Book 2 - Chapter 19 (1/2)

”I doona understand.”

”I've heard that the most twisted vampires have subjugated that need. Blood is all they desire, and those are the ones that decimate villages and drink to kill with such greed...” She stared past him. ”To not be able to was terrifying for me. Every day I feared I would be like them.”

”No' able to.” He brushed her hair back from her forehead. ”I dinna know. I thought you had some kind of Valkyrie control over yourself...I dinna know it was involuntary.”

She must be using a gallon of blood blus.h.i.+ng tonight.

”It's no' surprising you could no'.”

She looked at him with hurt.

”No, no, if you were young and dinna know how and then it dinna happen...you would start to feel pressure each time.”

She nodded, stunned he saw so much. That was exactly what had happened.

”You will never be like those vampires. Emma, you are nothing like them.”

”How can you be so certain?”

”You are kind and gentle. You feel compa.s.sion. I would no' want you so strongly if I dinna know you are these things.”

”But the Instinct forces you to want me. You said before that you had to keep me with you.”

”Is that what you think?” He cupped her face. ”The Instinct guides me to what I want and need. It directed me to the one woman I could make a life with. No matter what, it would always be you for me, but without the Instinct, I would never have recognized you as my mate because you are other. I would no' have given us a chance - and never forced you to.”

”You say all of this like my mind's made up.”

His expression grew grave, his eyes bleak. ”Is it no'?”

”Well, what if it wasn't?”

He palmed the back of her neck, his eyes flickering blue. ”You canna speak lightly of this.”

”Has it never happened?” she whispered.

”Aye. Bowen.”

She wriggled from his grasp, curling up against the headboard. ”I thought you said his mate died.”

”She did. As she ran from him.”

”Oh, my G.o.d. What did he do?”

”He became void of feeling, more a walking corpse than Demestriu even. You would doom me to that.”

”But if you want to build a life with me, mine involves my family. You said you'd take me there. Why not now? Just get it over with.”

”I have to do something first.”

”You're going to get revenge, aren't you?”

”Aye.”

”It's that important to you?”

”I canna be right without it.”

”What Demestriu did to you must've been awful.”

A muscle ticked in his cheek. ”I will no' tell you, so doona play to find out.”

”You always want me to tell you my secrets, but you won't share one that affects both of us.”

”I will never share this.”

Giving him her side, she hugged her legs tighter to her chest. ”You want your revenge more than you want me.”

”I will no' be what you need until I set this right.”

”People who go after Demestriu don't come back.”

”I did,” he said smugly, with all his considerable arrogance.

Could he be lucky twice? He couldn't not come back. ”So, do you plan to leave me here when you go mete out your retribution?”

”Aye, I would trust your safety only to my brother Garreth.”

”Leaving the little lady back at the keep?” She laughed, but it was a bitter sound. ”Sometimes I'm stunned by what a time capsule you are.” He frowned, obviously not understanding her. ”Even if I could be convinced to kick my heels up here, this plan has a flaw. The coven is busy with their own difficulties, but there's only so much time before they will come for me. Or worse.”

”What do you mean, or worse?”

”They'll find a way to hurt you. Find a weakness and exploit it like a scourge. They just won't stop. Isn't there a group of Lykae living in the next parish over? My aunt, the one I love best in the world, could attack them with a viciousness that would stagger you.”

He ground his teeth. ”You know what bothers me most about what you said? I should be the one you love best in the world. Me.”

She gasped at the words and the surprise feeling that flashed through her all the way to her toes.

”And of the other, if anyone in my clan is weak enough to be captured or killed by wee fey...women, then they needed to be culled from the pack anyway.”

That statement brought her crash-landing back into the conversation. ”They are small and fey looking. They also kill vampires regularly. My aunt Kaderin has destroyed more than four hundred of them.”

His lips curled. ”An auntie tells you tales.”

”There's proof.”

”Did they sign a paper right before she worked their heads off?”

She sighed, and when she didn't answer, he leaned forward and squeezed her foot. ”When Kaderin kills, she snaps out a fang - to be strung with the others. The line runs the length of her room.”

”All you're doing is endearing her to me. Remember, I'll see every one of them dead.”

”How can you say that when I am one? Or part of one. Whatever you want to call it! One of them is my father.” He opened his mouth to speak, but she said, ”You can't spare him only. Because I don't know who he was...or is. That's why I was in Paris searching for information.”

”What of your mother?”

”I know more about what she was doing a thousand years ago than I do about when she was pregnant with me. We do know that she lived in Paris for some time with my father. Just the fact that I insisted on traveling alone should tell you how important it was to me.”

”Then I will help you. When I return and after you see your family, we will solve this.”

He was so a.s.sured it would be done. So says the king.

”What was your mother's name? I know the names of about twenty or so Valkyrie. Even know some legends told around a fire. Was she another bloodthirsty witch like Furie? Does she have a trailing name like Myst the Coveted or Daniela the Ice Maiden? The beheader, perhaps? The castrator?”

She sighed, weary of this. ”Her name was Helen. Just Helen.”

”I never heard of her.” He grew quiet, then said, ”And your last name? Troy? At least your aunts have a sense of humor.”

Her gaze flickered over his face.

”Oh, no. No' going to believe that one. Helen of Troy was human at best. Most likely a myth or a character in a play.”

She shook her head. ”Nope. She was Helen of Troy by way of the country of Lydia. She's no more a myth than my aunt Atalanta in New Zealand or my aunt Mina, of Dracula legend, in Seattle. They came first. The warped stories come after.”

”But...Helen? At least that explains your looks,” he muttered, clearly shocked, then frowned. ”Why in the h.e.l.l would she stoop to a vampire?”

She flinched. ”Listen to your disgust. Stoop to my father, you mean.” She grasped her forehead with her fingers. ”What if he is Demestriu? Have you ever thought about that?”

”Demestriu? I know that is no' the case. I will help you find your father - you will have your questions answered. I vow it. But you are no' his.”

”How can you be so sure?”

”You're gentle and beautiful and sane. His issue would be like him.” His eyes grew blue. ”Malevolent, filthy parasites that belong in h.e.l.l.”

A chill crept up her spine. To hate so deeply...it would have to spill over to any vampire. ”We're kidding ourselves, Lachlain. This will never work between us,” she said, in a tone that even she recognized was utterly defeated.

His brows drew together at her words as if astounded she felt that way. But how could he be?

”Yes, it will. We've trials to overcome, but they will be overcome.”

When he said it like that, when she couldn't sense even the minutest hint of doubt, she almost felt herself believing disparate beings like themselves could make this a go. Almost. She ventured a rea.s.suring expression for him, but didn't think she pulled it off.

He suddenly rasped, ”Christ, la.s.s, I will no' argue with you when I've been too long to find you.” He reached forward to cup her face with both hands. ”Let's speak of this no more. I have something I want to show you.”

He lifted her from the bed, setting her on her feet, then began leading her to the bedroom door though she was naked.

”I need to put on a nightgown!”

”No one's here.”

”Lachlain! I'm not walking around w.i.l.l.y-nilly naked. Okay?”