Part 23 (2/2)

Silk nodded again. ”I don't see you now.”

”I know.”

”Sometimes you must go out through this door, though. Don't you?”

”No.”

Her flat negative bore in its train the illusion that she was standing beside him, her lips almost brus.h.i.+ng his ear. He groped for her, but his hand found only empty air. ”Where are you now? You can see me, you say. I'd like to see you.”

”I'll have to get back in.”

”Get back in through the window?”

There was no reply. He crossed the room to the window and looked out, leaning on the sill; there was no one on the roof of the conservatory, no one but the talus in sight on the grounds beyond. His rope and limb lay where he had left them. Devils (according to legends no one at the schola had really credited) could pa.s.s unseen, for devils were spirits of the lower air, presumably personifications of de-

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structive winds. ”Where are you now?” he asked again. ”Please come out. I'd like to see you.”

Nothing. Thelxiepeia provided the best protection from devils, according to the Writings, but this was Phaea's day, not hers. Silk pet.i.tioned Phaea, Thelxiepeia, and for good measure Scylla, in quick succession before saying, ”I take it you don't want to talk to me, but I need to talk to you. I need your help, whoever you are.”

In Blood's ballroom, the orchestra had struck up ”Brave Guards of the Third Brigade.” Silk had the feeling that no one was dancing, that few if any of Blood's guests were even listening. Outside, the talus waited at the gate, its steel arms unnaturally lengthened, both its hands upon the

ring-Turning his back on the window, Silk scanned the room. A shapeless ma.s.s in a corner (one that he had not traversed when he had felt his way along the walls to the door) might conceivably have been a huddled woman. With no very great confidence he said, ”I see you.”

”To fourteen more my sword I pledged,” sang die violins with desperate gaiety. Beardless lieutenants in brilliant green dress uniforms, twirling smiling beauties with plumes in their hair-but they were not there, Silk felt certain, no more than the mysterious young woman whom he himself was trying to address was here.

He crossed to the dark shape in the corner and nudged it with the toe of his shoe, then crouched, put aside his hatchet, and explored it with both hands-a ragged blanket and a thin, foul-smelling mattress. Picking up his hatchet again, he rose and faced the empty room. ”I'd like to see you,” he repeated. ”But if you won't let me-if you won't even talk to me any more-I'm going to leave.” As Soon as he had spoken, he reflected that he had probably told her precisely what she wanted to hear.

He stepped to the window. ”If you require my help, you

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must say so now.” He waited, silently reciting a formula of blessing, then traced the sign of addition in the darkness before him. ”Good-bye, then.”

Before he could turn to go, she rose before him like smoke, naked and thinner than the most miserable beggar. Although she was a head shorter, he would have backed away from her if he could; his right heel thumped the wall below the window.

”Here I am. Can you see me now?” In the dim skylight from the window her starved and bloodless face seemed almost a skull. ”My name's Mucor.”

Silk nodded and swallowed, half afraid to give his own, not liking to lie. ”Mine's Silk.” Whether he succeeded or was apprehended, Blood would leam his ident.i.ty. ”Patera Silk. I'm an augur, you see.” He might die, perhaps; but if he did his ident.i.ty would no longer matter.

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