Part 43 (1/2)

Peter grimaced. Then he looked thoughtful. ”It wouldn't have been any so remarkable for me at one time, Julie,” he said.

She shook her head. ”It would, my dear. You're not made for it.”

”What am I made for, then?”

She regarded him solemnly, and then relaxed into a smile. ”I haven't a notion, but not that. The thing is never to worry. You get what you're made for in the end, I think.”

”I wonder,” said Peter. ”Perhaps, but not always. The world's full of square pegs in round holes.”

”Then they're stodgy pegs, without anything in them. If I was a square peg I'd never go into a round hole.”

”Suppose there was no other hole to go into,” demanded Peter.

”Then I'd fall out, or I wouldn't go into any hole at all. I'd sooner be anything in the world than stodgy, Peter. I'd sooner be like that woman over there who is staring at me so!”

Peter glanced to one side, and then back at Julie. He was rather grave.

”Would you really?” he questioned.

The waiter brought the Chianti and poured out gla.s.ses. Julie waited till he had gone, and then lifted hers and looked at Peter across it. ”I would,” she said. ”I couldn't live without wine and excitement and song.

I'm made that way. Cheerio, Solomon!”

They drank to each other. Then: ”And love?” queried Peter softly.

Julie did not reply for a minute. She set her wine-gla.s.s down and toyed with the stem. Then she looked up at him under her eyelashes with that old daring look of hers, and repeated: ”And love, Peter. But real love, not stodgy humdrum liking, Peter. I want the love that's like the hot sun, and the wide, tossing blue sea east of Suez, and the nights under the moon where the real world wakes up and doesn't go to sleep, like it does in the country in the cold, hard North. Do you know,” she went on, ”though I love the cities, and bands, and restaurants, and theatres, and taxis, and nice clothes, I love best of all the places where one has none of these things. I once went with a shooting-party to East Africa, Peter, and that's what I love. I shall never forget the nights at Kilindini, with the fireflies dancing among the bushes, and the moon glistening on the palms as if they were wet, and the insects shrilling in the gra.s.s, and the hot, damp air. Or by day, up in the forest, camped under the great trees, with the strange few flowers and the silence, while the sun trickled through the leaves and made pools of light on the ground. Do you know, I saw the most beautiful thing I've ever seen or, I think, shall see in that forest.”

”What was that?” asked Peter, under her spell, for she was speaking like a woman in a dream.

”It was one day when we were marching. We came on a glade among the trees, and at the end of it, a little depression of damp green gra.s.s, only the gra.s.s was quite hidden beneath a sheet of blue--such blue, I can't describe it--that quivered and moved in the sun. We stood quite still, and then a boy threw a little stone. And the blue all rose in the air, silently, like magic. It was a swarm of hundreds and hundreds of blue b.u.t.terflies, Peter. Do you know what I did? I cried--I couldn't help it. It was too beautiful to see, Peter.”

A little silence fell between them. She broke it in another tone.

”And the natives--I love the natives. I just love the all but naked girls carrying the water up to the village in the evening, tall and straight, like Greek statues; and the men, in a string of beads and a spear. I wanted to go naked myself there--at least, I did till one day I tried it, and the sun skinned me in no time. But at least one needn't wear much--cool loose things, and it doesn't matter what one does or says.”

Peter laughed. ”Who was with you when you tried the experiment?” he demanded.

Julie threw her head back, and even the professional four glanced up and looked at her. ”Ah, wouldn't you like to know?” she laughed. ”Well, I won't tease you--two native girls if you want to know, that was all. The rest of the party were having a midday sleep. But I never can sleep at midday. I don't mind lying in a hammock or a deck-chair, and reading, but I can't sleep. One feels so beastly when one wakes up, doesn't one?”

Peter nodded, but steered her back. ”Tell me more,” he said. ”You wake something up in me; I feel as if I was born to be there.”

”Well,” she said reflectively, ”I don't know that anything can beat the great range that runs along our border in Natal. It's different, of course, but it's very wonderful. There's one pa.s.s I know--see here, you go up a wide valley with a stream that runs in and out, and that you have to cross again and again until it narrows and narrows to a small footpath between great kranzes. At first there are queer stunted trees and bushes about, with the stream, that's now a tiny thing of clear water, singing among them, and there the trees stop, and you climb up and up among the boulders, until you think you can do no more, and at the last you come out on the top.”

”And then?”

”You're in wonderland. Before you lies peak on peak, gra.s.s-grown and rocky, so clear in the rare, still air. There is nothing there but mountain and rock and gra.s.s, and the blue sky, with perhaps little clouds being blown across it, and a wind that's cool and vast--you feel it fills everything. And you look down the way you've come, and there's all Natal spread out at your feet like a tiny picture, lands and woods and rivers, till it's lost in the mist of the distance.”

She ceased, staring at her wine-gla.s.s. At last the chatter of the place broke in on Peter. ”My dear,” he exclaimed, ”one can see it. But what do you do there?”

She laughed and broke the spell. ”What would one do?” she demanded. ”Eat and drink and sleep, and make love, Peter, if there's anybody to make love to.”

”But you couldn't do that all your life,” he objected.