Volume II Part 114 (1/2)

LETTERS OF BERNARD BARTON.

The two following letters were written to Byron in 1814, by Bernard Barton, the Quaker poet (see Letter 238, [Foot]note 1):--

I

”Woodbridge, Suffolk, Apl. 14th, 1814.

”MY LORD,--I received this morning the reply with which your Lords.h.i.+p honour'd my last, and now avail myself of the permission you have so kindly granted to state as briefly as I can the circ.u.mstances which have induced me to make this application, and the extent of my wishes respecting your Lords.h.i.+p's interference.

”Eight years since, I went into business in this place as a Merchant. I was then just of age, and, shortly after, married. The business in which I was engaged was of a very precarious Nature; and after vainly trying for 4 Years to make the best of it, I was compell'd to relinquish it altogether. Just then, to add to my distress, I lost my best, my firmest, my tenderest friend--the only being for whose sake I ever desir'd wealth, and the only one who could have cheer'd the gloom of Poverty. My Capital being a borrow'd one, I returned it as far as I could to the person who had lent it. Since that time, my Lord, I have been struggling to make the best of a Clerks.h.i.+p of 80 per ann., out of which I have to meet every expence, and still to maintain a respectable appearance in a Place where I have resided under different circ.u.mstances. Had I enter'd my present Situation free of all debts, I should have made it an inviolable rule to have limited my expenditure to my Income; but beginning in debt, compell'd by peculiar circ.u.mstances to mix with those much superior to myself, I have gone on till I find it quite impossible to go on any longer, and I am compelled to seek for some asylum where, by rigid frugality and indefatigable exertion, I may free myself from my present humiliating embarra.s.sments; but while I am here the thing seems impracticable. Your Lords.h.i.+p will naturally inquire why I do not avail myself of the influence of those friends by whom I am known. As you have, my Lord, done me the honour to encourage me to state my position frankly, I will, without hesitation, inform you. I am, nominally at least, a Quaker. The persons to whom I should, in my present difficulties, naturally look for a.s.sistance are among the most respectable of that body; but my attachments to literary and metaphysical studies, and a line of conduct not compatible with the strictness of Quaker discipline, have, I am afraid, brought me into disrepute with those to whom I should otherwise have confided my situation. Were I to disclose it, it would only be consider'd as a fit judgment on me for my scepticism and infidelity.

”This, my Lord, is a brief but faithful statement of my present situation; it is, as I before told your Lords.h.i.+p, in every respect an untenable one. I must relinquish it, and throw myself an outcast on society. _Can you, will you_, my Lord, exert _your influence_ to save me from irretrievable ruin? Can you, my Lord, in any possible way, afford employment to me? Can you take me into your service--a young man, not totally dest.i.tute of talents, eager to exert them, and willing to do anything or be anything in his power? If you can, my Lord, I will promise to serve you not servilely, but faithfully in any manner you shall point out. Do not, I beg of you, my Lord, refuse my application the moment you peruse it. The mouse, you know, once was able to show its grat.i.tude to the lion; and it may be in my power, if your Lords.h.i.+p will but give me the opportunity, to evince my deep grat.i.tude for any kindness you may show me, not by _words_, but _deeds_. Be a.s.sur'd you will not have cause to repent any interest you have taken or may take in my concerns. For the civility you shewed me on a former occasion, my Lord, I felt, as I ought, much indebted; but infinitely more for the generosity of feeling and soundness of judgment which dictated the letter you then did me the honour to address to me. Ever since then I have entertain'd the highest opinion both of your head and your heart.

Is it, then, strange, my Lord, that, surrounded by difficulties, perplexed at every step I take, I should look up to your Lords.h.i.+p for _advice_, and, if possible, for a.s.sistance? Be the consequences what they may, I have ventur'd on the presumption of doing so. If I have taken too great a liberty, I beg you, my Lord, to forgive me, and let the tale of my perplexities and my misfortunes, my impertinence and its punishment, be alike forgotten; it can, at any rate, only give your Lords.h.i.+p the trouble of reading a letter. If, on the other hand, your Lords.h.i.+p can in any way realize the hopes I have long enthusiastically cherished, why, the 'blessing of him who is ready to perish shall fall on you.' Be the event what it may, '_Crede Byron_' is, your Lords.h.i.+p sees, my motto.

”I am, my Lord,

”Your Lords.h.i.+p's very obt. servt,

”B. BARTON.

”P. S.--I shall wait with no common anxiety to see whether your Lords.h.i.+p will so far forgive this intrusion as to answer it.”

2.

”Woodbridge, April 15th, 1814.

”My Lord,--I should be truly sorry if my importunity should defeat its own purpose, and, instead of interesting your Lords.h.i.+p on my behalf, should make you regret the indulgence you have already granted me; but I really feel as if I had staked every remaining hope on the cast of the die, and, therefore, before it is thrown, I wish, my Lord, to make one or two more observations.

”Although in my last, which, as I before observed, was hastily written, I express'd my wish to be allow'd, _in some capacity or other_, to serve your Lords.h.i.+p, yet I am not so foolish as to think of fastening myself on you, my Lord, _bon gre ou malgre_. One reason for my expressing that wish, was an idea that your Lords.h.i.+p might go abroad before long; and, added to my own wish to see something of the world on which fate has thrown me, it occurred to me at the moment, that on such an occasion the services of one who is warmly attach'd to you, perhaps _romantically_, for I know nothing of your Lords.h.i.+p but by your writings, might be acceptable.

”But, my Lord, although I have thus alluded to what would most gratify my own wishes, it was not intended to dictate to you the manner in which you might promote my interest. If your Lords.h.i.+p's superior judgment and greater knowledge of the world can suggest anything else for my consideration, it shall receive every attention.