Part 37 (2/2)
”Domine, speak not so!” and Antiochus clasped the proconsul's knees.
Caesar bent down and lifted him up by the hand. When he spoke again, the tone was entirely changed.
”Old friend, you have known me; have loved me. You were my _pedagogue_[151] when I went to school at Rome. You taught me to ride and fence and wrestle. You aided me to escape the myrmidons of Sulla.
You were with me in Greece. You shared my joy in my political successes, my triumphs in the field. And now what am I to do? You know the last advices from Rome; you know the determination of the consuls to work my ruin. To-day no news has come at all, and for us no news is the worst of news.”
[151] Slave who looked after the welfare and conduct of a schoolboy.
”Domine,” said Antiochus, wiping his eyes, ”I cannot dream that the Senate and Pompeius will deny you your right to the second consuls.h.i.+p.”
”But if they do? You know what Curio reports. What then?”
Antiochus shook his head.
”It would mean war, b.l.o.o.d.y war, the upturning of the whole world!”
”War, or--” and Caesar paused.
”What, my lord?” said the freedman.
”I cease either to be a care to myself or my enemies.”
”I do not understand you, domine,” ventured Antiochus, turning pale.
”I mean, good friend,” said the proconsul, calmly, ”that when I consider how little life often seems worth, and how much disaster the continuance of my act of living means to my fellow-men, I feel often that I have no right to live.”
Antiochus staggered with dread. Caesar was no longer talking wildly; and the freedman knew that when in a calm mood the proconsul was always perfectly serious.
”Domine, you have not rashly determined this?” he hinted.
”I have determined nothing. I never rashly determine anything. Hark!
Some one is at the door.”
There was a loud military knock, and the clang of armour.
”Enter,” commanded Caesar.
Decimus Mamercus hastened into the room. So great was his excitement that his Roman discipline had forsaken him. He neglected to salute.
”News! news! Imperator! from Rome! News which will set all Italy afire!”
Whereupon the man who had but just before been talking of suicide, with the greatest possible deliberation seated himself on a comfortable chair, arranged his dress, and remarked with perfect coldness:--
”No tidings can justify a soldier in neglecting to salute his general.”
Decimus turned red with mortification, and saluted.
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