Part 21 (1/2)
He nodded, and continued to stare out of the window. At length he spoke.
”My wife is a woman who has suffered a great deal, Dr. Harden. I have never had enough money to send her to health resorts, and she has always refused to avail herself of any inst.i.tutional help. For the last year she has been confined to a room on the top floor of our house--a nice, pleasant room--and it has been an understood thing between Dr. Sykes and myself that her malady was to be given a convenient name. In fact, we have called it a weak heart. You understand, of course.”
”Perfectly.”
”I have always been led to expect that the end was inevitable,” he continued, speaking with sudden rapidity. ”Under such circ.u.mstances I made certain plans. I am a careful man, Dr. Harden, and I look ahead and lay my plans.” He stopped abruptly and turned to face me. ”Is there any truth in what you told me the other day?”
I nodded. A curiously haggard expression came over him. He stepped swiftly towards me and caught my arm.
”Does the germ cure disease?”
”Of course. Your wife is now immortal. You need not be alarmed, Mr.
Clutterbuck. She is immortal. Before her lies a future absolutely free from suffering. She will rapidly regain her normal health and strength.
Provided she avoids accidents, your wife will live for ever.”
”My wife will live forever?” he repeated hoa.r.s.ely. ”Then what will happen to me?”
”You, too, will live for ever,” I said calmly. ”Please do not grasp my arm so violently.”
He drew back. He was extremely pale, and there were beads of perspiration on his brow.
”Are you married?” he asked.
”No.”
”Have you any idea what all this means to me if what you say is true?”
he exclaimed. He drew his hand across his eyes. ”I am mad to believe you for an instant. But she is better--there is no denying that. Good G.o.d, if it is true, what a tragedy you have made of human lives!”
He remained standing in the middle of the room, and I, not comprehending, gazed at him. Then, of a sudden, he picked up his hat, and muttering something, dashed out and vanished.
I heard the front door bang. Perfectly calm and undisturbed, I rejoined Sarakoff in the waiting-room. The incident of Mr. Clutterbuck pa.s.sed totally from my mind, and I began to reflect on certain problems arising out of the visit of the Home Secretary.
CHAPTER XVIII
IMMORTAL LOVE
On the same afternoon Miss Annot paid me a visit. I was still sitting in the waiting-room, and Sarakoff was with me. My mind had been deeply occupied with the question of the larger beliefs that we hold. For it had come to me with peculiar force that law and order, and officials like the Home Secretary, are concerned only with the small beliefs of humanity, with the burdensome business of material life. As long as a man dressed properly, walked decently and paid correctly, he was accepted, in spite of the fact that he might firmly believe the world was square. No one worried about those matters. We judge people ultimately by how they eat and drink and get up and sit down. What they say is of little importance in the long run. If we examine a person professionally, we merely ask him what day it is, where he is, what is his name and where he was born. We watch him to see if he washes, undresses and dresses, and eats properly. We ask him to add two and two, and to divide six by three, and then we solemnly give our verdict that he is either sane or insane.
The enormity of this revelation engrossed me with an almost painful activity of thought.
I gazed across at Sarakoff and wondered what appalling gulf divided our views on supreme things. What view did he really take of women? Did he or did he not think that the planets and stars were inhabited? Did he believe in the evolution of the soul like Mr. Thornduck?
A kind of horror possessed me as I stared at him and reflected that these questions had never entered my consciousness until that moment. I had lived with him and dined with him and worked with him, and yet hitherto it would have concerned me far more if I had seen him tuck his napkin under his collar or spit on the carpet.... What laughable little folk we were! I, who had always seen man as the last and final expression of evolution, now saw him as the stumbling, crawling, incredibly stupid, result of a tentative experiment--a first step up a ladder of infinitive length.
Whilst I was immersed in the humiliation of these thoughts Miss Annot entered. She wore a dark violet coat and skirt and a black hat. I noticed that her complexion, usually somewhat muddy, was perfectly clear, though of a marble pallor. We greeted each other quietly and I introduced Sarakoff.
”So you are an Immortal, Alice,” I said smiling. She gazed at me.