Part 2 (1/2)

Lily! d.a.m.n, the thought of her still makes my heart pound and my d.i.c.k hard. Almost two years down the road I'm thinking it might be time to take that next step. I had no hang ups because of the demise of my first go around, one woman was about as different from the other as two people could get. Besides, I wasn't one to hold onto to bulls.h.i.+t baggage.

Deanna had been a hard lesson, I was young, h.o.r.n.y and dumb when we first met but it hadn't taken long for the s.h.i.+ne to wear off. Still I'd made a commitment and I intended to see it through. Then she'd fallen pregnant eight years after we were married. I'd lost that loving feeling for the selfish, self centered woman who'd hidden her true self for the first few years of our marriage, but the knowledge that I had a kid coming had me on the moon.

I started planning for my seed from the moment I heard those two words, aI'm pregnant'. I didn't care if it was a boy or a girl I just knew I wanted it. I'd tried back then to relight that spark that had been there in the beginning but too much had pa.s.sed by then and I couldn't do it.

For my kid though I decided to stay. I'd been raised in a loving family with both of my parents, aunts, uncles, grand parents and an abundance of cousins and extended family. I wanted my kid to have the same. Things hadn't worked out that way so now we were all making the best of what we had.

Deanna still tries every once in a while to get back into my bed but that was never gonna happen, and now with Lily in the picture there was no way in h.e.l.l. Lily was just what I needed in my f.u.c.ked up life. At the time we met I'd been in the middle of turning my life completely upside down. I had a new business and was part of something that filled the void left after I'd quit the force.

I was still a little raw and angry from the s.h.i.+t that had went down in my marriage, not to mention the s.h.i.+t that was going on in the force and life just seemed to be thirty shades of f.u.c.ked up. She'd blazed into my life with her fiery att.i.tude and her f.u.c.k me body and I haven't been the same since.

Lily has one of those pinup girl figures, heavy on the t.i.ts and a.s.s and little on the waist with a yard of raven colored hair that brushes the top of her a.s.s when she walks. And boy what a walk! She's all of five two, olive skinned, big brown eyes and lips that made me think of sinning every time I look at them.

Her voice makes me want to f.u.c.k her into the wall hard and furious, and her sweet smile makes me want to wrap her up in cotton b.a.l.l.s and protect her always. Yeah, I think it's time I put my ring on her finger. I know she wasn't going anywhere but still, women needed that s.h.i.+t to make them feel secure and loved or some f.u.c.kery. Plus if I put a ring on Deanna's trifling a.s.s it would be a grave insult not to marry the woman who was truly the owner of my heart.

I was brought back to the present by the beeping of my phone. ”What's up D'Angelo?”

”You call Jake?”

”No, why?”

”He's headed this way.”

”No problem.” I closed my phone and waited.

Jake was an old buddy of mine; in fact he was the only cop still on the force that I could say I was truly impressed with. He was honest to a fault and always went the extra mile. He didn't suffer fools lightly and had a rep for facing down anyone who got in his way no matter who.

He had his own division in the force that was rumored to be some type of elite top-secret outfit that dealt with the more dangerous s.h.i.+t that went down in our neck of the woods. He'd offered me a place on his team when I'd walked but I'd already set my sights on the bar and forging a different way.

When I fell into this little sideline, he was one of the first people I'd tapped for help. It was always good to have someone on the right side of the law for all that the department was full of crooks and a.s.sholes. I knew that Jake was like me. He could be trusted. I didn't know what he was doing here tonight though, since I hadn't called him in since I'd asked him to be on the lookout for Sid.

He came around the side of the building like smoke and I couldn't hold back the smirk. f.u.c.ker thinks he's cool. I can't see where having a wife and kids have softened him any, but he didn't have that aI'd skull f.u.c.k you for breakfast and then p.i.s.s in your eye' look about him anymore.

Before I could open my mouth to ask him why he was here he beat me to it. ”Where's your boy Deke?” Oh s.h.i.+t. I wasn't about to show my hand, there wasn't anything I couldn't get my guys out of and I'm pretty sure that Jake wouldn't burn Deke for a piece a s.h.i.+t like Sid, but it never hurt to be careful. ”Who wants to know?” He c.o.c.ked his brow at me with a adon't f.u.c.k with me' scowl and I was hard pressed to keep my laughter in check.

We both know his intimidating tactics wouldn't work on me though I felt Stryder s.h.i.+ft nervously in his chair. Jacka.s.s, that only brought him to Jake's attention and the other man turned one of his glares his way. ”Cut that s.h.i.+t out Jake, now what do you want with my boy?”

”I've been keeping an eye on the Carter place since you told me about a.s.shole number two's threats against our girl. I figured you'd have eyes over there as well, but what I was not expecting was to be saving Sid from crazy a.s.s Deke. You've got to do something about that one Masters he's not wrapped too tight.”

”Deke's cool, he just gets a little jumpy every now and then.”

”Frogs get jumpy, this one's something else altogether. I had my guys run Sid to the hospital because Deke wasn't looking too excited about doing it himself.”

”Where is he now?”

”I left him there watching the flames so they don't get out of control. Couldn't you come up with a better idea than torching the woods?”

”Nah, that place has been used to hide too much evil over the years, it was time someone took care of it. Now no one can use it as a cover to hide dark s.h.i.+t.” Dwayne had kept his victims hidden back there in a makes.h.i.+ft underground bunker he'd built.

Men had scoured those woods for days without a trace of anything and the whole time Stephanie had been buried under there. She could hear people going by overhead calling out to her, so close and yet so far away. I'm sure that had only added to her torment, and was now feeding her fear that no one would ever hear her or come when she was in distress.

It was by sheer luck that she'd survived after he'd taken her out and left her for dead elsewhere. No one knew why he hadn't killed her there in his drop sight but we were forever grateful that he hadn't. When she'd been found badly beaten and bruised with her head barely on her shoulders no one thought for a minute that she'd live let alone live to tell where she'd been kept.

She was one strong little angel. It was because of her that they'd been able to close at least three cold cases of other young girls who had gone missing over a ten year period from the area and there were believed to be even more who'd found their demise at his hands.

When the bunker had been unearthed there'd been DNA from the three cases that were now considered closed and they were still sifting through the s.h.i.+t they'd found down there. ”I figure burning the s.h.i.+t would serve two purposes, he can't use it anymore provided he ever sees the light of day again and the way the justice system works I'm not too sure that's not an option. And two, when I drive Stephanie by there later she can see that her h.e.l.l hole has been destroyed.”

He just nodded at me and with that I guess the conversation was over. ”You bringing your girls by this weekend right?”

”Wouldn't miss it, Holly's already looking forward to destroying your place.” My daughter's an angel but for some reason whenever she gets around Jake's kids she turns into the Tasmania devil or some s.h.i.+t. I never knew little things that size could do so much damage but there you have it.

”I got them one of those bouncy house things that I staked into the ground in the backyard they can destroy that s.h.i.+t and please heaven leave my s.h.i.+t alone.”

”Good luck with that. What about that other thing everything still on?”

”They'll be there.”

We exchanged bulls.h.i.+t small talk for a little bit before he headed back out.

Chapter 9.

The next morning as the others showed up, we headed for our respective homes and women. Some of the guys had families of their own that they needed to get back to. I wondered if Lily would be up waiting for me as she'd been doing every morning for the past week and a half. No matter how much I told her not to do that s.h.i.+t she didn't listen.

She had her own s.h.i.+t to take care of since she'd opened her own private practice, and I didn't want her losing sleep over me, and f.u.c.king up her s.h.i.+t. That little lady thought she was super woman or some s.h.i.+t but I wasn't about to have her running herself into the ground.

I don't think I've had anyone worry and fuss over me the way she does since my mom. She just has that natural nurturing thing going on and I'm man enough to admit to enjoying that s.h.i.+t every now and again. It's not cool to compare the two but the difference between Lily and Deanna couldn't be more glaring. I know now that Deanna was a selfish self- centered man-eater who was thrilled at the idea of f.u.c.king a cop; something about a man with a gun did it for her.

There's no telling if she would've cheated had I not left the force or not or if that was in her all along, but what I do know is that once was enough. ”Speak of the f.u.c.king demon.” I was not at all pleased to see Deanna's car outside my place so early in the morning. Anytime I had to deal with her a.s.s was bad but this early could only spell trouble.

I hopped off the bike and took off my helmet before running my hand over my head. Holly was okay or she would've called me instead of sitting out here like this. Walking over to the car I schooled myself for whatever bulls.h.i.+t she was going to throw my way today. Coming up on the back pa.s.senger side I bent down to the window to see my kid. Her bright half sleepy smile was all I needed to rea.s.sure me that my little princess was okay.

Deanna saw me and got out of the car while I helped Holly out of the car seat. She clung to my neck in that way that made my heart hurt, and made me wish I could be there for her always. I brushed the momentary sadness aside and headed for the house. No point in going there, I just have to make it up to her in other ways.

I put her down on the top step before turning to her mother to see what it was that she wanted. She pulled on my pants leg to get my attention.

”Dad did you see Stephanie?” That's what she was trying to say but it came out in her baby speak. ”Yeah princess I saw her, you're gonna see her again this weekend when we go to Jake's.

”Yeah.” She squealed and clapped her hands in glee making me smile in wonder. Sometimes it was hard to believe that I had done this, that she was actually a part of me. f.u.c.king miracle.

Her mother was twitching from foot to foot and huffing. What the f.u.c.k was her problem now? Ever since her last attempt to crawl back into my bed and I'd rebuffed her a.s.s she's been getting worst and worst. I ignored her a.s.s and concentrated on my kid.

”Give me a minute lil bit let me tell Lily I'm home.” I opened the door and walked in, the scent of coffee and breakfast hit me as soon as I got through the door. I found her in the kitchen puttering around with the music blasting as she turned what would most likely be turkey bacon on the grill.