charlie was a prisoner, that he had lost the right to solitude. Reaching out was far more intimate, because it was his choice, his connection to make, and the consequences would be greater than any the witch could impart upon him.

And it was worth it when Emma, trapped in darkness, turned to the sound of his voice, and though she was afraid she did not lose herself, and though she had been abused so horribly by men, thought hero when she listened to him speak.

Words were not enough to express what that did to him, and it was not pride that made him warm, but something deeper-genetic, maybe, a biological imperative that had been suppressed in his psyche until that moment, that bloom of recognition when he thought, My kind have given up our souls for safety. We murdered ourselves the moment we forgot what we could do for others. What we should do, no matter what. No matter the risk. It is not us or them, but all of us, together.

And he carried that with him the first time he followed Emma from her bas.e.m.e.nt prison into the well-lit living room of an old farmhouse, and found a startling array of equipment: cameras, televisions, sound machines. Thousands and thousands of dollars worth, and farther beyond, in other rooms, he sensed more: offices, computers, editing equipment; an infrastructure dedicated to the subjugation of innocence.

And subjugate they had, Mrs. Kreer and her son, Andrew. Both their minds were tight, as were their hearts-as difficult to read as the witch-but Charlie did not need to push deep to know what they were about. All he had to do was watch, ghostly arms wrapped tight around Emma as Mrs. Kreer carefully applied glossy red lipstick to her small mouth.

Emma hated Andrew-feared him, too-but she thought, I am not alone and I am warm, when Charlie kept his word. And so he did not leave her. Not until the filming was over and he felt the tug, the inexorable rush, and he was forced, unwilling, back into his healed body. The living could not exist without the soul-to resist would be committing to a true death, and Charlie was not ready for that.

But he did ask for the knife again. And again. As many murders as he could squeeze into the witch's schedule. He needed to die, and stay dead, for as long as possible. The pain was momentary, easily endured, nothing at all compared to what Emma suffered. What she would continue suffering, unless he helped her.

Charlie's options, though, were rather limited. As a ghost, he had a form, but no real ability to affect his physical surroundings. The best he could do was scare Mrs. Kreer and her son-which he'd tried, on his second visit. The old woman did not give any indication of noticing him, and her son was much the same, except for one violent s.h.i.+ver which was just as likely due to a bad meal rather than Charlie's presence. It was a p.i.s.s-poor reaction and Charlie had no explanation for it. Emma most certainly could see him when he chose to materialize-though admittedly, he did so with a very toned down version of his face and body. The girl was traumatized enough without seeing what he really looked like.

So. If he could not help Emma himself, he needed to find someone who could. Tricky. The world was a big place. He had almost six billion candidates to choose from. Kind of, anyway. He liked to keep his options open.

He narrowed his search based on location; Emma was being kept in Was.h.i.+ngton state, in a little town in the mountains northeast of Seattle called Darrington. It took him far too long to discover her location-a weakness on his part, because every time he died he went straight to the child. A compulsion: he needed to know she was all right, still alive. And then, of course, he would say a word or two, and before long his time would run out and back under the knife he would go again.

But Emma was being held on the west coast of the United States, and that seemed as good a place as any to start his search, beginning first with her mother. He knew where she lived; the address was easy to take from Emma's mind. She came from a house in the Cascade Mountains, only several hours away. Charlie went there. Just one thought and poof. Faster than light, a speeding bullet.

Charlie did not tell Emma he was going to her mother, and was glad for it. He did not want to tell her what he found: empty sh.e.l.l casings, the decaying body, the blasted face. He did not want to tell her that it appeared no one had found or disturbed the remains, and therefore, no one had reported her as missing. Emma and her mother had lived a very isolated life. Perfect targets, well chosen. It was the ruthlessness that shocked him, though he supposed that was nave. He had seen enough horrors during his captivity to know better than to underestimate any capacity for cruelty. Especially when performed by those who could command perfect masks, spinning their lies into lives made of illusion. Like the Kreers, who had a perfect reputation in the community they lived in. People... liked them. Which was vomit-inducing, but unchangeable.

It made his burden heavier, and though the candidates he found were good men and women, professionals, even that was suddenly not enough. Mere honesty and integrity were not adequate standards; nor was a desire to do good.

Charlie wanted more out of the person who helped Emma. He wanted someone who would throw his or her life into the effort with as much intensity as a parent for a child, with all the dedication and commitment that such devotion required. He wanted someone who would not give up. He wanted someone who would fight to the bitter end to see Emma safe.

He wanted someone who would love the girl as much as he did.

So he drifted-pressured by time and patience, because every day was a day that Emma got hurt-listening to thoughts and hearts, looking and looking for that one bright song. He was relentless, could not remember a time in his life when he had felt such implacable drive, and he wondered at himself, at the way he had spent his life before now; drifting around the world, moving from city to city, immersing himself in books and learning, walking streets only to pretend to be something he was not, because it was easier and safer than wearing his true inhuman face. Casting illusion through s.h.i.+fting shape.

Gargoyles were not the only kind with such gifts of transformation, but Charlie knew those others only by their eyes. Golden and bright, like twin suns. Animals. Pure shape-s.h.i.+fters, in the truest sense of the word. A long time since Charlie had seen one of them. Almost twenty years, at least. He wondered how many were still left in the world, if they outnumbered the gargoyles and other creatures of the arcane and uncanny. In these modern days, what was considered normal vastly outweighed its opposite, though pockets remained, often hiding in plain sight. Clinging desperately to secrets, because the truth was unthinkable. Charlie could not imagine what the media would make of someone like him, what governments and scientists would do to a person so radically different from human. The heart might be the same-all the emotion and pa.s.sion-but the body, the flesh...

Flesh meant nothing. Flesh was nothing but a vehicle for his soul, but a vehicle that Charlie desperately missed as he searched for help. In his body, he could have stormed the farmhouse, taken Emma away-but he was trapped across the ocean, in a city near the sea, and he had nothing to give the little girl but a promise.

I will help you .

Charlie gave up on Was.h.i.+ngton state and moved to Oregon. Pa.s.sed over that state in a day. California was his last hope; after that, he would begin moving farther inland. Three days searching, and time was running out; he needed to find someone fast. All those high expectations, his convictions, just might have to fade to the side in order to get the job done.

And he was ready-he was ready to do it, come what may-when he felt a tug on the edge of his spirit. A call.

He followed. He had no choice; he felt like he was listening to Emma for the first time, only this was a boy, tied up in the back of a van that suddenly lurched, slamming the whimpering child against sharp equipment. A man swore. Charlie heard gunshots.

Gunshots, and something stronger. Another mind.

Charlie focused on that mind, binding himself to the imprint of it, and went, dropping his spirit into the middle of a storm, a tumult, spinning wild against thoughts of pain and anger, and there, at the center...

A woman. Strong-determined-carrying a resolve so stubborn and powerful, Charlie felt it strike his own heart in a perfect sympathetic echo.

She was very tall, with skin the color of deep bronze; a woman easy to hold on to, with shapely legs and a small waist; broad shoulders and strong arms. Nothing girlish about her; just solid strength, easy confidence. And her mind...

Charlie lost himself inside her head, rolling through her thoughts, which were impossible and unending and fast-so fast-quicksilver and mercury and lightning rolling into one flas.h.i.+ng vision of cars and bullets and dying men and he heard: I have to stop this-I can't let him go-and-Quinn, be careful- He pressed for her name and found-Agatha-and there was another man beside her-Quinn-but his thoughts were quiet in the shadow of her mind, and Charlie watched, appalled and fascinated and terrified, as Agatha threw herself against death, fearless, all to stop- A man who hurt children.

Charlie pressed himself deep inside Agatha, burying his soul against her own, sharing her life as she fought with all her strength to take down the man she hunted. When she breathed it was for him, and he breathed for her, curling around her lungs, beating with her heart until it was his heart, until he could not tell where he ended and she began, and it was wrong-wrong to be so close to someone without permission, but he could not help himself because to be in a mind so strong, so wild and chaotic and perfect, was a drug.

He had his champion. Right here. His huntress. The perfect woman for Emma.

The perfect woman for you , a voice whispered.

A bad thought. He had not come looking for himself. His heart did not matter. He had a mission, a little girl to save. She was the only one he had time for.

And besides, humans and gargoyles did not mix. Not ever, and not unless deception was involved. The physical differences were just too great.

Yet he wondered, as he finally untangled himself from her soul, what it would be like. He wondered, because it came to him in increments, bits of stunning truth, that the woman was even more extraordinary than he had first imagined, and he saw things inside her head-impossible things-that made him question once again the world around him, turn the paradigm upside down.

She'll believe me , Charlie realized. I won't need to hide myself from her. I won't need to pretend I'm a ghost or an angel or a devil.

With this woman, all he needed was the truth.

Things happened: the child, the police, the waiting punctuated by a phone call. Charlie listened to it all, still judging, tasting Agatha's reactions and thoughts. He wondered at his luck.

Finally, though, Charlie felt his spirit stretch-his body, coming back to life. He readied himself to leave, still floating close, eavesdropping, tasting Agatha's thoughts and the quiet mind of the man beside her. Friends, partners. Dedicated fighters. Not lovers.

The pull got stronger. Charlie could not help himself; at the last moment, he reached out and touched Agatha. Placed the hand of his spirit against her neck, infusing that spot with warmth, with the focus of his heart. He pretended he could feel her skin. He pretended she could feel him.

And when she reached back to touch her neck-startling, unexpected-her hand pa.s.sed through his and he felt a quiet caress move along the entirety of his soul, strong and lovely and undeniable.

Thousands of miles away, Charlie's heart began beating again. Agatha disappeared.