Chapter 8 (1/2)

Confused

[Allen’s POV]

We are both sitting in the bed while playing chess. Its so awkward I don’t know how to say sorry to what happen earlier.

“Checkmate!” I woke up from my trance and looked at her when she said that.

“I don’t want to continue. I want to sleep.” She said again while clearing her bed.

I want to talk to her, but I keep thinking that I already had a lot of mistakes to her. I know I am much older than her so I ought to know about those things.. what about it? I cant remember my past life. What kind of person I am? And the big question is Am I still alive? Maybe I’m already dead and become a ghost?

I looked at her, she is already fixing her blanket and she lie while her back is facing at me. I floated to where her front is. I don’t know, there seems to be a force that is pus.h.i.+ng me to suddenly kiss her forehead.

“Good night Jessica.” I whispered.

[Jessica’s POV]

I suddenly opened my eyes when he did that, he disappear from my sight.. He kissed me on my forehead. “Good night too Allen” even if I know he cant hear me.

I should be sleeping already but after what he did? It looks like I cant. It frustrates me, I am closing my eyes but my mind is still awake. Everything flashes on my mind, the scenes that happen a while ago keeps rewinding in my head.

I keep on turning in the bed, and stopped. I remember that he is under my bed and he will feel my movements above. I look like a statue o a stroke person! I cant move, lub..dub..lub..dub (heart beats fast). Here it is again.

When I woke up.. okay, honestly I think I did not woke up because I did not sleep. When I turned he is already there on my back.

Heart beat fast!

colors and promises..

how to be braved?

How can I love you when I’m afraid to fall?

Watchi’n you stand alone..

all of my thoughts certainly goes away somehow..

One step closer

I am just staring at him, I felt the fast beating of my hearts. And I did not care about it. I just keep staring at him while he is also staring at me.

There is something in his eyes? That there is something he is saying but I cant understand it.

“What happen to your eyes?” He asked me.

“Ah this? Nothing.” No, you are the reason why I have this eye bags.

“Did you not sleep properly?”

Yes, I did not sleep because of you. You keep on disturbing my mind. “Ah, I did sleep properly.” I answered while forcing to smile.

That night when I am going to sleep. He approach me and sat on my bed.

“Do you want me to accompany you so that you can sleep properly?”

There you go again! Making me always confused, I already wondering. Allen I’m already big, I’m not like the kid before who is not use in sleeping alone. Is that what you think of me? That I am still the same kid?

I don’t know why I cant answer, I saw in his facial expression that he don’t know what to do. But in the end he lie beside me.

I don’t know that possess me, I suddenly lay on his harm and hug his chest that I know surprised him. He hugs me, he didn’t change. Still the same, nothing has change. I’m the who changed.

I sleep comfortably, I woke up that our position didn’t change. I woke up before him, this is the first time I saw him sleeping. Usually he woke up before me or we both woke up at the same time.