Part 3 (1/2)
'He closed the door softly, and staggered up to his own chamber.
'What was there in that look that went so home to the heart of the stern father--in those loving, broken words of the poor abused boy? If they did not stagger the conviction of his guilt, they made him feel most unhappy. Had he acted well, or wisely, or like a Christian? Was the punishment that he had inflicted--so harsh and degrading to a sensitive mind--likely to produce the desired effect? He could not answer the question in a manner at all satisfactory to his mind, or still the sharp upbraidings of conscience; and flinging himself upon his knees, he buried his face in his hands, and offered up to G.o.d an agony of repentant tears.
CHAPTER III.
'George Leatrim's first thought was to go to his mother; but then she was ill, and happily unconscious of what had taken place. Besides, like his father, she might believe the evidence that Ralph had witnessed against him, and he had not the fort.i.tude to bear that. As his pa.s.sion subsided, he had courage to recall the painful events of the past hour, and to acknowledge that the circ.u.mstances by which he was surrounded were suspicious enough to condemn him in any court of law, and must be maddening to a proud, sensitive man like his father. Struggling with the shame and agony of his position, he could not recognise this before, or admit that both his father and Ralph might be deceived.
'He had never felt the severe corporeal punishment during its infliction. His mind was in too violent a state of agitation to care for bodily suffering; but now that he was alone, the fiery indignation that had upheld his spirit in the hour of his humiliation flickered and went out, and the sense of degradation and intolerable wrong alone remained.
'He remembered how his father had spurned him from his feet, had called him a thief and a liar, and witnessed unmoved the infliction of a cruel punishment, administered by the hand of the menial who had accused him of the crime; and had ordered him from his presence without one word of pity or affection.
'These after-thoughts were terrible. George felt that he had not deserved this severity, and the tears which pride had restrained while under the weight of Ralph Wilson's unsparing hand now burst forth in a torrent, and he wept until the lamp of life flickered to extinction in his panting breast.
'The mother whom he wished to save from the knowledge of his degradation awoke suddenly from a short and disturbed sleep. She heard the sobs and moans in the adjoining room, and recognised the voice of her son. The next moment saw her seated upon his bed, her arms around the weeping boy. All sense of her own sickness, of her weak state, was gone. She was only conscious of his intense mental agony.
'He placed his aching head upon her faithful breast, he wound his trembling arms around her slender neck, and poured into her sympathizing ear the terrible tale of his wrongs,--how he had been falsely accused of the commission of a heinous crime, his protestations of innocence disregarded, and had been sentenced by his father to receive a punishment more galling to him than death; that he had been tempted to rebel against his father's authority, and curse the hand that smote him--to hate where he had loved with such fond idolatry.
'The good mother listened attentively, and weighed every circ.u.mstance.
The frankness of his unreserved confession convinced her of its truth.
When all the sad tale was told, she took him in her pitying arms, and told him that, though all the world should believe him guilty, she felt that he was innocent from her very soul.
'”G.o.d bless you, dearest, best mother,” sobbed the poor boy, covering her hand with kisses. ”I knew you would not condemn me. I never have, nor ever will give you cause to be ashamed of me. But my father--it seems unnatural, monstrous that he should believe me guilty at once. I shall never get over it. It crushes my heart; it presses out my life.
If I could only convince him of my innocence I could die in peace.”
'”Don't talk of dying, George. Leave your cause to G.o.d. He can bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and make the black cloud that now envelopes you as clear as the noonday. Let me go to your father, George; I think I can convince him of your innocence, and that he has acted too hastily.”
'Exhausted as he was, George grasped his mother's hand, and held her fast. ”I could not see him again while this conflict is going on in my mind--not while he looks upon me as a felon, a disgrace to his name and family. The brand must be removed from my brow before I meet him face to face. I want to love him as I once loved him. I feel as if I never could love him again.”
'Again the voice became choked and hoa.r.s.e and the lad gave way to a fresh agony of tears. After a while he grew calmer, and said in a whisper: ”Mother, pray for me--pray with me, that I may bear this cross with Christian fort.i.tude, and be taught to forgive my enemies--yes, as He, the dear Master, forgave them,” he continued, reverently folding his hands together, ”and gave His life for sinners like me, and died, the just for the unjust.”
'They prayed long and earnestly, that sorrowful mother and son. At length a light broke over the pallid countenance of the youth; he raised his head slowly and with difficulty from that dear mother's supporting arms, and gazed into her tearful eyes with a look of unutterable love. ”Mother, blessed mother,” he whispered, ”the agony is over; I feel calm and happy now. Our prayers are accepted; the divine peace which Christ bestowed upon His disciples, His last, best gift, is filling my heart, and the anger I felt at my dear father's unjust suspicions is lost in pity and love. My sorrows are over; his, alas!
are to come. To you, dearest mother, I leave the task of reconciliation. You will vindicate my memory, and teach him to respect me in death. And that miserable old man--tell him to deal gently with him for my sake. Tell him that I forgive him, that he must forgive him also, and lead the sinner back to G.o.d.” He paused, and panted for breath. ”George,” cried the terrified mother, ”you are ill; let me send for Dr. Aldis, and call your father.”
'”Too late! who can heal a broken heart? It will soon be over. G.o.d is dealing very gently with me, beloved mother. Let the thought console you that you have a son in heaven. But my father, my dear, unhappy father, may G.o.d comfort him! It grows very dark; I cannot see your sweet face, mother, but all around is joy and peace.”
'A shade pa.s.sed over the n.o.ble young face, a tremor shook the slight frame of the dying boy, and the enfranchized spirit, throwing off the last coil of clay, followed the unseen messenger to the land of the hereafter.
'A shriek, a loud, piercing shriek, rang through the silent house. Dr.
Leatrim started from his knees and rushed up-stairs. The next moment he was standing beside the bed of his son, upon which his wife was sitting with the head of the dead boy in her lap.
'The Doctor staggered like a drunken man, and held to the bed-post for support. He comprehended the awful truth at a glance, but the conviction was too terrible to receive at once. It was an illusion of the senses, a ghastly vision; it was too dreadful to be a hard, everyday fact. He had poured out his soul to G.o.d; had deplored to the great Judge that his sentence had been too severe, that kindness would have done more to soften the proud heart of the boy than the violent course he had adopted. He had just made up his mind to go to George, and once more address him with love and confidence, when that horrid cry, wrung from a mother's breaking heart, closed the doors of mercy for ever, and left him desolate and childless.
'”Mary,” he gasped out, ”do not say that he is dead! It is but sleep or exhaustion. It cannot be that he is dead?”
'His wife was quite calm now. With a mournful smile she pointed to the beautiful face of the dead. ”The seal of G.o.d is on that brow. Your severity could only destroy the body; G.o.d has claimed the soul. I cannot weep for him; he is happier than his parents. Can you now look in that pure face and believe him guilty?”
'”O woman, great is your faith. But the proof--how can I do away with the proof of his crime?”