Chapter 87： Peters memories (2/2)

Peter quickly discovered the goal. James Potter, Sirius Black, and Remus Lupin are the three best people in his class. The three people who formed the small group are always radiant, maybe they need a attendant.

That's right, you can play this role perfectly.

Fortunately, they accepted themselves. The little dwarf Peter once felt hope and happiness for this. He thought he could be as good as them. No, at least, he could become a sense of existence and become proud of his mother. !

For this sense of existence and pride, Peter is willing to endure everything.

In the eyes of outsiders, he is a member of this small group. He is a friend of James, Sirius and Lupin.

But only the little dwarf Peter himself knows that he is just a follower, nothing more.

James sees him as an object that can show off his Quidditch talent at any time. His existence is only to better set off the courage and fearlessness of Sirius. Even the werewolf Lupin, he also looks down on himself.

Yes, the three of them have never regarded themselves as friends, but at best they are companions, but more often, he is still a follower who can be called at will.

Weakness to humble, humble to negligible, I am afraid this is also the idea of ​​all.

But Peter was once satisfied with this. He did not seek to stand in the middle of the stage and was noticed by everyone.

As long as there is an inconspicuous position in the corner, it is enough for him to meet.

He may not have found the courage he has been arrogant in this ancient college, but he relies on other means to gain the strength and honor he needs. Although not many, at the very least, the mother will not be disappointed.

I hope to have courage and chase strength, there is no exclusion.

Seven years of Hogwarts' career, finally let Peter understand that what he needs is not brave and courageous, but powerful and powerful.

If his father used that power, he would die so much, and his life with his mother would not be so bitter.

Powerful, this is what he has been pursuing.

After graduating, his three companions wanted to join the Phoenix to fight Voldemort. Peter wanted to refuse because he knew the strength of the two sides. But he did not dare, he was used to obeying the orders of three other people in the small group.

He didn't dare to say no to his companions. It also required strong courage. He never had such a thing. Besides, he is also afraid of disappointing his mother. He knows that his mother wants to join the Order of the Phoenix.

The mother’s expectations of herself have always made Peter feel pressure, but until that moment, he discovered that the pressure had become a heavy burden, and he could not breathe.

The little dwarf Peter remembers that day, when James, Sirius and Lupin were happy that they had defeated Voldemort's plot four times and again, he felt a little more fear.

He can feel the wrath of the Dark Lord. He can feel the hatred of the four people who don't even mention the name. It is like a never-ending nightmare.

Can't go on like this anymore. The little dwarf Peter can't see the benefits of continuing to fight against Voldemort himself. Even if he risked his life to do these things, only James, Sirius and Lupin will be honored.

Moreover, Dumbledore is gradually aging, his strength is declining; and Voldemort is in full swing, his strength and power are growing stronger day by day.

It's time to choose your own loyal camp. For a weak person, the most important thing is not to do something earth-shattering, but to make a wise choice.

He couldn't be as stupid as his father, and died for Dumbledore's life and obscurity. This stupid courage has no meaning other than leaving a heavy burden and sadness to his wife and children.

He wants to choose his own destiny, he wants to gain a powerful force.

The Dark Lord has promised him, as long as he unifies the magic world, he will gain power, power and status that were previously unimaginable.

Although the methods are different, as long as there is such a thing, the mother will be proud of herself again.

As for the embarrassment and self-blame of betraying his own companions, Peter never felt this way.

Anyway, in their eyes, they are just a follow-up, and they have always been.