Part 37 (1/2)
”Oh, my love, relent!” she cried. ”Do not be so hard on me--indeed, I have done no wrong. Be merciful! I am your wife; your name is so mighty, so n.o.ble, it will overshadow me. Who notices the weed that grows under the shadow of the kingly oak? Oh, my husband, let me stay! I love you so dearly--let me stay!”
The trial was so hard and cruel that great drops fell from his brow and his lips trembled.
”My darling, it is utterly impossible. We have been deceived. The consequences of that deceit must be met. I owe duties to the dead as well as to the living. I cannot transgress the rules of my race. Within these time-honored walls no woman can remain who is not of stainless lineage and stainless repute. Do not urge me further.”
”Norman,” she said, in a trembling voice, ”you are doing wrong in sending me away. You cannot outrage Heaven's laws with impunity. It is Heaven's law that husband and wife should cleave together. You cannot break it.”
”I have no wish to break it. I say simply that I shall love you until I die, but that you must be my wife in name only.”
”It is bitterly hard,” she observed; and then she looked up at him suddenly. ”Norman,” she said, ”let me make one last appeal to you. I know the stigma is terrible--I know that the love-story must be hateful to you--I know that the vague sense of disgrace which clings to you even now is almost more than you can bear; but, my darling, since you say you love me so dearly, can you not bear this trial for my sake, if in everything else I please you--if I prove myself a loving, trustful, truthful wife, if I fulfill all my duties so as to reflect honor on you; if I prove a worthy mistress of your household?”
”I cannot,” he replied, hoa.r.s.ely; but there must have been something in his face from which she gathered hope, for she went on, with a ring of pa.s.sionate love in her voice.
”If, after we had been married, I had found out that you had concealed something from me, do you think that I should have loved you less?”
”I do not think you would, Madaline; but the present case is different--entirely different; it is not for my own sake, but for the honor of my race. Better a thousand times that my name should die out than that upon it there should be the stain of crime!”
”But, Norman--this is a weak argument, I know--a woman's argument--still, listen to it, love--who would know my secret if it were well kept?”
”None; but I should know it,” he replied, ”and that would be more than sufficient. Better for all the world to know than for me. I would not keep such a secret. I could not. It would hang over my head like a drawn sword, and some day the sword would fall. My children, should Heaven send any to me, might grow up, and then, in the height of some social or political struggle, when man often repeats against his fellow man all that he knows of the vilest and the worst, there might be thrown into their faces the fact that they were descended from a felon. It must not be; a broken heart is hard to bear--injured honor is perhaps harder.”
She drew up her slender figure to its full height, her lovely face glowed with a light he did not understand.
”You may be quite right,” she said. ”I cannot dispute what you say. Your honor may be a sufficient reason for throwing aside the wife of less than twelve hours, but I cannot see it. I cannot refute what you have said, but my heart tells me you are wrong.”
”Would to Heaven that I thought the same!” he rejoined, quickly. ”But I understand the difficulties of the case, my poor Madaline, and you do not.”
She turned away with a low, dreary sigh, and the light died from her face.
”Madaline,” said Lord Arleigh, quietly, ”do not think, my darling, that you suffer most--indeed, it is not so. Think how I love you--think how precious you are to me--and then ask yourself if it is no pain to give you up.”
”I know it is painful,” she continued, sadly, ”but, Norman, if the decision and choice rested with me as they do with you, I should act differently.”
”I would, Heaven knows, if I could,” he said, slowly.
”Such conduct is not just to me,” she continued, her face flus.h.i.+ng with the eagerness of her words. ”I have done no wrong, no harm, yet I am to be driven from your house and home--I am to be sent away from you, divorced in all but name. I say it is not fair, Norman--not just. All my womanhood rises in rebellion against such a decree. What will the world say of me? That I was weighed in the balance and found wanting--that I was found to be false or light, due doubtless to my being lowly born. Do you think I have no sense of honor--no wish to keep my name and fame stainless? Could you do me a greater wrong, do you think, than to put me away, not twelve hours after our marriage, like one utterly unworthy?”
He made no answer. She went on in her low, pa.s.sionate, musical voice.
”When I read in history the story of Anne of Cleves, I thought it cruel to be sought in marriage, brought over from another land, looked at, sneered at, and dismissed; but, Norman, it seems to me her fate was not so cruel as mine.”
”You are wrong,” he cried. ”I hold you in all reverence, all honor, in deepest respect. You are untouched by the disgrace attached to those nearest to you. It is not that. You know that, even while I say we must part, I love you from the very depths of my heart.”
”I can say no more,” she moaned, wringing her hands. ”My own heart, my woman's instinct, tells me you are wrong. I cannot argue with you, nor can I urge anything more.”
She turned from him. He would have given much to take her into his arms, and kissing her, bid her stay.