Part 7 (2/2)
Moran looked and found him. ”Janeel. You have something to say?”
The boy coughed, cleared his throat. ”Sir, if it would help the training, my father knows a true healer.”
Moran said flatly, ”While you are training there will beno plate armor and no healers.”
He let that sink in. ”The greatest favor that I can do the Knights of Solamnia is to kill any of you who can't defend yourselves, before you fail in the field, where other knights are depending on you. When a novice dies, I offer thanks to Paladine that it happened here and not later. That is why” - he lowered his voice slightly - ”I give you every chance to die that I can manufacture, before you are even squires.”
Moran moved to the door at the back of the room. ”I'll be back. If any of you want to leave, do it now.” He eyed Saliak, who already had the look of a leader. ”Don't shame anyone into staying. That's a little like murder.”
He walked out and went to reinspect the drill equipment.
A short time later he walked back in and went straight to the front. When he turned around, he saw a group of frightened but determined novices, who had just learned that honor could be fatal but were willing to be honorable.
Where Tarli had been, he saw an empty s.p.a.ce.
He was relieved, both for the boy and for himself, but he also felt a sudden, sharp disappointment that only the Mask kept him from showing.
”Those of you who remain,” he said, ”may die for it.
Some in training, some in service, and some in combat - yes, even in these times.” The pain of this next story was duller after all these years. ”The knight I first squired for was killed in combat. I have vowed, since then, to prepare each novice well for an honorable life and a fitting death.”
They stared at him, and he let it sink in. For the first time, these boys were getting some sense of what their deaths might look like. They were also feeling, for the first time in their lives, grown-up courage.
He looked at the faces in front of him and felt relieved that Tarli had left; the boy had an innocence that would be destroyed by training - A terrible growl came from directly underneath Saliak, who let out a startled, high-pitched shriek, leapt straight up, and scrambled over the second and third row of benches to find the door. Most of the others jumped, but settled back embarra.s.sedly.
Saliak made it almost to the door before he turned to see. Smiling innocently, Tarli crawled out from under the front bench. He took a seat in Saliak's place.
Saliak slunk back and sat next to Tarli.
Tarli, bright eyed and grinning, said to Moran, ”Excuse me, Sire.”
The Mask stayed in place, not acknowledging what had happened, but Moran didn't miss the stony glares of the embarra.s.sed novices, or the utter hatred on the face of the humiliated Saliak.
Tarli, Tarli, Moran thought with a surprising rush of exasperated fondness, I couldn't have charted a rougher path for you than you just mapped out for yourself.
When cla.s.s was over, Rakiel stepped out from behind the dragon-covered tapestry. He'd been observing. ”What do you think of them?” he asked.
”The usual,” Moran answered shortly. ”Too much ambition, too much energy, not enough thought.”
Rakiel chuckled. ”And can you make them think?”
”Fear can.” Moran looked out the window, saw Saliaktake an ill-advised swipe at the back of Tarli's head. Tarli heard it coming - how, Moran couldn't imagine - and ducked the blow. Saliak stumbled. Tarli, stepping aside, let him fall. Saliak, without getting up, threw a well-aimed stone, which struck Tarli in the shoulder.
Moran turned from the window. ”This afternoon we start with the first lance drill. That would scare anyone.
They'll think about what they're doing, from then on.”
”Even that Tarli?” Rakiel shook his head. ”Face it, he's not fit to be here. He's a head shorter than any of them, and he's making enemies already.” He grimaced with distaste.
”Moreover, he plays jokes like a kender. Frankly, I don't think some paltry lance drill will make him think.”
” 'Some paltry drill'? Perhaps you should try it, then.”
Rakiel glanced at the tapestry; his eyes lingered on the lance points. ”Some other time. Draconniel tonight?”
Moran glanced pointedly at the niche behind the tapestry. ”I'll be observing the boys tonight. Over dinner? It would be my pleasure.” And, oddly, it was a pleasure. At least Rakiel was someone to talk to.
The oddity didn't escape Rakiel. ” 'Your pleasure'?
Really, Moran, you must be starved for company.”
HE WAS LONELY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS.
LIFE. HE SPENT MOST OF THE SUMMER WITH HER.
FIRST HE TOLD HER ABOUT PLACES HE'D.
VISITED, THEN HE TALKED ABOUT TALISIN AND.
HOW IT HAD HURT TO SEE HIM DIE IN SOME MINOR.
SKIRMISH WITH A BUNCH OF GOBLINS.
FINALLY HE TOLD HER HIS DEEPEST SECRET:.
THAT HE WAS NO LONGER SURE WHAT BEING A.
KNIGHT MEANT, AND THAT HE WONDERED.
WHETHER OR NOT, BY DOUBTING THE MEASURE,.
HE HAD VIOLATED THE OATH.
LORAINE LAUGHED, AS SHE OFTEN DID, AND.
TOLD HIM HE WAS TOO SERIOUS. HE TRIED TO.
RUFFLE HER HAIR, AS HE OFTEN DID, AND AS.
ALWAYS SHE DUCKED AWAY UNDER HIS HAND.
EVERY MORNING THAT SUMMER, MORAN WOKE.
UP ANGRY. AT NIGHT, ANGER TURNED TO Pa.s.sION,.
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