Part 21 (2/2)

A great load of misery is heavy for a man to bear alone, but it is supportable when he is helped. Unfortunately Gregoire has no friends. He does nothing to obtain them, it almost seems as if he did not want any.

He is not coa.r.s.e, noisy and foul-mouthed, like the rascal Groult who amuses the whole ward. He is only dull and reserved.

He does not often say ”Thank you” when he is offered something, and many touchy people take offence at this.

When I sit down by his bed, he gives no sign of any pleasure at my visit. I ask him:

”What was your business in civil life?”

He does not answer immediately. At last he says: ”Odd jobs; I carried and loaded here and there.”

”Are you married?”

”Yes.”

”Have you any children?”

”Yes.”

”How many?”

”Three.”

The conversation languishes. I get up and say: ”Good-bye till to-morrow, Gregoire.”

”Ah! you will hurt me again to-morrow.”

I rea.s.sure him, or at least I try to rea.s.sure him. Then, that I may not go away leaving a bad impression, I ask:

”How did you get wounded?”

”Well, down there in the plain, with the others....”

That is all. I go away. Gregoire's eyes follow me for a moment, and I cannot even say whether he is pleased or annoyed by my visit.

Good-bye, poor Gregoire. I cross the ward and go to sit down by Auger.

Auger is busy writing up his ”book.”

It is a big ledger some one has given him, in which he notes the important events of his life.

Auger writes a round schoolboy hand. In fact, he can just write sufficiently well for his needs, I might almost say for his pleasure.

”Would you care to look at my book?” he says, and he hands it to me with the air of a man who has no secrets.

Auger receives many letters, and he copies them out carefully, especially when they are fine letters, full of generous sentiments. His lieutenant, for instance, wrote him a remarkable letter.

He also copies into his book the letters he writes to his wife and his little girl. Then he notes the incidents of the day: ”Wound dressed at 10 o'clock. The pus is diminis.h.i.+ng. After dinner Madame la Princesse Moreau paid us a visit, and distributed caps all round; I got a fine green one. The little chap who had such a bad wound in the belly died at 2 o'clock....”

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