Part 33 (1/2)
”Aw, no, dearie! n.o.body ever made John Blaney do nothing he didn't want to do. He's dead now and can't take up for hisself, but he was hard as nails--even if he was my brother-in-law.”
”'Sh-h-h, Cottie, little sister.”
”I always say, Della, Gawd knows I ain't got a cinch! I hate the factory like I hate a green devil, and you know what it is to live around maw's d.o.g.g.i.n' and abuse, but it's like I tole Joe the other night: I wouldn't marry the finest man livin' before I'd had my chance to try out what I had my heart set on. I told him he could save his breath. I'm goin' to take a chance on gettin' out of this dump--not on tyin' up to it.”
”Joe's a good boy, Cottie. He's a saint alongside of what John was.
Steady fellows and foremen ain't layin' around loose, dearie. He's a good boy, Cottie--none finer.”
”Della! You ain't--”
”No; I ain't urgin' you, Cottie. I ain't sayin' you're not right to hold off, but Joe's the finest boy in these parts, ain't he?”
”That ain't sayin' much. You wasn't a big-enough gambler, Della. You remember how I begged you the night before the wedding to hold off. I ain't goin' to make your mistake. You ought 'a' done what Lily done--took a chance. Tessie says her pictures were all pasted up outside of Indianapolis last week. Lily Divette in the 'Twinkling Belles.' If Lily Maloney with her baby face and--”
”I--I stuck to John to the end, though--didn't I, Cottie? n.o.body can say I didn't stick to him--can they, Cottie?”
”No, no! Now don't go gettin' excited again, dearie.”
”Oh, Gawd, Gawd, Cottie. I--I feel--so--so--queer!”
”Yes, darlin', I know!”
The cryptic quiescence of death hung over the unpainted pine bedchamber and chilled their skin like damp in a cave seeps through clothing. From the far side of the bed a lamp wavered against a tin reflector and danced through their hair like firelight in copper; wind galloped over the flat country, shook the box-shaped house, and whinnied on every flue.
Cottie, whose head was Tiziano's Flora yet more radiant, held her sister's equally radiant head close to her warm bosom, and through the calico of her open-at-the-throat waist, her heart pumped the organ-prelude of Life--Life in the midst of Death.
”Della darlin'--don't--don't be afraid to talk to me. Ain't--ain't I your--sister?”
”What--what--”
”I--I know--what you're thinkin', Della--”
”'Sh-h-h; not now!”
”You're thinkin' that you're--that you're _free_, now, darlin'--free--ain't you?”
”'Sh-h-h-h!”
”Free, darlin'--think--there ain't nothin' can hold you! A hundred dollars' benefit-money and--”
”Gawd, Cottie--Cottie--'sh-h-h! Him layin' in there dead! It--it ain't no time to talk about that now. Anyways, you're the one to go. I'll stay with maw.”
Her words tumbled, and her tones were galvanized with fear and fear's offspring, superst.i.tion. She glanced toward the half-open door with eyes two shades too dark.
”No, no, Della; you're the oldest. You go first, and I--I'll stick it out with maw till--she's gettin' feebler every day, Delia, and I'll be joinin' you some day not far off.”
”'Sh-h-h; it ain't right. I--I'll give her--half the benefit-money, Cottie, but it's a sin to--”
”You and folks make me sick. If the devil hisself was to die you'd snivel and bury him in priest's robes. What John _was_ he _was_--dyin'