Part 129 (1/2)
”Very smart indeed!” replied Mr. Snow.
”It's not smart,” spoke Meta resentfully. ”My smart frocks are put away in the drawers. It is for Uncle Thomas, Mr. Snow! Mr. Snow, Uncle Thomas is in heaven now.”
”Ay, child, that he is. And it's time that Miss Meta G.o.dolphin was in bed.”
That same night Mr. Snow was called up to Mrs. George G.o.dolphin.--Let us call her so to the end; but she is Mrs. G.o.dolphin now. Margery was sleeping quietly, the child in a little bed by her side, when she was aroused by some one standing over her. It was her mistress in her night-dress. Up started the woman, wide awake instantly, crying out to know what was the matter.
”Margery, I shan't be in time. The s.h.i.+p's waiting to sail, and none of my things are ready. I can't go without my things.”
Margery, experienced in illness of many kinds, saw what it was. Her mistress had suddenly awakened from some vivid dream, and in her weak state was unable to shake off the delusion. In fact, that species of half-consciousness, half-delirium was upon her, which is apt in the night-time to attack some patients labouring under long-continued and excessive weakness.
She had come up exactly as she got out of bed. No slippers on her feet, nothing upon her shoulders. As Margery threw a warm woollen shawl over those shoulders, she felt the ominous damp of the night-dress. A pair of list-shoes of her own were at the bedside, and she hastily put them upon her mistress's feet.
”There'll be no time, Margery; there'll be no time to get the things ready: they never could be bought and made, you know. Oh, Margery! the s.h.i.+p must not go without me! What will be done?”
”I'll telegraph up to that s.h.i.+p to-morrow morning, and get him to put off starting for a week or two,” cried Margery, nodding her head with authority. ”Never you trouble yourself, ma'am; it will be all right. You shall go to sleep again comfortably, and we'll see about the things with morning light.”
Margery talked as she conveyed her mistress back to bed, and remained talking after she was in it. A stock of this should be got in, a stock of the other: as for linen, it could all be bought ready made--and the best way too, now calico was so cheap. Somewhat surprised that she heard no answer, no further expressed fear, Margery looked close at her mistress by the night-lamp, wondering whether she had gone to sleep again. She had not gone to sleep. She was lying still, cold, white, without sense or motion; and Margery, collected Margery, very nearly screamed.
Maria had fainted away. Margery did not understand it at all, or why she should have fainted when she ought to have gone to sleep. Margery liked it as little as she understood it; and she ran upstairs to their landlady, Mrs. James, and got her to despatch her son for Mr. Snow.
But that was only the beginning. Night after night would these attacks of semi-delirium come upon her, though in the day she seemed pretty well. Mr. Snow came and came, and drew an ominous face and doubled the tonics and changed them, and talked and joked and scolded. But it all seemed unavailing: she certainly did not get better. Weary, weary hours!
weary, weary days! as she lay there alone, struggling with her malady.
And yet no malady, either, that Mr. Snow could discover; nothing but a weakness which he only half believed in.
Janet and Bessy G.o.dolphin were one day sitting with Mrs. George. The time had come for Janet to quit Ashlydyat, and she was paying her farewell visit to Maria. Maria was at the window at work when they arrived; at work with her weak and fevered hands. No very poetical employment, that on which she was engaged, but one which has to be done in most families nevertheless--stocking-darning. She was darning socks for Miss Meta. Miss Meta, her sleeves and white pinafore tied up with black ribbon, her golden curls somewhat in disorder, for the young lady had rebelliously broken from Margery and taken a race round the garden in the blowing wintry wind, her smooth cheeks fresh and rosy, was now roasting her face in front of the fire, her doll and a whole collection of dolls' clothes lying around her on the hearth-rug.
Bessy had come, not so much to accompany Janet, as for a special purpose--to deliver a message from Lady G.o.dolphin. My lady, deeming possibly that her displeasure had lasted long enough, graciously charged Bessy with an invitation to Maria--to spend a day or two at the Folly ere her departure for Calcutta.
Maria gave a sort of sobbing sigh. ”She is very kind. Tell Lady G.o.dolphin how kind I think it of her, Bessy, but that I am not strong enough to go from home now.”
Bessy looked at her. ”But, Maria, if you are not strong enough to go out on a short visit, how shall you be strong enough to undertake a three or four months' voyage?”
Maria paused ere she answered the question. She was gazing out straight before her, as if seeing something at a distance--something in the future. ”I think of it and of its uncertainty a great deal,” she presently said. ”If I can only get away: if I can only keep up sufficiently to get away, I can lie down always in my berth. And if I do die before I reach India, George will be with me.”
”Child!” almost sharply interrupted Janet, ”what are you saying?”
She seemed scarcely to hear the interruption. She sat, gazing still, her white and trembling hands lying clasped on her black dress, and she resumed, as if pursuing the train of thought.
”My great dread is, lest I should not keep up to get to London, to be taken on board; lest George should, after all, be obliged to sail without me. It is always on my mind, Janet; it makes me dream constantly that the s.h.i.+p has gone and I am left behind. I wish I did not have those dreams.”
”Come to Lady G.o.dolphin's Folly, Maria,” persuasively spoke Bessy. ”It will be the very best thing to cheat you of those fears. They all arise from weakness.”
”I have no doubt they do. I had a pleasant dream one night,” she added with some animation. ”I thought we had arrived in safety, and I and George and Meta were sitting under a tree whose leaves were larger than an umbrella. It was very hot, but these leaves shaded us, and I seemed to be well, for we were all laughing merrily together. It _may_ come true, you know, Janet.”
”Yes,” a.s.sented Janet. ”Are you preparing much for the voyage?”
”Not yet. Clothes can be had so quickly now. George talked it over with me when he was down, and we decided to send a list to the outfitter's, just before we sailed, so that the things might not come down here, but be packed in London.”
”And Margery?” asked Janet.